oxymoron
Arcanist
- Jul 18, 2019
- 439
Thanks for asking. I am and have been self destructive for a while.I don't want to hurt people who are there for me. Parents a love and friends. I have fear of disappointing g_d too.
Don't go because you make people feel better.Fear. I'm too much of a pussy to actually pull the trigger.
Please stay and suffer with us. Misery loves company.I want to go but idk if I should.
Cough. You have a job of watching me. ;)Like many other members, I don't want to cause pain to people that are close to me, especially not my parents. Just as important, I want to give it a little bit more time to see if my life situation will change or if I can find a way to cope with it, although my hopes are very low. It might not matter, though, because I'll probably end it on an impulse anyway. If I'm sitting here typing and posting a year from now, it's a kind of victory I guess, albeit a pathetic and probably pointless one.
Cough. You have a job of watching me. ;)
And remember. I am on a week insomnia. You have your work cut out for you.True. That requires that you stick around, though. It's a deadlock, isn't it? ;)
We would. ;)I'm on the fence really. I don't really have anyone that would miss me anymore. I'm just trying to squeeze every last bit of happiness out of my life before I give up entirely. Maybe in the process of doing that things will turn around.
Aww you're so sweet as always! Thank you for that.We would. ;)