Why you want to CTB

[Shrek]

Nihilism

 

[deadverysoon]

what makes me angry is as soon as someone does not fit in - he/she MUST have a mental illness.

is someone who got abused in the childhood sick? wtf? i dont think so.

everyone who judges someone who has a struggle or strange behaivor remember this: it also could have been you. and at every time in your life it also come up to you. by accident, by crime, by genetics, or whatever.

and this is what i fucking hate about this society. you get treated your whole life like shit. then because a lack of help you act out and then got your stigma forever.

instead if questioning itself and why people get crazy - they lock them up, judge them etc. they not even try to understand what someone is going through. because they dont care.

i want to ctb because it would be that easy to help people. but they dont fucking want that.

and then cry when the hit is coming with amok or terrorism.

and there ARE possibilities to help and also capabilities.

ugh. thats why i want to ctb. because every day i hate this world even more and getting more ignorant and like an ashole.

i dont fit in and i dont want to.

 

[Chiisai]

what makes me angry is as soon as someone does not fit in - he/she MUST have a mental illness.

is someone who got abused in the childhood sick? wtf? i dont think so.

everyone who judges someone who has a struggle or strange behaivor remember this: it also could have been you. and at every time in your life it also come up to you. by accident, by crime, by genetics, or whatever.

and this is what i fucking hate about this society. you get treated your whole life like shit. then because a lack of help you act out and then got your stigma forever.

instead if questioning itself and why people get crazy - they lock them up, judge them etc. they not even try to understand what someone is going through. because they dont care.

i want to ctb because it would be that easy to help people. but they dont fucking want that.

and then cry when the hit is coming with amok or terrorism.

and there ARE possibilities to help and also capabilities.

ugh. thats why i want to ctb. because every day i hate this world even more and getting more ignorant and like an ashole.

i dont fit in and i dont want to.

Touché

 

[Alwaysbadtime]

Why are people in this thread like @hotelbeneathground and @Alwaysbadtime giving this guy a hard time? If you don't like the thread then just move on, don't dick around.

Sorry, OP, for people like that. I am glad others are giving you the answers you are looking for.

Because he believes 90 percent of people who do it are mentally ill and stated that money problems are temporary. By that logic the question is moot.

 

[SuicideRun]

I've never lacked anything in life to look good, but it is from a very young age that I feel out of time, always out of place. It is not from today that I would like to do CTB but I resisted. But the world is getting faster and dirtier and I am more and more in the dark space of those who always miss the train. All this tires me and smolders me. I'm so tired.

 

[BobMorane]

Because he believes 90 percent of people who do it are mentally ill and stated that money problems are temporary. By that logic the question is moot.

Look, if that statistic pisses you off so much, fuck with the CAMH, not me. The only part I might agree is that for that study they might not have sampled the global population but rather the North American one. But GUESS WHAT : this site is USA based, most users come from states and canada. You're so arrogant you believe your own opinion is superior to objective and researched FACTS. Last time I checked you weren't an epidemiologist or a psychiatrist.. I'm DONE talking with an hysteric donkey that consistently can't see further his own ass. Now piss off.

 

[deflationary]

It's not like mental illness is some rigorous and objective thing. Who really cares what percentage of suicidal peeps would qualify as mentally ill. Most people that don't like life will get diagnosed as mentally ill by definition. It's a social construct that gets way too much respect. Bah.

My reasons are grief, loneliness, fear, exhaustion, misanthropy, feeling chronically confused, alienation, etc.

 

[Gustav Hartmann]

I want to end a good life with a good death.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

I never feel okay.

 

[A_miStake_of_NATURE]

Self-hatred, my life full of regrets and mistakes, zero achievements and this fucked-up world. I think it sums it up

 

[Lifessocruel]

I was living a very good life up until the whole Covid Curse hit, I have a good business which i loved but a series of unfortunate physical health problems and traumatic events have lead me to hit the bottom. I should have been set for life but had an arrhythmia and within a week I had my first ever suicidal thoughts, I was completely knocked out and had no energy for weeks. It was so unexpected being relatively young but now I'm on a highway to hell. I can no longer do my work and my time is running out. Completely failed by my GP's. Thinking of trying ketamine or other psychedelics as a last resort.

 

[Snake of Eden]

I was living a very good life up until the whole Covid Curse hit, I have a good business which i loved but a series of unfortunate physical health problems and traumatic events have lead me to hit the bottom. I should have been set for life but had an arrhythmia and within a week I had my first ever suicidal thoughts, I was completely knocked out and had no energy for weeks. It was so unexpected being relatively young but now I'm on a highway to hell. I can no longer do my work and my time is running out. Completely failed by my GP's. Thinking of trying ketamine or other psychedelics as a last resort.

You have an interesting story and i wish you wrote more. If you dont mind me asking, are you more effected by the physical or mental problems? Sounds like you were hit with a great depression to seek ketamine ans psychedelics

 

[mxEll]

Loneliness and difficulty making meaningful connections with people. I feel like I've wasted my youth and my future is just working to survive. I don't hate life, I just hate myself for not doing anything with mine.

 

[NeverNoLuck]

I hate my life. I cannot feel love or cared for. despite having a few people who do that for me. I see no bright side to anything. I also have tinnitus, so i can't enjoy books, movies, tv shows, music, anything. I'm living on borrowed time.

 

[Lifessocruel]

You have an interesting story and i wish you wrote more. If you dont mind me asking, are you more effected by the physical or mental problems? Sounds like you were hit with a great depression to seek ketamine ans psychedelics

Well mentally now but physically to start with, I have been living with this terrible disease for a few months now and it fucking sucks. I miss my old life so much, I have had some periods of relief and made some progress but then i got carried away and got pissed. Not a good idea, I did have a period of depression a few years ago but that was cos I was jobless for ages and it came on gradually. If you know how to fix your depression u have a chance but I'm not getting any feeling I'm going to come out of this. It's like your brain is talking a different language all of a sudden. Frustrating when not many people understand so its good to relate to people on here, lifes full of good and nasty surprises. I do alot of sport ect but just don't get the same feeling anymore, not sure ive got any endorphins left lol. It's just about keeping me going but money is running out. Thinking i might just try and get benefits for abit.

 

[iamthewalrus]

no future ahead of me; destinied to be a failure. constant self hatred and everyone hating on me. i am fucked up already. there is no turning back at this point.

 

[Fera18]

Hi can someone explain to me what cbt?

 

[everydayiloveyou]

Social anxiety disorder. It ruined my life. I have other problems but nothing has stolen away as much from me as the SAD. If I didn't have it, I wouldn't be on here and I'd be enjoying life like I want to.

I have social anxiety and I may be depressed, but I don't think my depression/desire to ctb is disordered or mentally ill. As crazy as it sounds, I think it's a logical consequence to the distress that SAD causes me. I've thought about ctb whike I was very happy and not anxious, and also while I was super sad and nervous.

I think most people who CTB do it as a result of some kind of mental illness, but there are more and more people ctb legally and otherwise due to physical disabilities and illness. In addition, a lot of the factors that cause depression can be purely situational and/or societal. E.g. Budd Dwyer and other famous figures who killed themselves due to a devastating external event, or to save face, or escape consequences, or a loved one died, or because they went bankrupt, etc...

Finally, there is also the set of people who are mentally ill, but would not be suicidal if treatment and integration were available to them. I'm thinking mostly of people with psychotic and delusional disorders, and also autistic people and those with deformities or disabilities that they don't have any discomfort with. Sometimes the worst part about being different is the way other people treat you for it. The distress in those scenarios comes from the knowledge that *others* will make it difficult for you to lead a normal life.

Not everyone who commits suicide is mentally ill, but most of them are. It doesn't mean that every mentally ill person who kills themselves does so because of the direct influence of their illness.

 

[mentalhealthfighter]

Hi can someone explain to me what cbt?

CTB = Cease To Breathe. Means to suicide.

 

[FailureGirl]

I could blame mental health or the fact it's close to impossible for me to make real world connections or that I fail everything and everyone who matters but I just don't want to be alive and haven't for a very long time.
It's pointless living and working and suffering just to die and eventually be forgotten.

 

[WatermelonMel]

Well, one thing that makes me want to CTB is the argument that took place in this thread.

In all seriousness, Aspergers and just tired of people. Also 2020-2021 has been real bad.

 

[heretogethelp]

Depressed

 

[Sarainia Angelsong]

Physically ill, in tremendous pain, lots of past traumas, depression 24/7 always.​

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

There's nothing that I can get out of life that I actually want. But I'll still feel pain like everybody else.

 

[OnlyTheWind]

Not everyone who commits suicide is mentally ill, but most of them are. It doesn't mean that every mentally ill person who kills themselves does so because of the direct influence of their illness.

Yes, sometimes the burdens of our experiences are just too much, and having to carry them through life is never going to be worth it. I can't tell you how many times I've been told to "just get over high school, it's in the past!". There are certainly deep marks of depression associated with this which has no doubt gotten worse over the years, but truth is, I refuse to live with never being able to go back and do things over. I'm stubborn and to me, that's a good reason as any to ctb.

 

[seeking2learn]

My life has been like a dull overcast day for as long as I can remember. However In April of this year my life took a turn for the worst, I contracted covid 19 and was bed bound for 3 weeks with lost of taste and constant headaches, and Lost lost 34lbs. Ever since, my outlook on life has become very grim. I spend all of my free time laying down in my dark room. I only communicate with others when completely necessary. What is the purpose of continuing with this meaningless life? Things seem to only get worse. We all CTB one day, why not take matters into my own hands and check out earlier? Why suffer?