Venting Why is killing oneself so hard? WHY

[bungalooping]

I just wish my dad didn't sleep right next to the anchor point, I'm fucking tired of trying to choke myself out from the metal bar in my wardrobe. It just never works. NEVER EVER. TIME IS FUCKING TICKING.

I have 6 days now, 6 fucking days, I can't go back, I need to be dead, why is this so hard, I'm crying right now.

Why can't I just shut everything off? Why? DO I FUCKING NEED TO DRUG MY DAD TO SLEEP SO I CAN TRY FULLY HANGING MYSELF? WHY WONT YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE IN THE HOUSE FOR AN HOUR?

Matter of fact, what if the full suspension hanging doesn't work just like partial? What if I'm just doomed to be here? Or doomed to fucking jump in front of a train, or just go to the top of a mountain and jump off?

Why is it this hard to commit suicide

WHYYY

 

[LunarEc]

I don't recommend jumping in front of a train or hanging yourself. Both are extremely risky and sometimes they can fail. Resulting in permanent injuries. I know how hard it is to commit suicide speaking from experience. If you got money then your best bet is SN. You can totally hide it and nobody will question it.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand, it's just so cruel and dreadful to me how it's so difficult to be permanently free from this existence, I wish there's the option to just simply cease existing in peace and never suffer ever again with no risks of it going wrong and leading to even more suffering but anyway I wish you the best, I hope you find the peace you search for.

 

[Reflection]

I don't recommend jumping in front of a train or hanging yourself. Both are extremely risky and sometimes they can fail. Resulting in permanent injuries. I know how hard it is to commit suicide speaking from experience. If you got money then your best bet is SN. You can totally hide it and nobody will question it.

Hanging is a tried and true method and shouldn't be too risky if you know what you're doing.

 

[Forveleth]

Killing yourself is remarkably difficult and it is incredibly frustrating. Many, many here can sympathize with you. Usually full suspension is a pretty reliable method as your body weight is usually enough to close off veins/arteries to your brain. The biggest risk with full suspension is your setup breaking or someone stopping you.

I don't recommend jumping in front of a train or hanging yourself. Both are extremely risky and sometimes they can fail.

Hanging is historically one of the most frequently used suicide methods. It can be very reliable with a good rope and anchor point. Can you please elaborate on why you find it extremely risky?

 

[LunarEc]

Killing yourself is remarkably difficult and it is incredibly frustrating. Many, many here can sympathize with you. Usually full suspension is a pretty reliable method as your body weight is usually enough to close off veins/arteries to your brain. The biggest risk with full suspension is your setup breaking or someone stopping you.


Hanging is historically one of the most frequently used suicide methods. It can be very reliable with a good rope and anchor point. Can you please elaborate on why you find it extremely risky?

If you get "saved" or the rope somehow breaks then you'll end up brain dead. If you'd hang yourself then do it in a place where you'll know that nobody will be there for a while and tie it well around something that can handle the weight. Ceiling fans won't work. A while ago I broke mine when I tied a rope around it. I was 16 at that time, 60kgs, and it only held me for like 20 seconds. It was a painful fall and if I had stayed for a minute or two I don't what could've happened if it fell at that time.

Hanging is a tried and true method and shouldn't be too risky if you know what you're doing.

true but I still don't like the cons vs pros when it comes to hanging.

 

[YoungJijii]

I don't recommend jumping in front of a train or hanging yourself. Both are extremely risky and sometimes they can fail. Resulting in permanent injuries. I know how hard it is to commit suicide speaking from experience. If you got money then your best bet is SN. You can totally hide it and nobody will question it.

I would've thought that jumping in front of a train would've been one of the less riskier options

 

[missanthrope]

I just wish my dad didn't sleep right next to the anchor point, I'm fucking tired of trying to choke myself out from the metal bar in my wardrobe. It just never works. NEVER EVER. TIME IS FUCKING TICKING.

I have 6 days now, 6 fucking days, I can't go back, I need to be dead, why is this so hard, I'm crying right now.

Why can't I just shut everything off? Why? DO I FUCKING NEED TO DRUG MY DAD TO SLEEP SO I CAN TRY FULLY HANGING MYSELF? WHY WONT YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE IN THE HOUSE FOR AN HOUR?

Matter of fact, what if the full suspension hanging doesn't work just like partial? What if I'm just doomed to be here? Or doomed to fucking jump in front of a train, or just go to the top of a mountain and jump off?

Why is it this hard to commit suicide

WHYYY

its really not going by statistics, trains are not a good option but there are ways, maybe you arent ready

 

[onlyformyself]

Most difficult thing ever

 

[Halfhourdays]

I sympathize completely. Facing setbacks, problems with privacy, etc.

I wish there was some simple OTC medicine that would work instead of this 'oder SN online' business.

I hope you feel better.