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CFLoser

CFLoser

I fcking hate myself
Dec 5, 2018
609
It's strange. For ANYTHING you start, it's really hard to just 100% give up.

i hate writing. I wish I could beam my thoughts onto this iPhone screen.

I feel like... giving up is the same as achieving "success." You reach a clear end goal. But both are so difficult to do. It's why people can have awful lives and plans to CTB but they lack the CONSISTENT willpower to reach their end goal.

What is it about end goals, whether that's "success" or "failure" (giving up) that makes them so slippery and hard to grasp?? I just... idk it feels like my brain is not working. My brain isn't connecting the dots it should. Prozac maybe??
 
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