Venting Why I want to ctb

[Notaname]

I spent about an hour typing this up to realize I'm incoherent and that nobody wants to read my whole life in great detail. TL;DR is that fiance left right as business got forced to shut down for stupid shit. Said she didn't want to deal with my depression and found out she was cheating too. Only person I trusted due to trauma and past life experience... No fiance, $600 in bank, way more expenses cuz she moved out, car was hers so losing that, possibly losing a place to live too. I'm anti-social so not really any close friends. Everything came crashing down so fast... I can't stand the pressure. Been depressed for a long time. Got the last part I need for inert gas method shipping from Amazon rn. Gonna see if anything looks up in the next week, if not gonna just literally bite the bullet.

 

[Worndown]

Everyone has their own reasons. All we can do is hope things turn around for you.

 

[FuneralCry]

It really is cruel to me how existing can very easily get worse, but anyway I wish you the best in whatever happens.

 

[Terios]

I genuinely don't understand how people can be this selfish and cruel to just up and leave their loved ones the moment things get rocky a bit.... your ex fiancé didn't like you for who you were, just for what needs you were able to fulfill. I really hope everything goes well for you.

 

[AceVendetta7500]

My fiancé also left me. This past April. I was very depressed at the time and they didn't want to deal with me anymore. They seem to hate me now. Blamed me for their self harming behavior and some other messed up stuff. I have no idea why she didn't communicate these issues during the relationship but she didn't. Now all I want to do is CTB.

 

[Notaname]

My fiancé also left me. This past April. I was very depressed at the time and they didn't want to deal with me anymore. They seem to hate me now. Blamed me for their self harming behavior and some other messed up stuff. I have no idea why she didn't communicate these issues during the relationship but she didn't. Now all I want to do is CTB.

I hope that you can finally find some peace. If you've truly thought it through and this is what you want, then I hope you can come to a peaceful and relaxing exit.