why don’t they love me

[wildflowers1996]

the person I was best friends for years with knows I want to ctb
We spent nearly every day together
They don't care they say nothing
why I am I so worthless

 

[quiet.rabbit]

the person I was best friends for years with knows I want to ctb
We spent nearly every day together
They don't care they say nothing
why I am I so worthless

They might just not know what to say. It's a shocking thing for people to hear from a loved one.

 

[rosenwasser]

the person I was best friends for years with knows I want to ctb
We spent nearly every day together
They don't care they say nothing
why I am I so worthless

I had a "best friend" just like this. She really didn't care how I was doing and later told me she didn't want anything to do with me anymore because I'm so selfish and she has to deal with me venting about how I'm doing.
She just wasn't a friend. I'm sorry about your pain. But perhaps @quiet.rabbit is right and they are just overwhelmed. For people who have never been suicidal, it's difficult to understand this and find the right words. Did they reach out to you in any way?

 

[theboy]

What does he think of your decision?

 

[Forever Sleep]

Are they pro-choice themselves? If they are, it puts them in a tricky position. Sometimes I ask myself- what would I do if a friend in real life wanted to CTB? Would I try to stop them? Could I? Would that be fair? Surely, I'd have to see that they were in enough pain to want to kill themselves and- I wouldn't want them to live like that either. I hope I'd be there for them in terms of being there to talk but, it would be hypocritical if I tried to talk them out of it. Do you actually want your friend to try and stop you?

 

[wildflowers1996]

I don't want them to stop me I just wish they cared about me

I'm not sure if they are pro choice or not. But they post things like "please reach out if you are suicidal" but it just doesn't apply to me
No, they didn't reach out