Venting Why does it have to be so hard

[traingirl]

Can someone just push me to make it easier

 

[autumn68]

it's really hard, i wish i had some advice for you. i'm in a similar position, unfortunately realizing that i think i won't have the stomach to do it for a while. every time i think i'm close i get scared or something stops me. alcohol has gotten me close but even then i back out.

 

[traingirl]

it's really hard, i wish i had some advice for you. i'm in a similar position, unfortunately realizing that i think i won't have the stomach to do it for a while. every time i think i'm close i get scared or something stops me. alcohol has gotten me close but even then i back out.

It's like everything in my life is pointing towards me CTBing my physical and mental health are in shambles and I'm ready to go but fear glues my feet to the ground

 

[Dejected 55]

I don't know, but it is. I've long had no reason to hope... but I cling to fantasy scenarios of being rescued by the woman I love... but I'm probably a matter of weeks before being in deep financial serious shit and getting kicked out of my house... which means I need to either be saved or kill myself in the next 1-3 weeks... and it's so damn hard to get there. I have a plan, hope it works, but it could fail... nothing is guaranteed... and a world of shit is coming my way in a hurry if I'm not dead or saved before then.