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itsokayitokay

itsokayitokay

Member
May 8, 2024
10
ive been thinking abt it lately and im lwk curious!! i know i started for attention but now i do it bc its a habit and its comforting in a way
 
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microwaved_dawg

microwaved_dawg

Certified dumbass
Nov 22, 2024
26
Because I fucking HATE the shitass dumb fuck that I unfortunately am. šŸ‘
That aside, I don't like cutting because it draws attention, so I often opt for blunt force trauma instead.
 
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The_screaming_dawn

The_screaming_dawn

Member
Dec 12, 2023
21
I mean why not, my body is a temple, the wrong temple. People compare tattoos to graffiti, my cuts are me swinging a hammer at it. I never wanted to be female but I also refuse to come out as a trans person because theres so many bigoted people in the world that care what other people do with their own damn temples. Besides that, every time I fuck up its a slice so that maybe I can remember and not make the mistake again. I've mostly stopped since I've gotten alcohol now and weed but as my forced sobriety goes on its definetely making me think more and more about it.
 
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Nobodi

Nobodi

Member
Sep 24, 2024
78
Pain brings you to the present moment. When your mind is racing, pain forces you to live in the moment. I do it so I don't get stuck in past and not to get stuck pondering about the future. Pain brings me to the immediate moment.
 
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4Kumo7

4Kumo7

INFP 4w5, FtM, from Northern Italy.
Mar 7, 2025
31
ive been thinking abt it lately and im lwk curious!! i know i started for attention but now i do it bc its a habit and its comforting in a way
I like it, idk if the hurting itself or the sight. On top of all, I really don't see my body as something important, it's just, idk, it's just something that makes me up ig.
I also feel that cutting is the only way for me to deserve someone's care
 
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Rev346

Rev346

Iā€™m here but will I still be next year?
Oct 23, 2023
142
I first started to desensitize myself. The goal was to learn how to do little cuts so I could work my way up to cutting a vital area. Then I learned it's extremely addictive. It's also a release, not quite sure how to explain it.
 
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softtodie

Member
Feb 24, 2025
9
It's a coping mechanism for me, it's the only thing that helps to relieve any emotional pain/whatever I'm feeling
 
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_Maya

_Maya

Thank you for always staying with me.
Jan 26, 2025
96
Relives stress, i always found hurting myself in different ways was very comforting.
 
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eternaldeath

eternaldeath

sleepy
Apr 14, 2024
37
ive been thinking abt it lately and im lwk curious!! i know i started for attention but now i do it bc its a habit and its comforting in a way
curiousity. it used to only make me feel worse but the more i did it the better i felt, the blood is just inconveniencing
 
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encore

encore

when stars align
Nov 14, 2024
64
only ever cut during my last relationship due to being severely triggered and put through immense mental pain. a mix of releasing it/forcing myself to focus on something physical in order to ground myself. also used it as a way to show my partner at the time just how much things they did hurt me bc i guess it made sense to me back then lol
 
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lucretiareverie

lucretiareverie

WELCOME TO WHITE SPACE.
Jan 23, 2025
9
If you're just starting, you should stop.

I cut myself. When I first started, the cuts were very shallow and small, but it got progressively worse over time. It will eventually get out of hand. It will be too late by then.

I started cutting myself as punishment and now I do it to function. I do not know your life, or know you, but if you want attention you should reach out. Theres no shame in doing it for that reason, it shows more going on under the surface than just wanting attention. Talk to someone, anyone.

If you are going to self harm, make sure the tools you're using are clean. Do aftercare, bandage the wounds and clean them. Warm water and a little soap usually works. Infection is horrible, keep your cuts clean and watch for a foul smel or pus.

Be as safe as you can.
 
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Alek1=

Alek1=

Member
Apr 19, 2024
16
It started mostly because of the massive amount of stress, I did it with my nails at first and the pain was kinda comforting. Then I started using knifes but it was too visible even when done on legs or stomach. I got kinda better at the nail ones tho. Now I don't even get any wounds so no one can tell.
 
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Thomas Rekowicz

Thomas Rekowicz

Member
Mar 10, 2025
53
I used to make shallow cuts with razor blades on my arm. IT helped me feel my body and wake up from numbness. IT also hit me with endorphins so IT elevate the pain from my emotions. Cutting is very addicting i also hit my back with a metal belt buckle as a punishment for example when i got bad grade in school IT was dark time in my life now i have more acceptance and empathy for myself.
 
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shrizoid

shrizoid

Student
Nov 18, 2024
188
ive been thinking abt it lately and im lwk curious!! i know i started for attention but now i do it bc its a habit and its comforting in a way
I don't sh much but when I do it's because I like seeing myself bleed, and because I deserved it
 
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areyousafe??

Arcanist
Nov 27, 2024
401
Most of the time, for emotional release (sadness, distress, anger). I have also sh'ed for punishment and to relieve stress.
 
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(in)sane

(in)sane

"If you are alone you belong entirely to yourself"
Jun 9, 2024
58
I grew up in a country where kids get beaten whenever they make a mistake. Even at school if you get an answer wrong you get hit. Now I feel like I only learn out of my mistakes when I physically punish myself. So I sh.
 
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Jaded_Wolf

Jaded_Wolf

Member
Feb 13, 2025
20
A variety of reasons comes to mind:

  1. To punish myself
  2. To gain a sense of control (I'm the one doing the cutting on myself)
  3. To feel calm (physical pain is much more logical and predictable than emotional pain)
  4. To externalize the pain I'm feeling inside
  5. It works (as far as temporarily distracting my mind from the emotional pain)
I don't cut nowhere near as frequently as I used to in my younger years. However, I still have plenty of faded scars.
 
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ushina_mashi

ushina_mashi

The pain it still remains and I'll just get denied
Mar 13, 2025
20
I don't anymore (although I've been clean for not even two months so maybe I'm just deluding myself into thinking I won't do it again) but when I think about how it started it's really weird to think about because it started when my friends were talking about it and I got curious how it would feel and got I guess addicted to it, I stopped for about a year for no reason and when I started doing it again this time it was mostly to feel something and to punish myself. I miss it, when it would become barely visible I'd feel like I'm just pretending to not be okay and all my problems are made up
 
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FrownyFace

FrownyFace

Is it suicide or sabotage you think
May 15, 2024
33
ive been thinking abt it lately and im lwk curious!! i know i started for attention but now i do it bc its a habit and its comforting in a way
I suffer from misophonia and when a sound is overwhelming, I take my anger out on myself, just to get the feelings to go away.
Sometimes I do it because I hate myself, but it's always because I'm angry, and misophonia is the worst trigger.
 
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hellworldprincess

hellworldprincess

death come kind. lay no curse on me.
Jun 29, 2024
88
I do it to punish myself and to regain control over situations.
Also I just like to see my own blood flowing. Maybe I only associate it with that feeling of relief, but I think I just find it aesthetically pleasing.

I never wanted to be female but I also refuse to come out as a trans person because theres so many bigoted people in the world that care what other people do with their own damn temples.
As a trans person I understand that struggle. As long as there are some people who would accept you, I think it's definitely worth socially transitioning, even if you only share it with them (at first).
Depending on what kind of transition you would even want that might already be a big relief.
If you're talking about FtM or possibly hormones, that would still be an important the first step.

Of course it doesn't alleviate any pain that is not directly caused by internal gender dysphoria.
 
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blackIronPrison

blackIronPrison

Member
Mar 2, 2025
35
Its a straightforward way for me to turn my attention away from pain that I can't do anything about towards a pain I can do something about, like physical cut or gash. Also real physical pain feels grounding to me.
 
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TransTaxEvader

TransTaxEvader

what's next?
Feb 22, 2025
181
scars are hot, i like making scars
 
Izzythebelle

Izzythebelle

Member
Mar 8, 2025
27
It always starts by being easier to deal with physical pain than emotional pain, and then i get lost in how pretty the red lines get. It's almost an art with how swirly and clear I try to get them, like a game.
 
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IsolatedChaos

IsolatedChaos

Member
Dec 25, 2024
33
ive been thinking abt it lately and im lwk curious!! i know i started for attention but now i do it bc its a habit and its comforting in a way
It's comforting, yeah. It's a form of regulation. If I'm having a moment and can't take it anymore, or I need to get my shit together asap, it's a wonderful way to ground for me. I no longer focus on my overwhelming feelings, I'm simply focusing on this moment, and of taking care of it right after. I think that cutting is just something that shifts your consciousness in a way nothing else can, because it's working off the base instinct you have as an animal that triggers when you're "injured", it releases adrenaline and chemicals, etc.
 
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2messdup

2messdup

Enlightened
Feb 10, 2024
1,257
Because I hate myself with every fibre of my being and I enjoy seeing the damage I inflict on my disgusting body. I have to see blood too and sometimes taste it, enjoying the bleeding and suffering inflicted on the bloated mass that I am, almost like the blood is part of my body losing the will to live and repair. Must be an element of wanting to inflict pain too, although I don't notice that need, but sometimes I also cut my tongue for the blood and damage but it's far less satisfying because the pain is less. Don't do it for attention at all. I do it on my belly where no one will see.
 
AloneInCollege

AloneInCollege

The one and only
Mar 7, 2022
167
I don't cut but I do hit myself. I've tried to cut before but I couldn't do it except one time and even then it was only a little and it freaked me out. I started hitting myself over ten years ago. I started to punish myself, now I do it when I'm angry at myself or even at others or sometimes because I'm depressed. I try to only hit my legs because I used to hit my head all the time (one time I slammed my head into the ground) and I'm pretty sure I gave myself brain damage since I've been getting dumber and more cloudy ever since. I do sometimes still hit my head though because it feels way better than the legs. I've had some months where I don't hit myself, I think my record was 4 months. Now I do it basically at least once a day. I wish I could cut myself as I feel like I deserve it and hitting is too nice but oh well.
 
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ilvgore

ilvgore

alien
Jan 7, 2024
117
boredom it distracts me from it and sometimes because i wanna punish myself or when im in so much emotional distress but i remember one time someone threatened to live me and i couldn't handle my emotions so i cut myself
 
NonEssential

NonEssential

Hanging in there
Jan 15, 2025
283
I used to cut my thighs. I liked to hurt and see myself bleed. I also liked the ticklish feeling when walking around after that.
 
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mattoman

mattoman

Member
Nov 26, 2024
90
I don't cut but I drink a lot which is self-harm in it's own way. I honestly couldn't care less about my health, if I happen to die because of an organ failure, then it just happen. At least I feel a bit better and more like a human when I'm a bit drunk.
 
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zombiegirl

zombiegirl

the living dead
Aug 17, 2023
156
many reasons, can vary, like i used to do it for attention/validation but then it became a way to release emotions, or because i hated myself, or because i felt too blah and wanted that adrenaline rush to feel something. but sometimes i just did it out of boredom, addiction, for "fun"
i've been sober from cutting for over a hundred days tho ^_^
 
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