Busridin'26
Hating every minute of being alive.
- Dec 8, 2019
- 1,933
I woke up feeling.... a lot?
Not more per say than the usual butttt im like at this point is ot worth it to try to apply for assisted suicide im europe? I dunno how od afford a ticket and shit... hell I barly know how it works bc of how its so restricted here with M.A.I.D (I know a lot about this but it's such a hopeless situation)
Bc I know I want to CTB but doing ot myself? I dunno if I'll ever be able though... I am going to / on the verge of like trying soon. I need to get all the materials but that's like half the battle for me. Making the decision is important.
God I just wish this shit wasn't so fucking hard. I don't want to be forced to be here out of fucking obligation. Or bc S.I. is a natural human feature and hard to "overcome"
Anyway just thoughts. Hope I go back to sleep soon or whatever.
I'm kinda drowning again and I just want this to be over. Going to start looking into international options. I'm broke. Can't even afford food and medications but thats juat a push for me. This world is fucking sick.
Thoughts are probs discombobulated but yeah. Vent over for now ig.
Not more per say than the usual butttt im like at this point is ot worth it to try to apply for assisted suicide im europe? I dunno how od afford a ticket and shit... hell I barly know how it works bc of how its so restricted here with M.A.I.D (I know a lot about this but it's such a hopeless situation)
Bc I know I want to CTB but doing ot myself? I dunno if I'll ever be able though... I am going to / on the verge of like trying soon. I need to get all the materials but that's like half the battle for me. Making the decision is important.
God I just wish this shit wasn't so fucking hard. I don't want to be forced to be here out of fucking obligation. Or bc S.I. is a natural human feature and hard to "overcome"
Anyway just thoughts. Hope I go back to sleep soon or whatever.
I'm kinda drowning again and I just want this to be over. Going to start looking into international options. I'm broke. Can't even afford food and medications but thats juat a push for me. This world is fucking sick.
Thoughts are probs discombobulated but yeah. Vent over for now ig.
