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itgetsworseandworse
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- Sep 20, 2024
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I don't understand how I manage to fall for the illusion of getting better every time. I am tired of the endless loop of despair and joy and then even deeper despair. The peaks get lower and lower and yet whenever the slope tilts upwards I fool myself thinking I'm all better now.
And I know, that although this is clear to me now, if in a month or too things get slightly better, I'll believe the lie yet again.
I really don't want this cycle to continue. If I wasn't indebted to so many people, I'd quit it now. But for now, all I have is dreaming of the moment after which I'll no longer hurt ever again.
And I know, that although this is clear to me now, if in a month or too things get slightly better, I'll believe the lie yet again.
I really don't want this cycle to continue. If I wasn't indebted to so many people, I'd quit it now. But for now, all I have is dreaming of the moment after which I'll no longer hurt ever again.