Why do I feel so calm all of a sudden?

[Beyond_Repair]

I have my date set. I have the stuff. I have tied up loose ends and made peace with the guilt I have been wrestling with.

And since around that time I have just felt such a sense of inner peace and a bit of numbness, but in a contented sort of way. I feel so detached from anything and I have been noticing a significant lack of anxiety that normally consumes my thoughts. I feel like I've lost myself, in the best way possible. I've been reminiscing on happy moments in my childhood that I haven't thought about in years

I am a bit confused by this (not uncomfortable though, it's been nice), since I have been feeling more free and different I wonder if that's a sign I'm changing for the better?

In reality though I know it's because I no longer have to worry about work, bills, toxic family, people in general, etc.

It's so absurd that I've felt the calmest and most content I've ever been knowing it's almost over

 

[3/4Dead]

From what I've heard, a lot of people experience this. Consider how many people talk about how a person why know who comitted suicide seemed happier than they'd been in years the week or day before they were gone. It's peaceful, sometimes exciting to know you can finally rest.

 

[mistymoo]

Whenever I would start breaking down I would start planning my end and it calmed me right down. I would assume it has something to do with taking control of a situation you feel you've been spiraling out of control with

 

[Beyond_Repair]

From what I've heard, a lot of people experience this. Consider how many people talk about how a person why know who comitted suicide seemed happier than they'd been in years the week or day before they were gone. It's peaceful, sometimes exciting to know you can finally rest.

I've definitely heard people talk about what you're describing. It's such a freeing feeling. I know it must seem incomprehensible for a normie or outsider, but the feeling that nothing matters and your worries are inconsequential is so freeing

Whenever I would start breaking down I would start planning my end and it calmed me right down. I would assume it has something to do with taking control of a situation you feel you've been spiraling out of control with

That makes sense, I can definitely attest to the feeling that I have complete control over my own life, for once