Venting Why do i always cry alone

[Hagi_Im]

Hello, sorry if I suddenly complain too much, I just have no one to talk to. As I said in my previous post, there was a lot of shit in my life. I hate this world, I hate myself, my life and the circumstances I found myself in. I regret being born in this world. It hurts me to see how many people around the world suffer from injustice, pain and loss. War, hunger, social poverty. I feel guilty, as if I should have helped these people, but I can't do anything for them, hell, I couldn't even help myself. I feel like a hero on whom the whole world was counting, but I failed. But I'm an ordinary person, weak, without influence, and alone. I cry because so many people close to me are counting on me and I'm an anchor that only pulls them down. I'm so tired of everything, I fought so much, I extended my hand. But when I found myself in trouble, no one came to my aid. Except for the girl who loved me, and I chickened out and left her. She was doing CTB and I couldn't even help her. I was grieving, and even now I'm crying. Sometimes I go crazy, and I just turn into a beast. This beast wants to destroy everything and everyone. I'm not a good person, I'm just shit. Why why, how did I become like this. I'm tired, and I just want to do CTB.

 

[SVEN]

Venting on here is just fine. Sometimes, even though we haven't any answers to offer by way of consolation, knowing that we hear what you are saying, understand your feelings and would say something helpful if we knew what, might be of some use to you.
Best wishes.

 

[twilightSparriw]

Wish i could do that… crying…

Cry but don't go into beast mode… you might hurt others….