Crematoryy
Autophagic Loneliness
- Feb 12, 2025
- 269
I'm writing this because I'm sure what I'm about to describe is a recurring theme for Sasu users.
Today is the first day my country will play, the streets celebrate and people crowd together to cheer. Meanwhile, I remain alone in my home, longing for presences that never existed, fantasizing about scenarios that never happened. All festive dates bring with them the pain of deflection: when the camaraderie of others highlights loneliness. I spent Valentine's Day without anyone to give my love to, I'm at the World Cup without even receiving a single notification of how my day was, and I will be alone again at Christmas and New Year's.
Today is the first day my country will play, the streets celebrate and people crowd together to cheer. Meanwhile, I remain alone in my home, longing for presences that never existed, fantasizing about scenarios that never happened. All festive dates bring with them the pain of deflection: when the camaraderie of others highlights loneliness. I spent Valentine's Day without anyone to give my love to, I'm at the World Cup without even receiving a single notification of how my day was, and I will be alone again at Christmas and New Year's.