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Venting why can't i let myself make connections

Leonard_Bangley39

Leonard_Bangley39

I am a rock. I am an island
Nov 6, 2025
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im so lonely. i want to connect with people, make friends. but just seeing other people being friends just makes me hate myself for some reason. opening discord and seeing other users joking around makes me just shut down, it makes me feel sad, guilty, i long for it but for some reason that same feeling makes me avoid it. i just shut down and isolate. i hate seeing it, i can never not feel envious.
it's because im not good enough. i never feel good enough. i want to be like them but i can never be like them. i hate myself. why can't i be like them.
 
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