Who wants CTB because of being short men or women? To be short?

[disabledlife]

I can't stand my size anymore and being encouraged by big kids, I blame my parents for not having made me grow up properly. I crave CTB, it's mostly because of that, in addition to illnesses etc.

Everyday I mentally hold myself back to not CTB anytime, when I go out and see people I can't take it anymore.

It's the same, people, as stupid as they are, tell me "you're not the only one to be small", there are worse than you!

So I issue an ultimatum to nature, which gave birth to me in this shitty body: "If, every day that I go out, and that I meet people, I do not see, at least, a man who is of the same size or smaller than me, I CTB the next day." Every day is Russian roulette, I'm afraid to end up with a day where I only saw people taller than me, and to be forced to BTC in an emergency, leaving things as they are!

A CTB, even if I haven't finished my tidying up of my home, to move, then plan an MVA in Switzerland, or euthanasia (in Belgium for example), as my illness apparently allows me!

Also, when I'm looking for second-hand clothes, shoes, etc., I don't want them to be worn by people taller than me (it's hard on my feet, which are tall). almost impossible to find! I try Vinted, Facebook Marketplace, etc, and I see that people are at least 5'9 see 6 feet (male) (180cm minimum). I'm fed up, it's like that, all the time, a nightmare.

 

[dreamscape1111]

people who care how tall you are aren't really worth your time.
when someone makes fun of anyone about anything, they're telling you about themselves, not you.

also, it might very well be the case that you are the only one who cares about your height! could that be a possibility?
it might have just been a bad assumption.

of course, it's also important to acknowledge differences between genders, skin colors, nationalities, etc. but at the end of the day,
what are you going to do about it?

no matter what you identify as, or what your situation is, in a sense all that you can do anyways is walk, sit, and lie down a little until one day this precious life ends,
it could come any moment, it's the only certainty. kings and commons end up the same, honor this gift and remember death often. (memento mori)

there's always plenty to be grateful for, but it's easy to forget and assume we'll live here forever. sorry for your illness though, i imagine chronic issues really suck.
hopefully, you can find ways to work around whatever you're dealing with, rock with whatever cards you've been dealt! make some lemonade as they say! ;)

 

[disabledlife]

If I can't stand my size anymore, I have nightmares about it, it's because I was harassed because of it.

I had specified elsewhere, in SaSu, that I lived in a terrible city, a hell on Earth, especially at school. A city that is recognized by educators, doctors, teachers, etc., as the worst city in my region, and one of the worst cities in my country, in terms of mentality, and who have never seen children so harsh, cruel, etc! I heard insults, mockery, that they were going to crush me, destroy me, eat me...

I have witnessed tall people fighting short people, crushing them, holding them down, extorting them.

I was very lucky to hide, like a rat among cats, it's literally true!

I saw educators from an association for the handicapped, in this city, who are tall, insult handicapped people who are short, especially for their height, humiliate them.

Whatever the age of the people, they behave like in the playground of the worst possible school, with its gangs, the law of the strongest, with the complicity of the local authorities.

I saw suicides, and even murders, just as I saw people sink into madness before never seeing them again (probably final psychiatric hospitalizations), it's horrible.

Many people who have lived in this city have kept, but who were lucky not to go mad, have kept heavy mental and physical consequences!

There are many who want CTB, for having suffered this city, because they had the misfortune to be born badly, to be ugly, small, handicapped, to have a poor family, to be LGBT, to have spoken truths about this city ( reprisals).

 

[StarMaiden]

I can't stand my size anymore and being encouraged by big kids, I blame my parents for not having made me grow up properly. I crave CTB, it's mostly because of that, in addition to illnesses etc.

Everyday I mentally hold myself back to not CTB anytime, when I go out and see people I can't take it anymore.

It's the same, people, as stupid as they are, tell me "you're not the only one to be small", there are worse than you!

So I issue an ultimatum to nature, which gave birth to me in this shitty body: "If, every day that I go out, and that I meet people, I do not see, at least, a man who is of the same size or smaller than me, I CTB the next day." Every day is Russian roulette, I'm afraid to end up with a day where I only saw people taller than me, and to be forced to BTC in an emergency, leaving things as they are!

A CTB, even if I haven't finished my tidying up of my home, to move, then plan an MVA in Switzerland, or euthanasia (in Belgium for example), as my illness apparently allows me!

Also, when I'm looking for second-hand clothes, shoes, etc., I don't want them to be worn by people taller than me (it's hard on my feet, which are tall). almost impossible to find! I try Vinted, Facebook Marketplace, etc, and I see that people are at least 5'9 see 6 feet (male) (180cm minimum). I'm fed up, it's like that, all the time, a nightmare.

What is your height if I may ask? Though I am not technically a dwarf I am on the cusp at 4'10" but admittedly it's probably not as hard for me being a woman, in terms of societal judgement, actually I think strangers usually assume I'm a young teenager. Even still, I don't like my size because it makes me feel extremely vulnerable and like I'm never taken seriously. That said, I've always thought short men (my height to 5'4") were really charming and cute, and I don't feel as afraid of them like I do with taller men. I feel more comfortable and on even ground with people closer to my size.

 

[GasMonkey]

I'm a manlet too.