Who else has wanted to kill themselves for years?

[It'llNeverEnd]

not that it might make a difference, but I was in the same boat recently. constant doctors visit, all telling me about to their papers I'm perfectly healthy despite the intolerable pain and constant migraines. turns out it was a couple food intolerances, which of course no doctor told me to try. worth looking into to.

 

[Smashingairwaves]

For the last 8 years it's been at the back of my mind. Started being actively suicidal maybe 4 years ago. Didn't know how to end it until a year ago. I feel now that I'm stuck in an in between. Just waiting until I finally go through with it

 

[Marktheghost]

Yep. Me. Just don't know what the safest, least painful way is, and scared of going through a lot of suffering but staying alive.

 

[sadgirl2002]

I've been suicidal since I was 13, heck, maybe even since I was a child but I can't remember much.

 

[Pan]

Yes, exactly; to know you have the power to say NO to life in a kind of all-embracing, existential way. I know I done speak for everyone, nor did I expect to. The terms of life as they exist are simply unacceptable to me. But, if at 64, I feel more anxious and depressed than I did, ''tis" time to exit this roadshow.

 

[TimeToBiteTheDust]

Not years for me. But months. If I make it to October it will be a year of daily ctb thoughts. But I don't think so. This is my year.

 

[Pan]

What I fear most is that any given psychiatric/physical problems worsen with age. To age in this ruthlessly inequitable society isn' t what I call life, it's a kind of death. "Do what is right for you", I tell myself. "Your wife is waiting, Danny". "Go to her".

 

[departing]

I've wanted to kill myself for a very long time. For various reasons, previous suicide attempts didn't work. I'm determined to be successful on my next attempt. No more inpatient commitments. No more suffering.

 

[BPDbitch]

I had my first suicidal thoughts in ~2008/9 maybe? It's always in my head but not always right at the front of my mind.

 

[Donk]

i havent been suicidal for a very long time however ive been obsess with SS since and i think about it regularly. i browse SS religiously

 

[Cjaf]

Since I was 13. I'm 30 now and don't think I'll make 31.

 

[bpdandme]

Since I was 10/11, I'm now 23! I wish I did it already.