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bearbrikk

bearbrikk

Listen to the voice in your head
May 2, 2024
100
I know this is a place for our pain. But I am curious. Who are you when you put that aside. Describe yourself apart from your labels and pain.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
19,616
I'm nothing without my labels and pain. Just another mass of cells, tissues, and organs that has lived a meaningless existence and will die in a meaningless way.
 
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EyesOfNight

EyesOfNight

the night will be eternal
Feb 2, 2024
360
A kindhearted smart human that attracts other people through passion and enjoyment allone. A person that can see the beauty in almost everything.
At least that's what others reported at some point.

This sounds absolutely disgusting. I'm not gonna say those words ever again.
 
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surroundedbydemons

surroundedbydemons

Specialist
Mar 6, 2024
320
 
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derpyderpins

derpyderpins

Misery Minimization Activist
Sep 19, 2023
749
Hard question to answer. If I just start listing qualities it'll read like a spec list, and I don't really know what other people think of me. Also really hard not to say something that doesn't go into labels and pain. I've already typed a few things and had to delete them because they're contradictory.

This probably isn't supposed to be taken that seriously. I guess that's a decent attribute to settle on: I'm someone who - if you ask them a question - is going to think about it a lot. Pensive. Whether it's overthinking or not I'll leave up to the crowd. If anyone wants to roast me that would be helpful too.
 
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ConfusedClouds

Student
Mar 9, 2024
190
This is one of the issues that set off a lot of my awareness and questioning and confusion.

Literally no clue.

If ever in a welcoming environment where you are encouraged to 'be yourself' then I feel like there's something I should be doing specific/different. I thought I was bumbling along OK until the world keeps saying to be proud of who you are and express who/what you want to be etc etc
 
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soulkitty

soulkitty

ロロ□
Apr 6, 2024
730
I have no idea who I am 😭 I feel like my identity is rapidly shifting, I have no idea the kind of person I am but I really wish I knew. Who even am I??????
 
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untothedepths

untothedepths

I am falling I am fading I have lost it all
Mar 20, 2023
365
A person who finds it hard to trust virtually anyone and anything. Scared of people and events. Likes various things but has interests in things they grew up with and things they couldn't do. Will apologize and own up to mistakes even when they didn't need to apparently.
 
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Havnis

Havnis

XXXX'ed out 🌲🌲🌲🌲
May 15, 2024
167
"I am the man in the mirror"
 
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HereTomorrow

HereTomorrow

eternally atoning
Feb 1, 2024
260
An Asian college dropout working in retail, playing rare Japanese arcade rhythm games to cope. Having a massive need of emotional support while emotionally supporting others, for I hope my suffering can be converted into hope for those who want it.

Also chronically touch starved.
 
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Saturn_

Saturn_

I shut my eyes and all the world drops dead.
Apr 22, 2024
211
I'm nothing without pain. I will never be anything besides a purveyor and a receptacle of pain. My body and soul are nothing but a conversion unit; pain unto myself, then unto others. I can't in good conscience ascribe any positive or neutral labels to myself, as I feel that any self-love would be an act of egotism in the face of all the pain I've caused. There is very little which separates me from an inanimate object.
 
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EmptyHeaded

EmptyHeaded

Experienced
Jan 24, 2024
223
"There is an idea of a Patrick Bateman, some
kind of abstraction, but there is no real me, only an
entity, something illusory, and though I can hide my cold
gaze and you can shake my hand and feel flesh gripping you
and maybe you can even sense our lifestyles are probably
comparable: I simply am not there."
Pardon me for quoting American Psycho, but I just think this part describes it very well.
 
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aidic

aidic

Member
May 16, 2024
7
Really, really? A sex object to be used, desired and controlled. I have no other purpose, but do like to dream sometimes.
 
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sancta-simplicitas

sancta-simplicitas

Student
Dec 14, 2023
132
I've recently thought a lot about the different singular ephitets that as a whole form what's supposed to be me. We have the basics, like: 31 years old, 162 centimeters, 55ish kilograms, non-binary, so Swedish it's depressing. Then we have the every day quirks, like: cat owner and lover, music enthusiast, nerd, artist, hobby cook, collector of vinyl records, antique glass and vintage porcelain figures. Then, if we dig a little deeper we get: socialist, free-thinker, altruistic misanthropist, puer aeternus, quite pretentious yet trash, perfectionist, caregiver and creative.

But most often I'm just a mess.
 
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Meteora

Ignorance is bliss
Jun 27, 2023
2,008
I'm nothing without my labels and pain. Just another mass of cells, tissues, and organs that has lived a meaningless existence and will die in a meaningless way.
You are just smarter that others, I guess.
A person who finds it hard to trust virtually anyone and anything. Scared of people and events.
I relate....
Really, really? A sex object to be used, desired and controlled. I have no other purpose, but do like to dream sometimes.
That saddens me but I felt the same in the past.

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The question of "who am I" has tortured me ever since I was a teenager and never went away. I m a shroud, an empty body, a ghost. There is no "me". When I learned I have a dissociative identity disoreder.... well then at least I started to understand a little bit why I am nothing and no one.
It s a very painful topic for me.....
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I know this is a place for our pain. But I am curious. Who are you when you put that aside. Describe yourself apart from your labels and pain.
Who are you?
 
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ijustwishtodie

ijustwishtodie

death will be my ultimate bliss
Oct 29, 2023
3,128
Nothing really. All I ever am is somebody who wants death beyond anything else and also somebody who does things because of compulsion, not because I want to. Aside from that, there is nothing else about me. I don't say this to self loathe or to be hyperbolic... trust me when I say that there truly is nothing to me without my pain and labels
 
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eatantz

eatantz

I luv dolls
Nov 4, 2023
369
I am a lover of art, i am someone who loves music more than oxygen. A boring, hopeless romantic who reads too much fiction.
 
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ForgottenAgain

ForgottenAgain

On the rollercoaster of sadness
Oct 17, 2023
591
I think part of me was shaped from the pain I endured in life. I'm much different than who I was more than a decade ago.

I guess the things that didn't change were my need to be creative, love of animals, sense of humour, being philanthropic, being nervous and prone to stress, shy, sensitive.
 
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Lady Laudanum

Lady Laudanum

Experienced
May 9, 2024
207
Deez nuts
 
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