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Christian5483

Christian5483

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Feb 9, 2025
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Which part of the day is worse?
At night, when you're alone in bed with your thoughts, and you can't sleep because of them, or during the day, when time passes so slowly that you feel like you're going crazy.
 
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intintint

intintint

don't listen to her she's crazy
Feb 5, 2025
30
I think the worst part for me is the waking up part. When you remember who you are and your life. But the slight second before you do when you're confused is bliss.
 
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cme-dme

cme-dme

wants to sleep forever
Feb 1, 2025
565
It all kind of blends together in my head into a gray, lifeless "day" milkshake. I think a common low point though would be waking up. Especially if you were having a good dream or something.
 
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Monique696

Monique696

Student
Aug 31, 2021
103
I love the nights when I get to sleep and dream and I know the day is finally over and I know nothing bad will happen. Days are rough for me especially when I have to leave the apartment and interact with people.
 
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_Maya

_Maya

Maybe tomorrow.
Jan 26, 2025
143
Any time alone really, although i tend to notice when im awake during night time is usually the worse for me
 
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depthss

depthss

wikihow
Dec 12, 2023
233
i can sometimes distract myself throughout the day, but theres nothing i can do but think when im trying to sleep, that makes it way worse
 
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human909

human909

Banned
Dec 30, 2024
590
I think mid day is usually the worst time of day for me.
 
Jisatsu

Jisatsu

黒い薔薇(The Black Rose)
Jan 5, 2025
2,012
I have bad psychosis so the nights are rough on me .
 
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dontwakemeup

Paragon
Nov 11, 2024
910
Waking up! The realization hits that I have to endure another day.
 
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yehxlder.666

Paranoid Android
Sep 22, 2024
50
Night time. Just like others said above, i can distract myself somehow during daylight. I got the whole day to do stuff, not feel so tired, alone etc... At night i'm just by myself knowing that tomorrow its gonna start all over again.
 
divinemistress87

divinemistress87

Angelic
Jan 1, 2024
4,919
Morning waking up from dreaming is awful
 
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FadingSnowFake

FadingSnowFake

Enlightened
Nov 25, 2024
1,823
At the moment, days are worse. Feels like I don't belong and just want to hide away. At night at least I can hide even if I'm alone.
 
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TheHolySword

TheHolySword

empty heart
Nov 22, 2024
1,267
The part where I'm alive is the worst
 
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BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Digital Diary🦋
Dec 26, 2024
339
Definitely waking up first thing in the morning, especially when you have to forcefully wake up out of your sleep.
 
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Busridin'26

Busridin'26

Hating every minute of being alive.
Dec 8, 2019
1,933
These days likeeee all the time is kinda fucking horrible. Barly have the energy or brain capacity to like distract in convos so.
 
JesiBel

JesiBel

protoTYPE:cclxxv
Dec 5, 2024
1,113
The night is very quiet, and with less activity than during the day with the daily routine. It is easier for dark thoughts to come and torment you. Or overthink, then you can't sleep because you are so overwhelmed.
 
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greebo6

Enlightened
Sep 11, 2020
1,671
Waking up and immediately afterwards.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,003
It is all torturous and dreadful to me, I'll personally always suffer as long as I'm conscious in this existence, I find existence to be the most cruel, futile burden that just brings and causes so much suffering all for the sake of it and I'd never wish for any of this, non-existence really is all that can bring me any peace and is all I'll hope for as long as I'm trapped in this reality just waiting to die anyway, existence itself will always be the true problem to me as after all it's the source of all suffering. I personally just want to never suffer ever again, I'd always prefer to not exist than suffer in this existence all for the sake of it where there is no limit as to how much agony one can feel just to be tortured by old age and die anyway, existing to me is only suffering and I find it so tragic how this existence was imposed at all, I always suffer so much from being denied the option to peacefully cease existing and never exist ever again.
 
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Confusedsoul12345

Member
Jan 29, 2025
67
I think it is middle of the night for.I can sleep at night but wake up from all the thoughts in mind within 1 or 2 hrs.After that I am alone with all the thoughts and can only fell sleep due to exhaustion close to early morning
 
Languish

Languish

A Flower of Flesh and Blood
Feb 7, 2025
127
The morning. I have to work mornings. Work is unpleasant. I can at least relax and enjoy my isolation at night. I avoid sleep for as long as possible, so I can put off having to wake up and work in the morning.
 
NoHalfMeasures

NoHalfMeasures

You either run from things, or you face them
Aug 20, 2024
73
The end of the day, night time, which is typically when and why I take edibles, so I can trick myself into happy thoughts before I inevitably drift to sleep.
 
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Johnzaga23

Experienced
Dec 10, 2024
230
night. I have to somehow sleep but my stress doesnt allow me to. also i feel dissapointed in myself for not doing what i should be doing during the day.
 
SewingDust

SewingDust

Member
Aug 14, 2024
23
Work time because of a lot of triggers and a few hours after that because of the chaos in mind. The best part is the early night, I feel safe only then.
 
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Arin

Arin

Member
Jan 12, 2025
36
It's the morning for me. I hate waking up because I know the following day is going to be shit and there's nothing I can do about it. Often I deliberately stay up late to delay morning happening, although that doesn't work if I end up staying up too long and end up sleepless in the morning.
 
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HelloDarkness25

Member
Sep 11, 2024
75
Mornings (because I hate being hit with realization that I woke up alive yet again) and daytime (because of the dreaded task of keeping myself alive for yet another day and the fear of what might happen today).

Couple hours before bedtime are usually nice, especially if nothing bad happened or I didn't do anything wrong. I'm always looking forward to taking sleep meds and going to bed - several hours of non-consciousness are the best, it's my most favorite part of the day. I'm usually dreading waking up in the morning, but I try not to think about it.
 
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noname37

Student
Sep 10, 2024
100
i've always been a night time person, i don't like being up during the day
 

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