Discussion Where in life are you right now?

[Lifeless mindset]

There are surely people out there suffering more than we do, but that doesn't mean that we aren't suffering in our own right. Everybody has different struggles and different tolerance, comparing doesn't do any good. That you're seeing strength in yourself is something, yet putting it to use is a challenge in and of itself. I hope you'll manage to do that.

Thank you

 

[U. A.]

Oh boy. Well, this is the Homeric version with complete backstory, but the condensed version?

Continuing into my 30's living the last year, after a looong absence, in the incredibly miserably isolating, stupid giant metropolis of my upbringing (which has dismally cold winters that last basically a third of the year), in an admittedly-fairly-nice house but shared with people who mostly are barely about and I don't really get on with, meaning it often feels like I live alone with random intrusions into "my" space. No friends here from earlier in life, made a whole two since returning who I rarely interact with, and have seriously drifted from more recent ones I considered solid.

About to take a leave of absence from a minimum wage foodservice job without tips I don't give a shit about because my mental & physical wellbeing are degrading and work feels like it's making things worse. Hoping to find something better during leave but am realistically very, very skeptical because any vocation that's something I'd want to do is either not a paying position, or requires credentials I do not have, and I'm hesitant to secure as they'd either take a long ass time, mean I would have to drive an evil car, are expensive, and/or fear I will have a major health flare that will render me incapable of staying on track with securing them.

In short: not where I want to be, at all.

 

[BluesRunTheGame]

Rock bottom. Broke, unemployed, addicted, mentally ill and living in a halfway house. I guess maybe one up from a hobo though. Maybe.

 

[outrider567]

Well, this place is a nice retreat.

Yes, but its more than that--I don't come to this site to shoot the breeze or pass the time, I only come to this site because I am depressed and suicidal....I'm on this site a lot

 

[Zegers]

In cages of hell