When to do ctb ?

[dieingasap]

My boyfriend died and he was suicidal. I couldn't save him. I want to die too now. Everyday my mind says, you should die.

 

[Darkover]

i want to die everyday too for the last 9 years living a brain injury is just torture

 

[dieingasap]

How did u managed to live 9 years. And what brain injury do u have

 

[Darkover]

How did u managed to live 9 years. And what brain injury do u have

traumatic brain injuries result of using big headphones both my ears have tinnitus they click and crack there's internal damage to my brain as result of air pressure force from the headphones
i am bed bound without medication i use to be a programmer but can't concentrate anymore to program
i smoke weed most days to numb the constant state of discomfort

 

[SomewhereAlongThe]

It's honestly up to you when you should die. Nobody could make that decision for you. If you think it should be soon, then arrange for it to be soon. If you need time, you can always take all the time in the world to decide when you want to go.

 

[dieingasap]

What programming language did you mastered ?

 

[Darkover]

What programming language did you mastered ?

c\c++\java\euphoria programming language\game maker language

 

[dieingasap]

c\c++\java\euphoria programming language\game maker language

So you might have worked also somewhere ?

 

[Darkover]

So you might have worked also somewhere ?

self taught start taking my toys to bits aged 5 started to learn to program age 18 never had a job as a programmer but i was active member of a MultiPlayer Game Hacking forum went under the name of Botmaker in 2013 made trading bots,spam bots, auto loot bots, a server for the client, for a game called realm of the mad god it still about to this very day i made 10,000£ selling software and in game items had over 100,000 downloads on my software then in 2016 i got a brain injury

 

[bankai]

traumatic brain injuries result of using big headphones both my ears have tinnitus they click and crack there's internal damage to my brain as result of air pressure force from the headphones
i am bed bound without medication i use to be a programmer but can't concentrate anymore to program
i smoke weed most days to numb the constant state of discomfort

I've been using this thing, how long do I have?

 

[Darkover]

I've been using this thing, how long do I have?

When I was 30, I suffered a brain injury and developed tinnitus in both ears. The damage stemmed from using large headphones and constantly listening to drum and bass music at high volumes. Over time, I began to hear creaking and cracking in my ears, a constant reminder of the harm caused.
I used to be a programmer, but since the injury, I've found it nearly impossible to concentrate on programming anymore. I also believe that my use of weed played a role in amplifying the damage to my ears and brain, as the pleasurable effects while high likely contributed to me pushing my limits.

 

[bankai]

When I was 30, I suffered a brain injury and developed tinnitus in both ears. The damage stemmed from using large headphones and constantly listening to drum and bass music at high volumes. Over time, I began to hear creaking and cracking in my ears, a constant reminder of the harm caused.
I used to be a programmer, but since the injury, I've found it nearly impossible to concentrate on programming anymore. I also believe that my use of weed played a role in amplifying the damage to my ears and brain, as the pleasurable effects while high likely contributed to me pushing my limits.

I'm very sorry dude. Just listening to music is not a reason to have such a thing happen to anyone.

 

[Darkover]

Can you guide me ? Or motivate me to do some stuffs ?

what do you mean by stuff i can't guide you on how to kill your self if that what your searching for maybe if you want some help in learn computers and programming or electronics i might be of some assistance to you just so you can try and think about something else