When do you ask for help ?

[myattempt]

Such a funny question - asking for help when you're suicidal - it's a humiliation ritual where you beg for help because you've been socially indoctrinated into believing that they have a fix (mh services) - it's just not the case

And when nothing works and you decide you want to ctb - suddenly you lack capacity

I've planned to ctb and all I really wait for is the time I get lucky I guess.

My most recent attempt was FSH - and right before that I tried to sort 1g of heroin (I passed out before snorting it all) - keep in mind It was my first time

Injecting h will probably be the method I use to ctb - ( I will read up on the opiod megathread
Idk it feels illogical to not be suicidal in this society I only feel 'depressed' when suicide feel far away like it's not an option.

 

[Moniker]

It feels kind of pointless to ask people for help. I've done it before and nothing came of it. I also don't really see the point in trying to live in a world that I despise. I don't really want help anymore.

Mental healthcare stuff doesn't feel like much beyond gaslighting people into thinking life is better than it appears.

 

[OnMyLast Legs]

One time I told just a regular doctor I was suicidal and she said go to inpatient so I did. What a waste of time. The next couple times I still felt like I had a duty to tell "the professionals" but I doubt that more all the time. Maybe pills pulled me out of my latest depression, but maybe not. I seem to have an annual cycle.