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Imausername

Imausername

Mentally Tortured
Feb 15, 2026
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Part of me feels like i should do a failed attempt as it feels like the only way i can get real help. For my MH to be taken seriously. Maybe then they will offer more support give me some diagnosis of something that could help me in my legal case.

Have you ever had a failed CTB attempt and what was the outcome from it. How did Drs and family react? Did you get any help? Any therapy, diagnosis or anything.

I know its a stupid idea but im backed into a corner here with no way out. Ive already done SH so badly i needed a month in hospital and 3 ops (not an attempt) and that did get me some help. Im just out of ideas out of hope.. there feels like nothing i can do to help get my case dropped. it hurts so much. idk what to do
 
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Kanau_Nano

Student
Apr 12, 2026
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A failed attempt can leave you much worse off physically and mentally. It was extremely traumatic to me and my family. I don't get looked at the same anymore and I feel pathetic personally. The psych unit gave me many drugs, but no therapy. It didn't help me and therapy doesn't either. Maybe it's better where you are tho. Some of the doctors/nurses were really judgmental and it made me feel worse. I did get a lot of diagnosis through my multiple visits to psych. Didn't make me feel better.

Can't you just go say you will ctb at a hospital to try and get help? It might help you. I wouldn't recommend doing what you are thinking.
 
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Nov 12, 2025
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I'm with them 👆 on this, any other way to get help would be better. If you really can't be talked out of it, make sure whatever you use is something that has no chance of actually working or doing any real harm.
 
Imausername

Imausername

Mentally Tortured
Feb 15, 2026
83
A failed attempt can leave you much worse off physically and mentally. It was extremely traumatic to me and my family. I don't get looked at the same anymore and I feel pathetic personally. The psych unit gave me many drugs, but no therapy. It didn't help me and therapy doesn't either. Maybe it's better where you are tho. Some of the doctors/nurses were really judgmental and it made me feel worse. I did get a lot of diagnosis through my multiple visits to psych. Didn't make me feel better.

Can't you just go say you will ctb at a hospital to try and get help? It might help you. I wouldn't recommend doing what you are thinking.
The key part of my post is the legal issue side of what im going through. I feel I have to play this MH game even if it doesnt help me mentally just to get therapy or diagnosis just to help with my case. IDK no one looks at me the same way in my family anymore after all the legal and self harm ive done anyways. im at my limit with it all and i kinda do miss the hospital i felt safe there.
I'm with them 👆 on this, any other way to get help would be better. If you really can't be talked out of it, make sure whatever you use is something that has no chance of actually working or doing any real harm.
I know its stupid but i dont see any other way of getting help. And my legal issues are such a huge weight i feel i need to be in MH therapy and care to try and push back against it all. I hate everything thats going on in my life right now its awful.
I know its a really extreme thing to try...
 
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Kanau_Nano

Student
Apr 12, 2026
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The key part of my post is the legal issue side of what im going through. I feel I have to play this MH game even if it doesnt help me mentally just to get therapy or diagnosis just to help with my case. IDK no one looks at me the same way in my family anymore after all the legal and self harm ive done anyways. im at my limit with it all and i kinda do miss the hospital i felt safe there.

I know its stupid but i dont see any other way of getting help. And my legal issues are such a huge weight i feel i need to be in MH therapy and care to try and push back against it all. I hate everything thats going on in my life right now its awful.
I know its a really extreme thing to try...
Are you absolutely sure this would even help you legally? Can you ask your lawyer if there is a psychiatrist to help diagnose you to help your case? Or if this would even help?
 
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Imausername

Mentally Tortured
Feb 15, 2026
83
Are you absolutely sure this would even help you legally? Can you ask your lawyer if there is a psychiatrist to help diagnose you to help your case? Or if this would even help?
Well i ended up in hospital having an emergency op and two more after. Was in hospital for a month and i had one admission before this and it didnt help yet. Maybe it stacks more things to be used later on when we start to make arguments. i hate talking to my solicitor they are scary af
 
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Kanau_Nano

Student
Apr 12, 2026
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Well i ended up in hospital having an emergency op and two more after. Was in hospital for a month and i had one admission before this and it didnt help yet. Maybe it stacks more things to be used later on when we start to make arguments. i hate talking to my solicitor they are scary af
I'm really sorry you're going through all this and I wish you the best truly.

If you think it will help maybe you should check in at the hospital since you feel safe there and they can help diagnose you more. Don't try to make a failed attempt please.
 

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