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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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Maybe you aren't jaded yet but, I imagine many people here are. I suppose there are lots of things we can become jaded with too. What do you suppose you became jaded or cynical, unenthusiastic about first?

I suppose chronologically, it was perhaps family first. Problems and split loyalties due to step relations. The prospect that maybe you can't even count on your own family members.

I think I probably then became jaded with the work place. How hard it was likely to be to get a job in what I studdied. I became pretty cynical about my career prospects early on although weirdly- I carried on chasing them.

Then, the workplace itself. The office politics. The ways companies seemed to reward and promote sociopaths! The way it treated its employees. Plus, the one or two individuals that seemed to get away with throwing their weight around- despite not being managerial.

I suppose that became mirrored in politics. I decided I didn't trust any of them. So, wouldn't even bother to follow the latest lie they were spouting.

Then maybe relationships. For many years, I so wanted a partner but then, I really observed partners around me and decided there were masses of downsides too. I more happily became cynical about relationships- it was nice to be free of all that longing.

With friendships, it was more the experience of being let down that caused me to be jaded there.

Then, when I had worked hard to get the career I dreamt of, the very top jobs turned out to sound dreadful- with 16 hour working days, unsupportive managers- which I heard from multiple sources. So- my sense of ambition became jaded.

I suppose there are still things about life I do often enjoy. Nature, games, films, music, food. Maybe you can feel jaded about them if the weather is awful or, the cost wasn't worth it. But still- I'm not sure even the good things are ultimately worth it. Food makes you fat for instance. It's not all good.

But then- finding myself so jaded with just about every aspect of life- it's hard to summon up the enthusiasm/ motivation to do anything. I suppose the only lucky thing for me is that it all happened over a reasonably long period. One thing after the other becoming a disappointment it wasn't worth pursuing.

I do feel so bad for people living with that level of disillusionment in their teens say. On the one hand- I think they're so much smarter than me! To have worked that all out so young. I probably had suspicions back then but, I delluded myself with hope. On the other though, I don't know what they have to start with in the tank to keep them going. How can you proceed when you don't have desire or hope? I think in general, generations are becoming more rebelious too so- I don't think obligation will necessarily be enough to force them now.

How about you? Are you jaded about specific things? All things? Nothing?
 

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