Whats your guys reason to ctb

[unknowngirl]

I wanna feel less alone, mine is mostly due to my abusive parents and that fact my sister died but also I just hate living genuinely, idk how to explain it

 

[Mkeblair]

@unknowngirl I feel ya girl... I have had a FUCKED up life. I think my breaking point is my medical issues, along with now having to live in my own house (my ex-wives), while she pays for all of the bills and talks down to me since I now have to rely on her for even the most stupid things like using her vehicle to go to docs appointments or buy alcohol every day. (That doesn't even touch on the fucked up shit from my childhood and last several years)

I'm about ready to catch that bus, for real....

 

[rioghbhardain]

My life is an unsortable mess. I lost the love of my life after 15 years together and I just can't bear the pain. I'm exhausted, tired and hopeless.

 

[Cyagangy]

I wanna feel less alone, mine is mostly due to my abusive parents and that fact my sister died but also I just hate living genuinely, idk how to explain it

Because I have been a dark empath and I realize what harm in truly capable of. That and I wanna hurt my mom in the worse way possible since I plan on pinning my suicide into her.

 

[divinemistress87]

Brain injury, ptsd, major depression

 

[CatLvr]

Brain injury, ptsd, major depression

It seems you and I have a bit in common. I am sorry you are having to deal with all that. I also have some chronic pain and fatigue issues along the my PTSD, brain injury and depression.

 

[UnluckyBastard]

There's a number of reasons for me but the main one is that I was born into a dysfunctional family with a history of mental illness and no matter what I do it try I can't seem to be stable. I've been like this since I was a small child and nothing has changed.

 

[Cress]

I have really bad neuropathy it's ruined my life. Also my cousin jumped in front of a train last November and I've been incredibly depressed and thinking about joining him.

 

[cowboypants]

My dad has been abusive and I hate him. Apart from that I failed to launch in life basically. I'm more or less been a NEET for around 7 years. I have a lot of complex mental issues for company. And talking about company i never had a relationship nor a job in my life. I prolly should be dead by now honestly.

 

[tunnelV]

I think people are deplorable. I can't stand being around people. Not because they don't like me, almost everyone I meet likes me actually. In person speaking with them is like torture. The whining complaining and talking about nonsense all of the time. It's obvious part of the talking is them lying and pretending at least it seems that way to me. Dude if I was rich I'd live in rural Japan on a farm house. I'd have my pets and nobody could talk to me because I wouldn't learn Japanese and they don't know English in the rural areas.

 

[Gstreater]

I feel like nothing will get better and that it's only getting worse with no way out of my pit no matter what I do. It feels like being happy or even being normal is impossible. The happiness or hope I felt in life has just been crushed and I don't think I can bounce back again.

 

[grungy自殺]

Failure to get through in life..

Not having to fix most of my problems in my late teen years...

 

[Skywren]

I was born to two monsters and eventually trafficked. My disabilities are all because nobody saw me as human but instead an object to force their will/ body onto

Hanging on because there is still some hope my body will heal, that and I cant seem to find an sn or numbetal source around me.

I wanna feel less alone, mine is mostly due to my abusive parents and that fact my sister died but also I just hate living genuinely, idk how to explain it

Im sorry about your sister... And I get what its like to have abusive parents

 

[Jeav]

Abusive parents, a mother with extreme OCD justifying her verbal and physical abuse in name of islam, and a pervert narcissist father only thinking about his son career and his own reputation, when he came home he spent his time in front of the television, all that without mentioning the fights between my mother and my father when I was a kid.

 

[divinemistress87]

It seems you and I have a bit in common. I am sorry you are having to deal with all that. I also have some chronic pain and fatigue issues along the my PTSD, brain injury and depression.

I'm sorry :( tbis are the worst. Is the chronic pain from your brain injury?

 

[future_angel]

i have so much regret about how i've lived my life up until this point. i feel like i just learned what i want out of life but now its too late to fulfill any of it. i am trying my best to live the way i want now, but it just makes me feel sadder and more behind. everything is so menial and oppressive and time moves so quickly. i want to stop feeling pressure.

 

[CatLvr]

I'm sorry :( tbis are the worst. Is the chronic pain from your brain injury?

Some, yes. Those are some brutal headaches, huh?? But I was in a really bad accident that fucked my spine up. Bunch of fractures, compressed discs and "trapped" nerves. Basically I hurt from the top of my head to the base of my spine all the time now. That's how I know I'm still alive. And it is also why I am awake at 2 in the morning.

 

[GuessWhosBack]

Major depressive disorder, anxiety, body dysmorphic disorder. The fact that all my efforts got me so much and I still can't enjoy any of it even after many years of trying.

 

[FuneralCry]

Because of existence, no matter what I'd never wish for something as cruel, futile and torturous as having the ability to exist and I know I'm not meant to exist here. Personally I find so much comfort in death as it means I'll never suffer again and existence has only ever caused me to suffer, I'd always prefer to not exist than to be burdened with this existence for decades longer just to be tormented by old age, I find existing to be deeply undesirable in every way possible and it terrifies me how there is no limit as to how unbearable it can get.

 

[pariah80]

To answer your question, everything in a short answer. I had abusive parents. None of my business ventures ever panned out. I've been rejected socially, which I guess isn't the end of the world. However, no woman will have me because of it. I'm tired of bouncing from job to job with the same end result of being fired for no reason other than I'm not part of the work clique. I'll never recover financially from my last business venture. Among other things, life is just overly and unnecessarily expensive and stressful. The world just seems to be regressing. However, mostly because of being autistic and not being able to properly function in such a world. I'm not Machiavellian enough to really thrive in this life. And I don't want to be either. Just too many things to list.

 

[Steff1337]

Complex, severe, disabling mental illness for the most part.

 

[lizzywizzy09]

Chronic pain, unbearable regret and guilt, extreme loneliness and debilitating body dysmorphia.

Oh, and autism. Which really ended up leading to all of the above.

 

[samdocheon]

PSTD , self victimising and maybe Schizoïde

 

[sserafim]

Because life is boring and there's nothing that I want to do. I don't see a point in playing the game of life. This reality is too boring and mundane for me. It lacks magic and fantasy. Also, everyone is going to die eventually (this is the cold, harsh truth; it's a fact of life), so I'd rather die now and get it over with than get old and go through old age. I don't see any point or reason in getting old, nor do I want to. Bonus points for escaping wageslavery. I just want to NEET until I rope because I don't dream of labor and never have

 

[preoppostmortem]

I wanna feel less alone, mine is mostly due to my abusive parents and that fact my sister died but also I just hate living genuinely, idk how to explain it

queer in a red state, mentally ill, probably autistic, etc. cant see myself ever being a worthwhile member of society. i truly believe i was not supposed to be born. my mother has told me that i was an accident. my family would be happier without me. im fundamentally worthless and unlovable. i dont wanna deal with it anymore

 

[DontTouchMeImFamous]

Very cruel and terrifying childhood trauma due to abusive parents rendered me totally unfunctional. I'm beyond fix. A total burden. Lonely. Empty. A shell of what is supposed to be me. I can't fight, nor do I want to. I am also nihilistic, I don't believe that life has a meaning.

 

[Danby]

Suffering from depression for years now, and due to financial troubles and impending divorce it's gotten worse. I'm tired of fighting, and tired of being sad all the time.

 

[LifeQuitter]

There's too much suffering in life and the fact that you can't recover from some things.

I don't even want to try anymore because I know life could get worse at any moment for almost no reason. It also feels completely pointless that we just die and will probably never exist again.

I wish religion was real and this life was a test to get into heaven, I can't believe that lie anymore.

 

[CatLvr]

It seems so many of us had abusive parents. Makes me wonder what the world would have been like if we had had parents who loved and nurtured us, instead of projecting their bullshit on to their defenseless children. This was one of the many reasons I said I'd never have kids. Sigh. But that didn't work out either. Lol And still, my mother's last words to me were I will take those kids from you if it's the last thing I do. And she did. I made 2 fatal mistakes -- trusting my brothers and sisters to do the right thing instead of my mother's bidding, and trusting mt kids would see through her lies. It's not okay but I've done everything I can do to heal those wounds. Thing is you can't have a relationship with someone who doesn't want one with you.

I sometimes think that the fact I survived all that and managed to eek out a halfway productive life is I grew to hate anyone who didn't see my worth (or tried to screw me over) with a white hot passion and became determined to prove them I could do it and I didn't need them or anybody else. Problem with that is you can burn out pretty quick and become just as depressed as you were mad. But that cycle seems to have worked for me so far. Lol

 

[pollux]

not the person i should be