What’s the worst thing that’s been said to you, following an attemp?

[CTB Fella]

Many years ago, when I was cutting my wrists, I made 4 deep cuts, two on each wrist.

As one stopped bleeding, I would cut (chop) again.

These cups were deep, in that I could see all my ligaments & stuff.

Anyway, when I was taken to the hospital, the nurse who sewed me up, literally said the following to me:

"You know you're doing it wrong, don't you? You're meant to go down the wrist, not across."

I was in a state of shock at the time, so it partially registered. Needless to say, I now have a 12" scar going down my wrist.

Can you believe she said that to me?

 

[Mirrory Me]

I've heard it said before that "you have to go down the road, not over it". It's some kind of dark humor- really stupid bullshit about how it should be done.

 

[CTB Fella]

I've heard it said before that "you have to go down the road, not over it". It's some kind of dark humor- really stupid bullshit about how it should be done.

But coming from the nurse who was sowing me up?

 

[ThisIsGoodbye]

My mum asked if the attention was worth it after one of my attempts. She also said that me getting manipulated and guilted into doing things that I didn't want to do and was uncomfortable with in one of my relationships was my fault because 'I should have known better'.

 

[CTB Fella]

My mum asked if the attention was worth it after one of my attempts. She also said that me getting manipulated and guilted into doing things that I didn't want to do and was uncomfortable with in one of my relationships was my fault because 'I should have known better'.

Cold.

It's comments like that which actually trigger you to do it again!

 

[birdofafeather]

There's this magic ability that some people have, where they manage to just say the worst and most out of pocket things ever right when you're most vulnerable. I'm sorry about the nurse. A lot of health staff are so desensitised that you're no longer really a human being to them, and they can say practically anything with no remorse. I get it's a traumatic job, but it's just unacceptable to be saying that to a literally anyone who is obviously in severe distress and going through genuine trauma after trying and failing to end their own life, for fuck's sake. The rage I feel on your behalf towards that nurse is unfathomable. I hope you're doing better.

I think the genuine worst thing said to me after an attempt was said by the man I was dating at the time. I was admitted into the hospital following a sertraline (zoloft, for the americans) overdose and upon returning, one of the first things he asked me was what I was wearing. When he found out I wasn't wearing a bra I was hit with "why wouldn't you wear your bra? You absolute slut, it's like you wanted the doctors to see your tits." Needless to say, that... hit pretty damn fucking hard.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

that's a disgusting thing to tell someone who just tried to end their life. and from a person who is supposed to take care of you, to tell you how to do it right, is just awful. i dont know the laws around that but it does feel wrong in so many ways. it hurts an unbelievable amount to be in such a vulnerable state and then have someone tell you you did it wrong, im sorry you had to hear that.

one that comes to mind for me, is when i tried to od on paracetamol. i was probably fourteen, it was late at night, and i started throwing up a lot and crying and screaming that i didnt want to die. my mum got me a bucket and told me to throw up quietly while she went to sleep as i spent all night throwing up next to her on the floor. my brother shouted at me to shut up from his room. definitely wasnt a fun night. and had to go to school the next day after no sleep and pretend that nothing happened.

 

[Mirrory Me]

But coming from the nurse who was sowing me up?

it's actually quite a common saying. I can imagine a situation where the hand is full of wounds and the other person notices that you could have gotten there with less effort if-..."Oh, I'm an idiot, thank you..."

 

[Meretricious]

Oddly enough, a stranger telling me, "You're lucky to be alive."

 

[CTB Fella]

that's a disgusting thing to tell someone who just tried to end their life. and from a person who is supposed to take care of you, to tell you how to do it right, is just awful. i dont know the laws around that but it does feel wrong in so many ways. it hurts an unbelievable amount to be in such a vulnerable state and then have someone tell you you did it wrong, im sorry you had to hear that.

one that comes to mind for me, is when i tried to od on paracetamol. i was probably fourteen, it was late at night, and i started throwing up a lot and crying and screaming that i didnt want to die. my mum got me a bucket and told me to throw up quietly while she went to sleep as i spent all night throwing up next to her on the floor. my brother shouted at me to shut up from his room. definitely wasnt a fun night. and had to go to school the next day after no sleep and pretend that nothing happened.

That's terrible.

Just reinforces who cares and who don't.

 

[Vikgrim]

That's such a terrible thing to say to someone. I just don't understand how people can say stuff like that. I really don't. Especially when you are in such a state.

I think the worst thing ever said to me was when I told my ex I was suicidal. He loaded his 45 handed it to me and screamed to go in the yard so I didn't make a mess.

 

[ThisIsGoodbye]

That's such a terrible thing to say to someone. I just don't understand how people can say stuff like that. I really don't. Especially when you are in such a state.

I think the worst thing ever said to me was when I told my ex I was suicidal. He loaded his 45 handed it to me and screamed to go in the yard so I didn't make a mess.

Thats disgusting. I'm so sorry. What a first class prick.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

There's this magic ability that some people have, where they manage to just say the worst and most out of pocket things ever right when you're most vulnerable. I'm sorry about the nurse. A lot of health staff are so desensitised that you're no longer really a human being to them, and they can say practically anything with no remorse. I get it's a traumatic job, but it's just unacceptable to be saying that to a literally anyone who is obviously in severe distress and going through genuine trauma after trying and failing to end their own life, for fuck's sake. The rage I feel on your behalf towards that nurse is unfathomable. I hope you're doing better.

I think the genuine worst thing said to me after an attempt was said by the man I was dating at the time. I was admitted into the hospital following a sertraline (zoloft, for the americans) overdose and upon returning, one of the first things he asked me was what I was wearing. When he found out I wasn't wearing a bra I was hit with "why wouldn't you wear your bra? You absolute slut, it's like you wanted the doctors to see your tits." Needless to say, that... hit pretty damn fucking hard.

wtf why is that the first thing someone would think let alone ACTUALLY say? some people are just beyond disgusting im so sorry

 

[SilentSadness]

My mum asked if the attention was worth it after one of my attempts. She also said that me getting manipulated and guilted into doing things that I didn't want to do and was uncomfortable with in one of my relationships was my fault because 'I should have known better'.

What a disgusting mother. Honestly, it's astonishing that parents can say that to their own children. As for the original poster, that is also a nasty thing to say, especially considering how unreliable that method is. It just seems more like a taunt than anything else. Ironically, these people are often cited as the ones that suicidal people should stay alive for. It really shows how obnoxious and selfish this world is.

 

[CTB Fella]

wtf why is that the first thing someone would think let alone ACTUALLY say? some people are just beyond disgusting im so sorry

What's an antidepressant overdose like?

I usually do it with 200+ Zopiclone & Benzos.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

That's such a terrible thing to say to someone. I just don't understand how people can say stuff like that. I really don't. Especially when you are in such a state.

I think the worst thing ever said to me was when I told my ex I was suicidal. He loaded his 45 handed it to me and screamed to go in the yard so I didn't make a mess.

what the actual fuck this is the worst one that i have read here by far.

 

[NoLightRemains]

That's such a terrible thing to say to someone. I just don't understand how people can say stuff like that. I really don't. Especially when you are in such a state.

I think the worst thing ever said to me was when I told my ex I was suicidal. He loaded his 45 handed it to me and screamed to go in the yard so I didn't make a mess.

Wow, your ex is the scum of the earth. Glad you got away from him.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

What's an antidepressant overdose like?

I usually do it with 200+ Zopiclone & Benzos.

if you're replying to my od story from this thread, sorry i should have mentioned that here in the uk paracetamol is a pain killer, i think it's the same as tylenol? but im not sure on that. it was a long time ago but iirc i didnt feel much pain (guess thats bc of the pain killers lol).

ive never solely od'd on antidepressants, but ive used them along with any other medication i had on hand at the time which includes antipsychotics which i use as sleep meds so i often get knocked out before i start to feel sick or anything. sorry if this wasnt very useful information ^^"
oh woops i just realised u probably meant that to be for @birdofafeather

 

[CTB Fella]

if you're replying to my od story from this thread, sorry i should have mentioned that here in the uk paracetamol is a pain killer, i think it's the same as tylenol? but im not sure on that. it was a long time ago but iirc i didnt feel much pain (guess thats bc of the pain killers lol).

ive never solely od'd on antidepressants, but ive used them along with any other medication i had on hand at the time which includes antipsychotics which i use as sleep meds so i often get knocked out before i start to feel sick or anything. sorry if this wasnt very useful information ^^"
oh woops i just realised u probably meant that to be for @birdofafeather

I'm from London.

I've taken many, many paracetamol overdoses.

Usually 48 tablets (three boxes.)

The worst OD you can take. Makes you violently sick, and the hospital treatment (NAC) is gruelling.

I advise anyone and everyone to take paracetamol OD off of your list of methods.

I use it as self harm. It's only when you leave it for about three days that the damage is irreversible. You die a slow, painful and gruelling death.

 

[ARW3N]

That suicides go to Hell.

 

[cgrtt.brns]

I'm from London.

I've taken many, many paracetamol overdoses.

Usually 48 tablets (three boxes.)

The worst OD you can take. Makes you violently sick, and the hospital treatment (NAC) is gruelling.

I advise anyone and everyone to take paracetamol OD off of your list of methods.

I use it as self harm. It's only when you leave it for about three days that the damage is irreversible. You die a slow, painful and gruelling death.

yeah it's a nasty one. still shudder everytime i have to take them for a headache. luckily i didnt end up in a&e and im still fine (i think lol)

 

[CTB Fella]

yeah it's a nasty one. still shudder everytime i have to take them for a headache. luckily i didnt end up in a&e and im still fine (i think lol)

Trust me, the NAC treatment (three bags of the stuff, administered via cannula) makes you violently sick.

Truly the worst.

 

[Dead girl]

"did you really have to do this tonight" - my mother

 

[CentreMid]

My mom used to taunt me about my self harm if I got upset over something, she would say something along the lines of "Aw what're you gonna do about it? Are you gonna cut yourself?" in a very mocking tone follwed by "get over it" or something to that effect.

I can't believe she had the nerve to be surprised that I went NC after I moved out.

 

[bunn1bel]

That I was only suicidal for the attention of someone I was already dating. Said by my father, who played the concerned parent during the ONLY time he visited me in the hospital, after I was discharged and now nobody could hear him when he spoke to me.

This is an awesome thing to hear after he has been told by many adult figures since I was a teenager that I pose a threat to myself. I've also attempted twice in the past. I cried heavily in his arms about my worsening depression just a few months before I'd even started dating my boyfriend. So for him to act like this wasn't a long time coming…?

 

[ilikesharksandblue]

My mom used to taunt me about my self harm if I got upset over something, she would say something along the lines of "Aw what're you gonna do about it? Are you gonna cut yourself?" in a very mocking tone follwed by "get over it" or something to that effect.

I can't believe she had the nerve to be surprised that I went NC after I moved out.

When my mom found out about my self harm she would always tell me had she had a more worse childhood than I did and that she didn't cut herself over " stupid things "
My opinion good thing you moved out idk you or your mom , but personal experience I feel like if I'm near my mom I will actually kill someone so it's good you had gotten away from that negativity

 

[NoLoveNoHope]

Many years ago, when I was cutting my wrists, I made 4 deep cuts, two on each wrist.

As one stopped bleeding, I would cut (chop) again.

These cups were deep, in that I could see all my ligaments & stuff.

Anyway, when I was taken to the hospital, the nurse who sewed me up, literally said the following to me:

"You know you're doing it wrong, don't you? You're meant to go down the wrist, not across."

I was in a state of shock at the time, so it partially registered. Needless to say, I now have a 12" scar going down my wrist.

Can you believe she said that to me?

Wow, that's definitely illegal to say. She can clearly see you were very suicidal by the depth of the cuts, that's just so insensitive. I'm sorry about that.

There's this magic ability that some people have, where they manage to just say the worst and most out of pocket things ever right when you're most vulnerable. I'm sorry about the nurse. A lot of health staff are so desensitised that you're no longer really a human being to them, and they can say practically anything with no remorse. I get it's a traumatic job, but it's just unacceptable to be saying that to a literally anyone who is obviously in severe distress and going through genuine trauma after trying and failing to end their own life, for fuck's sake. The rage I feel on your behalf towards that nurse is unfathomable. I hope you're doing better.

I think the genuine worst thing said to me after an attempt was said by the man I was dating at the time. I was admitted into the hospital following a sertraline (zoloft, for the americans) overdose and upon returning, one of the first things he asked me was what I was wearing. When he found out I wasn't wearing a bra I was hit with "why wouldn't you wear your bra? You absolute slut, it's like you wanted the doctors to see your tits." Needless to say, that... hit pretty damn fucking hard.

That's absolutely horrible. I'm speechless, like what the fuck?

 

[wiltingorchid]

it was on the day i got out of psych ward after the attempt.
my dad asked me "what if your sister had found your body? what if she had seen your corpse?"

and honestly, that only made me wanna die even harder. cause it made me feel horrible. what the fuck did he intend to say? did he thought i would say sth like "that would have been terrible, i will cry now and apologize", did he really think i would've say that?

the honest truth after all is that, if my sister had found me, i wouldn't have given a crap because I'd be dead. that's it.

 

[birdofafeather]

What's an antidepressant overdose like?

I usually do it with 200+ Zopiclone & Benzos.

Not fun. I fasted, so instead of throwing up, I was foaming at the mouth, and hallucinating, and it also felt like my stomach was turning itself inside out. I didn't have access to benzos so I can't say much about how it'd affect things but let's just say it was slow and very painful 0/10 do not recommend.

 

[lostintheloop]

Many years ago, when I was cutting my wrists, I made 4 deep cuts, two on each wrist.

As one stopped bleeding, I would cut (chop) again.

These cups were deep, in that I could see all my ligaments & stuff.

Anyway, when I was taken to the hospital, the nurse who sewed me up, literally said the following to me:

"You know you're doing it wrong, don't you? You're meant to go down the wrist, not across."

I was in a state of shock at the time, so it partially registered. Needless to say, I now have a 12" scar going down my wrist.

Can you believe she said that to me?

Ugh i'm so sorry sometimes the people who are meant to be in caring professions have the worst attitudes.

I once had a nurse in A&E after an attempt ask me if i did it to 'get back at my boyfriend after we had an argument?'. I didn't even have a boyfriend/partner.

Also after a ctb plan that got stopped my parents said that I clearly didn't love/care about any of my family or friends if I was planning to put them through that.

it was on the day i got out of psych ward after the attempt.
my dad asked me "what if your sister had found your body? what if she had seen your corpse?"

and honestly, that only made me wanna die even harder. cause it made me feel horrible. what the fuck did he intend to say? did he thought i would say sth like "that would have been terrible, i will cry now and apologize", did he really think i would've say that?

the honest truth after all is that, if my sister had found me, i wouldn't have given a crap because I'd be dead. that's it.

Ugh I'm sorry that's tough. I had similar when my parents were like ' what about if your flatmates found you collapsed/dead, how would they get over that'

I think they assume it'll make you go 'oh shit can't put them through that I'll live' but it just makes me think 'oh shit I'll do it somewhere else' . Or like you say you can't give a damn when you're dead