Venting What’s keeping you alive?

[CrazyMary]

Fear that SN doesn´t work, leaving my mother worst off and leaving a load on my friends and family. But it´s getting to the point where the scale tilts to I don´t care anymore.

 

[CrazyMary]

Some say that CTBing is an act of cowardice: it's so easy to say that when they're not suffering theirselves.
A lot of courage is needed for CTB, really a lot.

I agree, the classic phrase life put this challenge for you because you can overcome it.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Hanging on by a thread for my mom, partner and dog.

 

[TheQ22]

Some say that CTBing is an act of cowardice: it's so easy to say that when they're not suffering theirselves.
A lot of courage is needed for CTB, really a lot.

I think people don't realise how much courage is needed.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I lost my nearly 20 year old pet last week and he was literally the only thing keeping me here. I'm so ready to go, if only I could find SN or N!

I'm so sorry. Sending you hugs. I lost one of my beloved dogs over a year ago and I'm still not over it. Our pets become our family and loosing them is so devastating.

 

[MariV]

I'm living with my parents at the moment so I can't risk them finding out by getting to the parcel first

i cant believe some of you have it hard to find SN. if you end up passing by spain let me know.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

i cant believe some of you have it hard to find SN. if you end up passing by spain let me know.

I know where I can order it but delivery without my parents seeing it is a problem. I wish you could just walk in to the butchers and buy it.

 

[I want to end it]

my mother would be distraught. otherwise i would have done it already. i've been on here a long time.

 

[Dark Spring]

My dogs, my boyfriend and my two younger brothers.

 

[MariV]

I know where I can order it but delivery without my parents seeing it is a problem. I wish you could just walk in to the butchers and buy it.

maybe send it to a PO and pick it there?

 

[Dark Spring]

I know where I can order it but delivery without my parents seeing it is a problem. I wish you could just walk in to the butchers and buy it.

Is food-grade SN equally efficient? It's what I can get in my country

 

[catscradle]

it was my job but after today, idk

 

[Deleted member 19654]

maybe send it to a PO and pick it there?

I'd have to pay for a minimum of 3months if I want a PO Box which costs £105 unfortunately

 

[deathangel34]

Some say that CTBing is an act of cowardice: it's so easy to say that when they're not suffering theirselves.
A lot of courage is needed for CTB, really a lot.

well i also dont think its coward to end your own life...i mean u can reconsider almost every other descision u make. But this one not. Its final.So for me u need more courage to take the single life u have than u would need for any other conclusion.

 

[LoveMePlease]

Laziness bad at planning and SI

 

[MariV]

I'd have to pay for a minimum of 3months if I want a PO Box which costs £105 unfortunately

pm me. i can help you

 

[Xocoyotziin]

Fear of losing control. I'm not satisfied with myself and my life and it feels like a dead end at this point, and I also don't really want it to be anything else badly enough to make it anything else, but I have my body, I have my tedium, I have my little microcosm. Everything that I can control will go away when I die. It's the ultimate unknown and there is no testing the waters or going back.

 

[lostangel]

Not going to rush in to ctb and end up paralyzed.

 

[sadgirl2002]

The one I love.

 

[Yona]

Not having the right moment to do it. I'm waiting for it

It's hope, always the damned hope. It's like the universe, God or whatever deity exists out there just gives me hope that things will be okay due to circumstances happening around me then suddenly the rugs start getting pulled from underneath left and right.

Things start to get okay then they get bad then okay then worse. I don't get it. It's like a prank or a joke is being pulled right under my nose.

 

[YellowSneakers]

A failed attempt would be catastrophic on a number of levels.
The potential physical consequences of a failed attempt would be too much to handle. It would only compound an already awful situation.