Through out most of middle school, i was the fat ugly shy kid that had very few friends.
Suddently, during high school, for whatever reason i became a lot more extroverted, more popular, i even became class representative.
Those were the best years of my life, and the only time if felt like life was actively improving.
It was also the first time i started talking to girls more, not in a romantic way, since i was still fat and ugly, so they still didn't care.
Still, more friendly conversation at least, and they were friendly, they even gave me a nickname: "Maru".
Like, a middle name that was, idk, cute i guess, that indicated care and fondness, it made me feel loved by the people around me.
So yeah, that's why i used it here, the reason it's all lowercase tho, with a dot at the end, idk, it looks cuter and more fragile.
I was always tall and fat and large and stuff, and i hate it, it never matched how i felt tbh, i've always been weak and fragile, i wish i at least looked like it.
So yeah, if i can't look cute, small and fragile, also more feminine i guess, in real life, i can at least look like that here, with a user name that matches that.