Discussion What’s a hard truth for you that you had to swallow?

[ThisIsIt]

That none of this is getting better. Either there's something wrong with me or there's something wrong with the people around me—probably a combination of both. Regardless, there's nothing I can do about it either way.

 

[UnluckyFew]

No problem, you can send me a pm if you want to talk more about it.

Edit: I just read the Rules FAQ again and you need to have a certain number of posts to send and receive a pm apparently, so i guess what i wrote above doesn't work... So, idk, if you want to talk more about it i guess it can be here or something, i'm not pushing you to do so tho, sorry if i'm giving that impression.

That's very sweet of you. No, it didn't come of as coercive at all. :)

 

[sadgirl2002]

I will never have the perfect family I wanted as a child with my parents.
No matter how many people are around me, I always will be alone in this world.
I will never be pretty, smart, important, confident, happy or loved. I will never be good enough.
Everyone ruined my life and my peace of mind. All I've ever wanted is so far gone and I've lost everything.
No matter how hard I try, people will always leave me. Nobody cares and they never will.
I will never get back the years I have lost, everything has slipped away from my fingers.
The world will always favour the bad people and the good ones will always suffer.
People are not how they seem to be and I'm unable to trust anyone anymore because of this.
I was destined to have a painful life ever since I was born and the years are only getting worse.
Most, if not all of my family never cared and they never will. I will never know what it's like to have a true friend.
I will always be ugly, stupid, bitter, heartless and a piece of garbage who doesn't deserve anything.
Bad things will always happen to good people and the only solution is to be a bad person to survive in this world.
No matter how much I try to run from what's in my head, I'll always end up crashing into it. My past will haunt me forever.
I am completely dead, my heart and soul is lifeless. I will never be the kind, good-hearted and lively girl I once was.
The world is really a disgusting place and I simply cannot live in this cruel world with these vile humans.
I should have ended it when I was 13, I always had faith that things would get better in my life and they never did.
The constant years of trauma have killed me and my kindness and caring nature is gone. I will never get her back.
Life is meaningless and vile and one day, I will die alone and everyone will forget me and move on with their lives.
I will never be normal, the depression, anxiety and other mental illnesses will always live inside of me.
All humans in this world, in reality, are selfish, abusive, cruel, manipulative, deceitful, fake and vile.
I am forever trapped in this disgusting body with this damaged brain, broken heart and lifeless soul.
My life has been nothing but full of hope and despair and it always ends with despair and misery.
No matter how many times people say they'll always be with me and they'll never leave, they always lie and leave me.
I can never see the world the same anymore, not after everything I've been through and that's so painful for me.
My heart is completely broken by those I cherished the most, it's shattered to pieces and it can never be repaired.
I'm tired of living, I look back with deep regrets. All the pain I went through was for nothing and I will become nothing.
No matter how much makeup I put on or how many pounds I lose, I will always be a disgusting monster, a piece of scum.
My birth was a mistake and I should have died years ago instead of living this painful life and ruining everything I touch.
I know the one thing I need in my life to make me truly happy but I'll never be fortunate to have that. The world won't give it to me.
The childhood trauma, abusive upbringing, bullying, everyone hurting and leaving me has scarred me for life.
I am only happy when I'm in my dreams of something that will probably never happen. My happiness is never real and it never will be.
The constant trauma I went through all my life has made me bitter, ruthless, cynical and I am unable to be how I once was.
No matter how hard how I try, it's never going to get better. I will never get better. I am only holding onto false hope like an idiot.
I should have ended it when I was 18, when my life got more worse and if I had ended it back then, I wouldn't be suffering.
The only three people I loved more than anything, lied to me, betrayed me, hurt me and left. I can never get them back.

Our life is either determined by luck or the decisions we make and in my case, I could've had the wonderful life I always wanted if only one thing was different, my parents ruined my life by not listening to me when I was a child. Now, all I'm left with are my broken dreams. I had potential but their poor decisions ruined my life and my future.

No matter how much hope I'm trying to hold onto, suicide will eventually be my final abode.
Everything is my fault and I'm truly better off dead. No one will miss me when I'm gone.
Life is such that I will never get what I want even though I'm not asking for much, only one thing.
I will never have the eternal true love that I've always dreamed of, I guess I'm not fortunate to have that.
Miracles simply don't exist like I thought it did, my life is over and I won't get my miracle :')

 

[Despondent]

I will never be the same person that I once was

 

[Vault of Memories]

That there's no hope for me to ever achieve happiness.
Sometimes I go to bed hoping I'll wake up as a kid again and get to restart my life, or at least enjoy the fun times I had during my early childhood. I don't know if it's just to experience genuine happiness again or to attempt to redirect my life from reaching this point.
Realistically, I know I'm just going to wake up the same miserable person I was before I went to bed. Even if I could restart my life, some of my feels that this never ending abyss I've fallen into was inevitable. As if I was cursed from birth.

 

[ithappens]

-That justice and fairness do not exist. You can work and struggle as much as you'd like, whether or not that struggle pays off all comes down to luck, and there are always going to be "unlucky" people.
-That suffering in life is guaranteed, but pleasure and happiness are not. This is the cruelty of evolution and life.
-That evil always wins and the everyday person doesn't care unless it's a direct threat to themselves or their own offspring.
-Most people do not get to really live, they are allowed to struggle for survival and nothing more. Very few people (usually those willing to take advantage of and harm others) have the resources to truly be free. And they often use it to oppress others in the process.
-No man is an island. Meaning that you have to abide by whatever society and its rules you are born into, unless you want to wind up in prison, a literal slave, or dead. This means that no matter how much people like to say "your success only depends on you" it just isn't true. Your success also depends on how people around you perceive you and your social status, and whether or not they "like" you enough to want to allow you to succeed in any rewarding manner.
-Life (as I have experienced it) is mostly just learning to cope and settle for things you never wanted (and that may not even be enough) because what you do or did want has been made inaccessible by others.

 

[VolatilePotato]

That even if you do your best to be good or do good, it will never change the bad things you've done in the past. That no matter what, everyone will have a perspective of you that won't change with time or words, or no matter how many changes you've made. You will be a villain to some and a hero to others, and there is never a wholly good person. We have all done something. We are all guilty of one thing or another. Do we revel in it, and let that guilt become shame over time, or accept it and move on?

Sorry got a little ranty lol

 

[oneess]

That things will never go how I want then to go, that I'm powerless over anything in my life and I have zero control about anything

 

[FreddieQuell]

My hardest truth is that I am only happy when I'm delusional. My happiness is never real.

This. Well put.

 

[SheJumped]

I doubt I will ever catch the bus as much I would love to.
My child keeps me here, if not for that I would be gone. I hope at an older age they will understand and it wouldn't be a massive impact. For now I continue to wear a mask.

 

[TheSoulless]

That what I thought was being smart was actually just having a good memory, which caused me to become socially excluded. I thought I was smarter than others, but now I realize just how stupid I really were all along.

That this is all there will be, there is no magic or superpowers or anything. I can only have those in my dreams, but I keep waking up every day.

 

[pole]

that you aren't good enough.

 

[Pan]

Miracles don't exist. Nothing's going to suddenly show up and make everything bearable.

You are so right, friend. I think so many folks delude themselves into thinking that they will suddenly be saved from their difficulties. As if happy endings were real...as if, as if, as if...

 

[Final Escape]

That the reason for the majority of so much death, destruction, and misery comes down to people not understanding, respecting, or being able to identify the difference between moral right and moral wrong. Basically just because something is legal doesn't mean it's moral, just because something is deemed illegal by a group of government (lawmakers) does not make it immoral. Following moral principles is what brings peace, happiness, and prosperity to a civilization. You can't have a nice civilization unless people understand for example that it's immoral to sexually use/abuse children who are not capable of voluntary consent. In order for a society to be stable and functional all people have to follow moral principles and u can't have some people released from the consequences of immoral actions the way we have now. So basically taxation is theft and therefore immoral. Anyone who lives off tax payer money is actually stealing because u are not being paid because people actually consented to giving u that money it was taken under threat of force from the tax payer if they don't comply. I know right it's hard to hear that. Because we are so brainwashed about everything.

 

[littlemisssunshine]

'You'll end up very disappointed if you grow up thinking everyone has the same heart as you do'

Pretty much this quote. Humans have destroyed my faith in humanity.

 

[Moby]

The hardest and most shocking truth for me was learning that people are not who they seem.... and that you can live with someone for almost 20 years only to wake up one morning and find out you live with a stranger.

And the even bigger shock was to discover that the said person was in fact real, but that you had refused to see the truth, having blindly believed and prayed to that satanic entity called love.



There is not a trace of arrogance in any of your posts. Quite the opposite.

You have a beautiful way with words

 

[Blue Starz]

Mainly things that involves taking responsibility. I seem to fuck everything up. A king Midas in reverse, if you will. I hate seeing myself just ruin shit and a lot of the time, if not always, it has to do with my subpar cognition. And as the saying goes "you can't cure stupid".

Integrity & goodness are what makes a person worthy, truly, the most wonderful souls... at least to many people like me that just wish for more goodness in this world & to heck with levels of intelligence. (What good is intelligence if the person is heartless?!)

A friend of mine & i once got in a cheerful debate between choosing a smart husband who was heartless, or a good hearted husband who had the cognitive limitations of Forrest Gump... Well, it seems the good guy does finish first with many, it's just a crazy society that confuses people about what really matters, or they're just superficial.

I respect your feelings... may i please just say that you are probably a sweet soul. There are a lot of people in this world that are the real idiots for hurting those with goodness within.

Thank you for being on here...

 

[Mr2005]

That I've wanted to answer this since I saw it but I can't. I'm inadequate to accomplish what I set out to do and no matter how hard I try it makes no difference anyway

 

[Lunaloveflood]

That I can't live in my head, time go and i can't "pause" my life

 

[andy69]

That my partner of 16 never really loved me. That I lost a lot to be with him and none of it mattered to him.

 

[tooStupidForExitBag]

That hapiness require a ton of effort, while despair can come when you least expect it. You don't just stumble across a great friendship or relationship, these take years to build up; but a single event can suddenly ruin all of this.

 

[Pisceslilith]

That I've wanted to answer this since I saw it but I can't. I'm inadequate to accomplish what I set out to do and no matter how hard I try it makes no difference anyway

You deserve to give yourself some self compassion, don't be so hard on yourself. I feel your answer is good enough :) thanks for commenting :).

 

[UnluckyFew]

Integrity & goodness are what makes a person worthy, truly, the most wonderful souls... at least to many people like me that just wish for more goodness in this world & to heck with levels of intelligence. (What good is intelligence if the person is heartless?!)

A friend of mine & i once got in a cheerful debate between choosing a smart husband who was heartless, or a good hearted husband who had the cognitive limitations of Forrest Gump... Well, it seems the good guy does finish first with many, it's just a crazy society that confuses people about what really matters, or they're just superficial.

I respect your feelings... may i please just say that you are probably a sweet soul. There are a lot of people in this world that are the real idiots for hurting those with goodness within.

Thank you for being on here...

Ohh, thank you! That's very sweet of you. I agree with you, I think compassion is sorely missed in this world.

Thank you for taking the time to write this comforting message. I really appreciate it.

 

[LoNatural]

That genetic determinism is real. The game was rigged from the start.
That reality is evil and altruism is just another selfish physiological need.
That people don't care about my suffering, not even my parents, and I don't care about their suffering either.
That I never had a choice since I've been suicidal, depressed and socially isolated since I was a child.
That psychiatric institutions are there to keep you wage slaving.
That I'm just as evil as anybody else, I just had bad luck.
That luck is everything, and people who preach about effort and discipline are just boasting their egos. They'll never admit to themselves or to others how easy they had it.
That I died many years ago, all life force has left my body, this is just an epilogue.

 

[Painpleasure]

A hard truth to swallow is the fact that it's impossible to survive as a selfless individual in this selfish world. I absolutely abhor the fact that callous selfishness is rewarded in this world but one must align to the ways of the world or suffer demise.

 

[Pan]

That none of this is getting better. Either there's something wrong with me or there's something wrong with the people around me—probably a combination of both. Regardless, there's nothing I can do about it either way.

Yes you can do something about it. Locate an ak47. Make sure it is locked and loaded. The rest is purely academic.

That genetic determinism is real. The game was rigged from the start.
That reality is evil and altruism is just another selfish physiological need.
That people don't care about my suffering, not even my parents, and I don't care about their suffering either.
That I never had a choice since I've been suicidal, depressed and socially isolated since I was a child.
That psychiatric institutions are there to keep you wage slaving.
That I'm just as evil as anybody else, I just had bad luck.
That luck is everything, and people who preach about effort and discipline are just boasting their egos. They'll never admit to themselves or to others how easy they had it.
That I died many years ago, all life force has left my body, this is just an epilogue.

And a wonderfully worded epilogue at that, friend. My best to you in your painful search for a resolution...

 

[Sargeant12344]

That I'm not 'gifted'; that I don't posses the requisite intelligence for my neuroticism, arrogance and insecurity to be excused.

That I've managed to alienate 75% of those I care about, and am set on continuing on this destructive path unabated by any future eventuality.

 

[RayoSinSol]

In so many ways I am an ideological minority and a ridiculously unconventional person - an outlier. As a result, it will always be my implicit duty to either accept my place in the archetypes others project onto me from their subconsciouses, and the real world consequences that come from others' perceptions, or to conform and conceal well enough to have people project favorably onto a prettified version of my true self.

I'm not a very fatalistic person, so I am personally kind of fixated on being as honest as I can in this finite life before I have to leave. But the kind of world in which I can ACTUALLY TRULY be myself in the environments in which I need to survive, long-term, doesn't exist here and probably never fully will or maybe won't for a long time from now.

I have to be competitive, I have to be focused, I have to be always on, even if I feel detached from the broader reality through which I have to push myself for the next few decades, before I can either retire or die grinding my legs to stumps, working until my last breath.

I hate wearing social masks but my true self doesn't sell. Maybe even pathologically averse to the feeling of being obliged to "market" myself in each moment. Afraid of the idea of putting a social mask on and never being seen for who I feel ever again, because the mask starts to work too well and my real self becomes an inadequate substitute.

This here produce is emotionally exhausted, therefore it is already un-marketable and, therefore, retail waste in the market of lives. Trash it and write it up already before it starts to stink things up for the people around it.

 

[Deathbydemo]

That people truly aren't what they seem. And even the ones you thought would never hurt you, do. Without a second thought. But through that you also learn that the only person who can make it right again is yourself. You really are all you have.

 

[LADY007]

That we are helpless and powerless to change or control much of our lives.
That I'll never get back the time I've wasted.
That suffering is simply part of the human condition.
That we are all ultimately alone.

And that people are so fake...be it "friends" or relatives. They will smile and say what you want to hear and not mean a word of it. You alter your life because of encouraging words about them wanting to talk or see you more...and then when you have made a significant change in your life...they refuse to see you.