I just want my unpleasantness going away. My itchiness. And the fact that clothes are uncomfortable to me. I just want to wake up in the morning, shower, put on clothes and be comfortable. No itching, no sweating, no cold feeling in my body. And just being able to wear clothes and shoes and jackets without any discomfort. I would change my skin also. My skin in my face is fucked. I should stop looking in the mirror. I have very sensitive skin, also over my body and I hate it.
I really want this, but I don't think it's possible, thinking about I've had this since teens.
And I hate my skinny legs. Really. They make me feel uncomfortable in clothes also.
If I could just feel comfortable in my own body and skin and clothes I could get a life. I hate it. I hate it so much. I feel like my life is over. It never really started. I've just been surviving. And everyday is torture for me.
The psychiatrists say that it's in my head, but I don't believe them. I believe there's something wrong with my body and always have been.
I just want to be able to be in myself, but I don't think it will ever work. So for me the end is gonna come when I'm fed up. And it feels close