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LifeAfterDeath00

Member
Oct 11, 2019
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Finish my undergrad, get a job, get a bf who would love me and be mentally stable himself, lead life like a normal person, grow old together, die.
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
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Many people are in that situation. I find it easier to support them if they don't have partners or children. That is just my prejudice speaking.
Your uh, wig is uh, a tad crooked, madam.
 
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Dear Flabby

Please listen to “Across the Universe”
Feb 20, 2020
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Hmmm...I see...uh, thanx uh, for sharing...

@Pan, you always make me laugh—in a good way. My remarks earlier were unfortunate.
Apparently, strong drink dislodges the chemical bonds of the hairspray.
Peace,
Flabs
 
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SimplyTopHat

Student
Mar 20, 2019
163
I couldn't figure it out for a while, I was one of those kids who never thought they'd make it to 18 (let alone 29). When I figured out that I needed help, I asked; but was denied by my mother.

Backstory all to explain why at 16 I wanted to be a psychologist. I wanted to be the one to help people feel better, so that people that felt the way we do wouldn't be left alone to "suck it up."
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
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You made it to 29! Congrats!!! Remember, pal, fight for your right to live!
 
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SimplyTopHat

Student
Mar 20, 2019
163
You made it to 29! Congrats!!! Remember, pal, fight for your right to live!

While I can appreciate the sentiment, it doesn't feel like an accomplishment. I feel stunted &awkward- face-to-face human interaction confuses the shit out of me. I feel like I'm always doing something wrong- I dunno... it doesn't feel all that great to be 29.
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
914
Not that I am a physician, but have you considered the possibility that you have Asperger's syndrome? These people are quite bright, but have difficulty with face to face interaction. They have trouble reading facial cues; social interaction can be problematic. Again, though,
Congrats on reaching 29!! That in itself should tell you that you are a survivor. Fight for your right to live.
 
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SimplyTopHat

Student
Mar 20, 2019
163
Being on the spectrum has crossed my mind before, though I think I'm just inept, not autistic.

&Is it okay if I just fight for my right to party? :notsure: :ahhha:
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
914
Sounds good to me. In fighting for your right to party, you're bound to forget about face to face interaction. That you want to party tells me that you are'nt as inept as you say you are.
As far as partying goes, I like my beers, but i'll take the good weed any day of the week.
 
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Lost4toolong

Member
Feb 29, 2020
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I wanted to teach english. And travel the world doing so. No point in dreaming anymore though
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
914
Actually, I had the same thought, as in China, Southeast Asia and the like. It's never too late. I know that sounds like a platitude, but at least your dream is reality-commensurate, if you will. I was partly inspired to do it because a friend did it in wake of a breakup with his girlfriend and was quite happy there. They funded basically everything and for reasons which I don't fully understand, it was not necessary that he know mandarin. Still sounds like a good idea to me though. I ended up getting a graduate degree in library/archival science and passed on an m.f.a. thru Chicago art institute. If I had to do it over again I would get the mfa. I got a bfa degree in fine arts and have regretted my graduate degree choice ever since. Sure, I became a Library Director, but there's no substitute for what you really want to do.
 
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SimplyTopHat

Student
Mar 20, 2019
163
Sounds good to me. In fighting for your right to party, you're bound to forget about face to face interaction. That you want to party tells me that you are'nt as inept as you say you are.
As far as partying goes, I like my beers, but i'll take the good weed any day of the week.
That was mostly my awkward way of diffuse uncomfortable moments with humour, I was referencing the Beastie Boys.

But yeah, I'm a weed smoker &I like the occasional beer every now &again. My Drinking days are mostly behind me now, too much pain.
 
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Pan

Paragon
Oct 24, 2019
914
I have an album featuring beastie boys—they are great! As for beers, I drink a lot, as in a six pack daily. I don't drink hard stuff or wine though. Weed remains #1for me, however.
 
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SimplyTopHat

Student
Mar 20, 2019
163
Yeah, they had a unique sound for sure.

Oh yeah? I wouldn't be able to have 6 a day... I've developed stomach problems from binge drinking in the past. So even beer is a "special" occasion or a "fuck it" purchase. *shrugs* It's what I get for drinking away the pain.
 
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Cutepoison

Losing all hope was freedom
Dec 22, 2019
191
I would have liked my career to advance and have a family.
 
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Slow85

Member
Feb 29, 2020
79
Painfully for me I did the things I wanted to do - I went through university and became a midwife and worked for many years before my mental health took over and now I have lost it. I keep looking back to what I used to have.
 
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TeenIdle

Member
Feb 29, 2020
99
I would have loved to have a normal adolescence, be sociable and an extrovert and have a lot of friends, parties, fun and a boyfriend. And then I would have loved to go to university and study computer engineering. But since I started adolescence at 13, I've been depressed, I have social anxiety and an avoidant personality disorder among other things that have stopped me from having a normal life. Now at 23 and the more I get older the more torture it is being this way...
 
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ArtsyDrawer

Enlightened
Nov 8, 2018
1,444
I'd be a programmer.
Now, if you imagine this being yet another code monkey scenario, then you highly underestimate the fetish for C, C#, and C++ my father instilled in me when I was like 8. I tried writing a goddamn operating system at that age. Managed to write a thing you can boot into, but that's about it. And then I got massively scammed, so that fell off for a while, and then the army came, and then the epilepsy...
 
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Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
Glad to see another with the same interests. Though, the best I can do right now is concepts and ideas :ahhha:
I'm trying to apply to transfer colleges, I'm just afraid I'm gonna lose motivation for it.
 
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R_N

-Memento Mori-
Dec 3, 2019
1,442
Life is too hard even in better circumstances. The best option would be to never been born for me.
 
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Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
450
I'm trying to apply to transfer colleges, I'm just afraid I'm gonna lose motivation for it.
I know how hard that can be, and I fear the same thing. Just keep it up. The mire you persist, the more likely you'll get into one. Don't get disheartened, and make your own things, like me; make them for yourself, so they feel special and you can be proud of them.
They are? Since when? Why are you closeted about being mentally ill? You would'nt be here if you were'nt, right? You said it when you used the word "prejudice". MOST revealing...

What are you so closeted about.if you did'nt have a mental illness, you would'nt be here. You know that and I know that. Oh, so you are a video game designer, yes? Youandbillions of others. Best of luck.
Of course i know that. And the only reason that's what I want to be is because I like making stories, and video-games seem like the best way of putting it out into the world.
 
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Grandexit

Experienced
Dec 4, 2019
200
Just be normal. Be one of thise happy, well dressed, laughing people out with their friends at some hip restaurant on a Friday night. Be one of those people sitting with a partner at a scenic spot cuddling and watching the sunset. Building a future, having goals, having anything to look forward to. Having some where to spend the holidays. Even having more than bill collectors give a damn if I suddenly disappeared off the face of the earth.
 
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Proto

Student
Jan 21, 2020
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work in the field i studied for and do extreme sports have a home find somebody to love, have lot's of hobbies. Yeah if only.
 
Squiddy

Squiddy

Here Lies My Hopes And Dreams
Sep 4, 2019
5,903
I know how hard that can be, and I fear the same thing. Just keep it up. The mire you persist, the more likely you'll get into one. Don't get disheartened, and make your own things, like me; make them for yourself, so they feel special and you can be proud of them.

Of course i know that. And the only reason that's what I want to be is because I like making stories, and video-games seem like the best way of putting it out into the world.
And where did I say prejudice? Oh wait, nevermind, must be one of my old threads.
Just applied for my 2nd one. I hope I get into one, but what will matter is how much of a scholarship I get because I'm broke.
 
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muntyroo

Member
Feb 19, 2020
12
Be a journalist, complete a Phd, box regularly and have a connected passionate relationship, instead of hiding away and feeling unlovable.
 
Inferdan

Inferdan

Meeting the first minor relapse after recovery
Nov 3, 2019
450
Just applied for my 2nd one. I hope I get into one, but what will matter is how much of a scholarship I get because I'm broke.
Let's hope they give you a good one and give you a chance to prove yourself. I wish you luck on your endeavours, and I hope you get where you want to be. (Sorry if this seems very bland, just woke up and feeling a little disoriented)
 
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