Today I saw a profile picture on here that looked similar to the profile picture of a friend I know in real life. It is quite impossible he is on here. I know him good enough for evaluatiing that. Or maybe I am just telling me that. In the end people remain mysteries.
Side story: I was in a college chat group with young male students years ago. One student opened up about depression and suicidality and they made like so fucking stupid jokes about it. Very immature and inappropriate. I also told that to many other people to that time. Some months later someone found out in that group that I had mental problems. This person really liked me and he felt so uncomfortable when he found out I was in that group too. I think I told him I had bipolar disorder which is only one condition. And he said you mean that personality disorder? I never noticed anything when talking to you or when seeing you in courses.
Honestly, this stunned me. I was pretty stunned all these people didn't notice my social anxiety and social awkwardness. I was sort of proud of me for faking it so well. I thought it would be obvious but people really overestimate that. Especially with my condition.
I just want to say. Personally, your psyche sees yourself as the centre of the universe. But everyone is occupied with their own problems and fears. You never fully know what is going on in someone else's head. Still I am pretty sure that friend is not on here. Probably not even aware this website exists.
In the country I live no major news outlet ever reported about this forum. I think they fear the Streisand effect.
Sometimes your psyche can trick you when you assume you spotted someone. I had contact to a suicidal young woman in a clinic years ago. Then I stumbled on a profile on here that talked about the same interests with a profile picture of someone she adored. The age group was similar. Though, when I did some research she lived in a completely different country. And usually my research ends at this point when I suspect to know someone on here. The person lives in a completely different country.
To answer the question of the title: It would probably depend on who I would spot on here. I cannot really think of anyone I know well enough in order to be able to spot him or her where I imagine that person could be really suicidal. I think the threshold for pain is quite high to find this website especially if media outlets abstain from weekly ad campaigns for this forum on primetime in the country you live in.
I was once in a clinic for acute suicidal people. I wondered whether people knew this forum. Obviously I didn't want them to make this forum known to them. They should do their research on their own. I could imagine that I never met a person in real life who posts or lurks on here. Some might have heard of it. But not many people know the extent of my suicidiality.
In most cases I think I would not want to interact with that person. And I tried to stay not identifiable towards them. Some friends know I am on here.
Maybe this hypothetical scenario is stupid. But for me personally there are not that many people who I couldd actually spot.
Side story: I was in a college chat group with young male students years ago. One student opened up about depression and suicidality and they made like so fucking stupid jokes about it. Very immature and inappropriate. I also told that to many other people to that time. Some months later someone found out in that group that I had mental problems. This person really liked me and he felt so uncomfortable when he found out I was in that group too. I think I told him I had bipolar disorder which is only one condition. And he said you mean that personality disorder? I never noticed anything when talking to you or when seeing you in courses.
Honestly, this stunned me. I was pretty stunned all these people didn't notice my social anxiety and social awkwardness. I was sort of proud of me for faking it so well. I thought it would be obvious but people really overestimate that. Especially with my condition.
I just want to say. Personally, your psyche sees yourself as the centre of the universe. But everyone is occupied with their own problems and fears. You never fully know what is going on in someone else's head. Still I am pretty sure that friend is not on here. Probably not even aware this website exists.
In the country I live no major news outlet ever reported about this forum. I think they fear the Streisand effect.
Sometimes your psyche can trick you when you assume you spotted someone. I had contact to a suicidal young woman in a clinic years ago. Then I stumbled on a profile on here that talked about the same interests with a profile picture of someone she adored. The age group was similar. Though, when I did some research she lived in a completely different country. And usually my research ends at this point when I suspect to know someone on here. The person lives in a completely different country.
To answer the question of the title: It would probably depend on who I would spot on here. I cannot really think of anyone I know well enough in order to be able to spot him or her where I imagine that person could be really suicidal. I think the threshold for pain is quite high to find this website especially if media outlets abstain from weekly ad campaigns for this forum on primetime in the country you live in.
I was once in a clinic for acute suicidal people. I wondered whether people knew this forum. Obviously I didn't want them to make this forum known to them. They should do their research on their own. I could imagine that I never met a person in real life who posts or lurks on here. Some might have heard of it. But not many people know the extent of my suicidiality.
In most cases I think I would not want to interact with that person. And I tried to stay not identifiable towards them. Some friends know I am on here.
Maybe this hypothetical scenario is stupid. But for me personally there are not that many people who I couldd actually spot.
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