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lookingtoendit

lookingtoendit

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say you've tried everything to feel better - what's your last resort?
Mine would be to take hallucinogenics, for the potential 'enlightenment'.
 
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Onomotopoeia

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Feb 8, 2019
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Oddly, that is my last resort and I am trying it out now via shroom microdosing.

Only 2 so far so probably to early to tell but I do think my pain is less than normal and my anxiety may have even dropped a level.

I'm giving it some time yet before truly deciding. Yesterday was a little rough.
 
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lookingtoendit

lookingtoendit

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Oct 4, 2020
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Oddly, that is my last resort and I am trying it out now via shroom microdosing.

Only 2 so far so probably to early to tell but I do think my pain is less than normal and my anxiety may have even dropped a level.

I'm giving it some time yet before truly deciding. Yesterday was a little rough.

Interesting. I hope it goes well for you.
Why did you opt for microdosing, if you don't mind me asking?
 
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madbananas

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Apr 29, 2020
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I've tried my last resort. Now I'm just using vices (legal ones - food, alcohol, cigarettes) to keep myself going until a miracle happens (either something changes or I find the ability to ctb). I actually experienced the ego death I think you are referring to but I experienced it after a significant traumatic event rather than from psychedelics. It just felt like my whole mind reset and it was like I was just at one with myself and the environment. I could still experience emotions, but I felt like my window of tolerance swung back open to a pre-traumatised state. It wasn't a euphoric experience, but it was a liberating, neutral one. No anxiety about the future because the moment was all that I focused on. During this time I even started having ESP-like experiences as well, one example being having a song in my head all day and then that song being the first to play in my YouTube mix (which is random each time and has 100's of songs) and I'd literally never searched for that song before. I didn't even know the name of it.
Sadly this free mindset didn't last, only for about 2-4weeks, can't say exactly as it felt like it came back slowly but really fast at the same time. This was just earlier this year and I haven't experienced it since. This experience has however shown to be that I am in fact a significantly traumatised individual, and now I have more compassion for myself in that department.
 
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Dr Iron Arc

Into the Unknown
Feb 10, 2020
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I'm already working on my last resort, trying to find someone who'd make life worth living for though I already realize how that's not a great way to go about it. Other than that, I'm more or less resigned to my eventual ctb in 2022.
 
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enter.the.void

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Same. I have still some DMT left, but still have not the courage to consume it because its so unpredictable and deeply mind-altering and spiritual. But i have promised myself i should try at least one last time DMT, before i ctb - maybe it can show me a way out before its to late.
 
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Onomotopoeia

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Feb 8, 2019
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Interesting. I hope it goes well for you.
Why did you opt for microdosing, if you don't mind me asking?

a few reasons.

1. I have no friends and am flying solo, the idea of having a bad trip alone terrifies me. I used to do shrooms when I could but I was young and brazen and now i'm an older coward.
2. starting low and easing up let's me experiment with what a safe macrodose would be should i decide to try that (and I expect I will)
3. There's lots of info out there about micro dosing and it's more studied than macro dosing, because typically that's just chasing a high (which can be great in itself) but i'm looking for a long term solution and shrooms are not easy to find.
 
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bov

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Aug 26, 2020
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Same. I have still some DMT left, but still have not the courage to consume it because its so unpredictable and deeply mind-altering and spiritual. But i have promised myself i should try at least one last time DMT, before i ctb - maybe it can show me a way out before its to late.
I don't have experience with it but I think you should try it.
say you've tried everything to feel better - what's your last resort?
Mine would be to take hallucinogenics, for the potential 'enlightenment'.
What's stopping you?
 
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muffin222

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Mar 31, 2020
1,188
I'm currently in therapy. I suppose that professional help is my last resort
 
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chrisbate7

chrisbate7

Student
Sep 30, 2020
191
Doing OCD outpatient, 2 hours therapy per week, TMS, hypnotherapy and Zoloft. If none of that helps I will move to Spain or Hawaii to see if that makes life better. If not still probably CTB.
 
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Good4Nothing

Good4Nothing

Unlovable
May 8, 2020
1,865
I have no last resort. I guess this job and apartment are my last resort. If I fuck this up, I'm out of here. Tired of trying and failing, and I won't be homeless again.
 
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Elementalist
Nov 11, 2020
886
My last resort would be trying benzodiazepines. I'm scared of getting dependent or addicted to em
 
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Gnip

Bill the Cat
Oct 10, 2020
621
I might collect all the old capsules of fluoxetine I have stored up, maybe as much as 250,000 mg (possibly more), and blast my brain with it to discover if all those positive OD CTB attempt outcomes apply to me. I just don't know however. My serotonin receptors may be destroyed or shot at this stage, as indicated by my complete lack of withdrawal symptoms to some extremely powerful addictive high dose prescription medications.
 
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RepressedMind

Miss the full ability to think
Apr 24, 2020
160
Calling the clinic that I used to stay at.
 
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yive

life is evil
Nov 6, 2020
696
nothing. i don't want to step on another rake
 
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Ghost2211

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Jan 20, 2020
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Trying every angle to get a home set up for me and the kids after this lease is up in September. I am trying hard to make everything work.
 
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AltFoxx

AltFoxx

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Nov 27, 2020
42
Would also have said hallucinogenics but tried that before with not the results I had hoped for so maybe hope to get in on ketamine treatment
 
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