That does sound like an terrible experience. Feeling ignored and neglected in an relationship can destroy the affection and trust between two people.
**Logically speaking, I also made mistakes. When I heard her say, "Don't come looking for me" (like chatting or playing games together—this happened during our long-distance relationship when we were on vacation), that message hit me so suddenly. The day before, everything had been so pleasant. I had even bought her a game package, and one for her cousin and best friend too (her cousin had previously suggested that I join them in buying it, but I had said, "I'm not a fan of spending money on games." Later, I felt that saying that was not very considerate, so I offered to buy it for them, even though I didn't need it myself). Everything was so joyful; she seemed so happy...
I often talk about these moments. From that day onwards, I have been constantly worried and doubting everything. Honestly, my recounting of events might be subjective; at least, to this day, I still don't know how much harm I might have caused her. I keep focusing on how she treated me poorly...
I should have trusted her, relied on her. If I truly liked her, I shouldn't have let my negative emotions affect her. Even though she later told one of her good friends in her class, "He's not handsome enough to spark any feelings." There was also a time when her class teacher talked about the standards for choosing a partner, and she said her requirement was "handsome." The teacher replied that "handsomeness is more of a feeling," so she changed her answer to "someone with a good personality."
Sigh, I don't feel like talking about this anymore. Both of us had problems; we both lacked sufficient understanding. Honestly, I haven't read enough books to properly manage my own negative emotions. Well, I've already tried so much to make amends.
Oh, I forgot to mention—when she was chatting with her close friend from class, she asked, "Isn't he good enough to you?" The reply was, "He's good to me, but not handsome enough."