Discussion What will you do if you end up never committing suicide?

[UninformedLover]

I've been getting ready to kill myself and I'm wondering what will I even do if I fail and for some reason just can not do it.

I kinda ruined my life because I built it around the notion that I would ctb soon. Kept moving thr goal post but there's no more space to move so I have no choice but I'm scared that I'll fail and idk what I'll do if that happens.

 

[hurts2b]

I wonder this often myself. I already feel and act pretty dead in my life. So perhaps it wouldn't actually make a difference.

 

[wakeawake]

I feel that I have to overshoot in this respect, this is the one area where 'failure is NOT an option' as I truly do not want to carry on with the damage that would leave. So basically intense research and planning really feels profoundly important here.

 

[charlieee]

I've been getting ready to kill myself and I'm wondering what will I even do if I fail and for some reason just can not do it.

I kinda ruined my life because I built it around the notion that I would ctb soon. Kept moving thr goal post but there's no more space to move so I have no choice but I'm scared that I'll fail and idk what I'll do if that happens.

I don't know because I know it will happen sooner or later.
If I don't die this summer, my family and friends will discover that I once again failed my finals.
The weight of shame will crush me, and since my parents are just waiting for an opportunity to bring me down, I don't think I will survive longer anyway.

 

[Fadenself00_]

Probably suffer and end up homeless and then dying due to severe dysfunction caused by brain damage resulting in not being able to keep myself physically alive

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

Ever since I developed suicidal tendencies it's ironically become a crutch to avoid life, planning and responsibilities. I just let things go from otherwise okay to bad to worse because I can take comfort in the fact that I'm going to kill myself. If I don't commit suicide I'll just be resigning myself to a shitstorm of my own making. Really a self-fulfilling prophecy in the end huh

 

[telekon]

- work
- jerk
- play
- drink
- smoke
- write