What was the closest you got to ctb

[Rocky M]

I was so close. I failed because I got caught. I was impulsive and stupid and thought I could go before my planned date. I spent some time in hospital and well, here I am again. I'm getting ready for my next attempt.

 

[406blue]

Nov 2015, I tried electrocuting myself with a HV capacitor. didn't work.

Nov 2017, I forged a prescription for diazepam but instead of 2mg of 50 tablets I received 50 tablets of 1mg xanax.

For any of you that don't know how much that is, 1mg tablet of xanax = 20mg diazepam so in reality, instead of receiving 100mg of diazepam (in total), I received the equivalent of 1000mg of diazepam (in total). I could have combined that with alcohol, zolpidem, and codeine to cause CNS depression.

Xanax is ten times stronger per mg than diazepam, yes. Forging prescriptions is something you could give me advice on..

 

[thetwilightzone]

Xanax is ten times stronger per mg than diazepam, yes. Forging prescriptions is something you could give me advice on..

Well it depends what nation you live in. Unfortunately, I think the US (for certain), Canada and a few other western nations have implemented electronic prescriptions making this impossible.

Though I think that is only in some states.

WHAT I did was forge my original but legitimate prescription (handed to me by a GP) for x50 tablets of 2mg diazepam. I got that one filled then put the prescription in my scanner/printer. I got a portable version of Adobe Acrobat Professional from thepiratebay (more advanced then Adobe Reader. has scanning/image editing/OCR)

After scanning the prescription with my printer in the portable Acrobat software, I used OCD (Object Recognition) to make it high def and allow me to print the ("template" - name, logo, and GP address) while blanking out the lines to have only a "blank script".

I then printed it on an A4 page and used scissors to cut out the edges, trying my best to make it look normal (keep in mind that prescription paper is written on A5 paper which is half of A4 so you could half A4 paper then put it in your printer assuming it supports A5 paper).


Lastly, I practiced my handwriting as best as possible. It work x5 times, only got caught on the 6th time.

 

[throwaway123]

it failed because of other people

 

[406blue]

Well it depends what nation you live in. Unfortunately, I think the US (for certain), Canada and a few other western nations have implemented electronic prescriptions making this impossible.

Though I think that is only in some states.

WHAT I did was forge my original but legitimate prescription (handed to me by a GP) for x50 tablets of 2mg diazepam. I got that one filled then put the prescription in my scanner/printer. I got a portable version of Adobe Acrobat Professional from thepiratebay (more advanced then Adobe Reader. has scanning/image editing/OCR)

After scanning the prescription with my printer in the portable Acrobat software, I used OCD (Object Recognition) to make it high def and allow me to print the ("template" - name, logo, and GP address) while blanking out the lines to have only a "blank script".

I then printed it on an A4 page and used scissors to cut out the edges, trying my best to make it look normal (keep in mind that prescription paper is written on A5 paper which is half of A4 so you could half A4 paper then put it in your printer assuming it supports A5 paper).


Lastly, I practiced my handwriting as best as possible. It work x5 times, only got caught on the 6th time.

Nice work, thankyou for that information i have logged it away for future reference. i understand the process, i just don't have the equipment for the moment. Doctor handwriting can't be too hard to replicate, a random scrawl, but i get your point! What happened when you got caught, i wonder.

 

[watchdog]

when i was like, 11, i tried to hang myself with plastic clothing hangers
that shit snapped and i fell onto my fucking face!
i have never been more embarrassed DX

 

[Destined2Dye]

I tried to CTB by jumping. I survived because it was only 14 to 18 ft high. Landed on pavement, my arm landed first then my head. It happened so fast and I don't remember feeling any pain. I blacked out immediately then woke up confused in ambulance. Then I felt the pain in my arm. It wasnt that bad at first, maybe because of adrenaline. But then the pain level was increasing so I told the paramedics to shoot me with something to stop the pain. Thank god they did. Got surgery in my arm and psyche warded after.

Overall I think jumping is a good way to CTB but it needs to be at a higher place, head first into a hard surface. I swear no pain on impact and instant blackout. I imagine a jump from a higher place would yield similar results, just permanent blackout. If someone is reading this, and they are afraid of jumping. Don't be afraid of the pain, it will likely be no pain, instant blackout like I did. Rather be afraid of the permanent decision u are going to make. I hope it doesn't sound like i am encouraging or discouraging, just trying to show both sides.

 

[IDontLikeMyself]

I have tried to slice my wrists but my SI kicked in and I was also found by the psychward staff so I couldn´t really continue anyway. The other thing was my extreme fear of trains. I´ve been on the tracks for like 4 times but each time i´ve ended up getting off and just leaving because of my fear of trains.

 

[inviernos]

took half a bottle of verapamil in middle school. shit was expired so i had a bad stomachache but if it wasn't 5 would've been enough to do me in (took around 18)

 

[FuneralCry]

Nowhere near close. I haven't even properly attempted as the thought of a suicide attempt going wrong is so horrific to me, I hate how in this world there is a lack of peaceful and reliable suicide method options.