Help What to write in a note?

[LastAcrobat]

I am debating on if I should even write a note but I'm thinking I should. I'm don't between doing it by hand (more personal) or type it (more legible). But besides that, I don't know what I should include. I know I should "apologize" and tell them how this was the right thing to do and how I'll be happier now and how it's not their fault that much. But other than that what should I put in?

Should I write who/what is actually at fault (mainly the job market and my uni)? Should I write something poetic? Give out a some suggestion for my funeral (I was thinking Saturn by Sleeping at the Last). How long should it be? I mean I could yap on for a while but also I could make it short and sweet.

I also kinda have an, unnecessary love for spectacle. I mean I already own to dress up and maybe make a little "shrine" around my body in the woods (not possible if I do CO tho sadly). I've thought about writing multiple notes and hiding them across the region? I don't know, I kinda wanted to that that last one just because they would still "hear from me" a few more times over the years.

I'm sorry if I'm being dramatic I just… I'm confused. I don't want them (my family and any remaining friends I have) to be upset ;w;.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

Perhaps this guide here is helpful:

HOW TO WRITE A SUICIDE NOTE

 

[PenPen<3]

I am debating on if I should even write a note but I'm thinking I should. I'm don't between doing it by hand (more personal) or type it (more legible). But besides that, I don't know what I should include. I know I should "apologize" and tell them how this was the right thing to do and how I'll be happier now and how it's not their fault that much. But other than that what should I put in?

Should I write who/what is actually at fault (mainly the job market and my uni)? Should I write something poetic? Give out a some suggestion for my funeral (I was thinking Saturn by Sleeping at the Last). How long should it be? I mean I could yap on for a while but also I could make it short and sweet.

I also kinda have an, unnecessary love for spectacle. I mean I already own to dress up and maybe make a little "shrine" around my body in the woods (not possible if I do CO tho sadly). I've thought about writing multiple notes and hiding them across the region? I don't know, I kinda wanted to that that last one just because they would still "hear from me" a few more times over the years.

I'm sorry if I'm being dramatic I just… I'm confused. I don't want them (my family and any remaining friends I have) to be upset ;w;.

I can relate to this a lot bc I've also considered a lot of similar things to this. I don't really recommend hiding notes since strangers might find them, if you want people to keep getting notes you could write several ahead of time that have "open on x date" written on them, your loved ones will likely listen to that. Other than that it's totally up to you, as long or short as you want as long as it feels like you. You don't have to apologize for being 'dramatic', esp because it's not dramatic to think ab this stuff. Death is such a big moment and a suicide note is gonna be your final words so do what feels best.

Other than that I personally recommend taking a decently long time to edit it on a Google doc or somewhere u can type, then write it out slowly and neat. In the past I've liked to go through my old journal entries to find ways that I've expressed my feelings so I can communicate it clearly. I hope it goes well <3