What thoughts are you having today?

[BPD_LE]

I'm so tired. Could stay in bed all day but pushed myself up. CMHT duty pissing me about which is making me anxious and angry. Physically exhausted but dogs need walking. Just got to get through the day.

 

[Sweet emotion]

I've an itchy foot and the chop stick I put down my plaster as snapped! im thinking how can I get it out?

What does that mean your plaster as snapped?

People want to get rid of me. I want to live, I have so many projects but everyone hates me and wants me out.

I think it's wonderful you want to live. Is there any way you can get therapy? You say people want you gone. Who are there people?

 

[Midnight]

What does that mean your plaster as snapped?

The stick she used to scratch an itch inside her plaster snapped while poking arround in it. So the stick is stuck in there.


To answer the op's question: i have not felt this sad in 20 years of depression. This needs to end.

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

Weird enough to make a thread about it. In recovery, out of all places.

 

[sammii]

I feel like I embarrass myself every time I speak irl, or even say something online. I should probably just go back to not speaking to anyone, it's way less stressful.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

I feel like I embarrass myself every time I speak irl, or even say something online. I should probably just go back to not speaking to anyone, it's way less stressful.

Never. I like seeing what you post Sammii.

As for me today I'm feeling panic. I may have been scammed by a dodgy trader and u have no idea how I'm going to continue to get food. What a hoot life is.

 

[Mort]

Felling like shit feeling i am know use to know one . O and my old friend pain all ways they half out of my head on morphine. So can't tell what reality i am in just feel i need to throw myself into a ditch sum were and die and rott in peace.

 

[MeltingHeart]

I've stopped enjoying

Music is basically what keeps me going. Without music, I think I'd already be committed to an institution.

I can't enjoy music anymore - something that has always meant the most to me in my life -consoled me , excited me, connected me to friends & like minded people , first thing I would think about / listen to when I woke up & last thing at night, that and movies - but I loved how the two art forms were always intrinsically linked anyway- now I can't enjoy either - or it makes me even sadder- now I have lost that appreciation - that really feels like the final nail in the coffin- as they say :(

 

[not4us]

drunk state makes life bearable

 

[Lavendel]

I've been wondering about the self that wants to get on with life and the part of me that couldn't care less in the same circle i have been for years. This includes having no feeling of self-worth much less being able to stand up to myself.