What really makes you happy about committing suicide?

[Marco77]

What are those thoughts that make you feel happy when you think about suicide? Those thoughts that make you different from a pro-lifer? That serenity that only the extreme gesture can give you. Tells.

 

[Alo97]

just the end. i would like the world to forget me, as if i don't exist. this thought drives me. how is it with you?

 

[ren4215]

being actually free. no emotions, no working, not having to function. anytime i think about ctb, i get a feeling of pure bliss which i don't feel with anything else. i don't want to cry anymore or do anything, i just want to be, and this is the only thing that will give me what i want

 

[divinemistress36]

Freedom! No more pain or ego

 

[nattys5thtoenail]

I have never been truly able to "relax", I'm always masking, even in front of my parents because I'm deathly afraid to stim in front of them because they panic and say that if I do that in public it'll be embarrassing for me, which I understand but it makes me angry how they'll shame me for neurodivergent traits I can't control, even in my own home. I have no safe space and it makes me feel trapped.

Of course there's more reasons, but I can finally stop pretending, and I can just rest.

What are those thoughts that make you feel happy when you think about suicide? Those thoughts that make you different from a pro-lifer? That serenity that only the extreme gesture can give you. Tells.

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Stop this is so real, I literally feel so happy and relaxed when I fantasize about taking the leap of faith off a bridge, no more pain, no more worries, just eternal rest. Sometimes (and ik this is corny,) I "practice" writing suicide letters in my notes folder just as a reminder to myself that even if life gets hard I can exit at any time.

 

[AuroraB]

no more worries about money, aging, political nightmares, war, climate collapse.

 

[FuneralCry]

Personally I'd be so relieved to never suffer in this cruel, torturous existence ever again, non-existence is all I personally hope and wish for, I only hope for peace from all the suffering and cruelty, I only wish for death as I just have no interest in suffering in this existence I always saw as such a terrible, tragic mistake in the first place, I'll always see it as a burden to suffer in this existence. For me non-existence is always preferable than prolonging the suffering just to be tortured and tormented by old age with no limit as to how much agony I can feel, I'd rather prevent suffering and in an existence that to me just caused so much suffering all for the sake of it, death truly would be the only relief for me, I just don't see it as desirable to suffer in this existence at all.

 

[marypary1234]

Freedom!

 

[F@#$]

The mess I'll leave.

 

[SA1994EC]

No more suffering, no more pain, no more agony. The molecules, atoms, particles of me will be parts of everything in the Universe.

 

[ringo99]

I feel like I'm floating when I think about it. The thought that I'll never have to face any more shit in my life is just intoxicating. Greatest high in the world

 

[affirmatice]

Nothing about it makes me happy to be honest.

for me it's a sad, last resort, when I don't see any solutions to the problem that has made my life hell.

Doing it would also mean truly saying goodbye to the life I dreamed of and I worked so hard to try to reach.

It would mean saying goodbye to the amazing people in my life. That are amazing and that I love, but I have been unable to truly connect with recently due to the worsening of my mental state.

To me, it's a lose-lose situation. I wish no one had to choose between a life of suffering and a permanent end to their dreams, consciousness, and everything else that may be good in their life (even if they are unable to enjoy them).

 

[SVEN]

No more tomorrows.

 

[Marco77]

Nothing about it makes me happy to be honest.

for me it's a sad, last resort, when I don't see any solutions to the problem that has made my life hell.

Doing it would also mean truly saying goodbye to the life I dreamed of and I worked so hard to try to reach.

It would mean saying goodbye to the amazing people in my life. That are amazing and that I love, but I have been unable to truly connect with recently due to the worsening of my mental state.

To me, it's a lose-lose situation. I wish no one had to choose between a life of suffering and a permanent end to their dreams, consciousness, and everything else that may be good in their life (even if they are unable to enjoy them).

If you think this way you better abandon the idea of suicide. Suicide is joy, it is leaving the Nazi concentration camp, from the horror of life, with all its disgust. While you would regret leaving that camp. You don't see this disgusting thing. You actually want to improve your living conditions. In the end you love life.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

1. If I'm alive, I'm in harm's way. If I'm dead, I'm out of harm's way
2. The future is uncertain and has a lot of risks (this is something that even the most religious pro lifers are able to admit btw). If I'm dead, I will no longer be subjected to those risks
3. There is no reason to prolong my existence for another day or for even another second
4. The highs of pleasure (which are honestly just addictions designed to keep a human being alive for as long as possible) isn't as high as the magnitude of the depths of suffering.
5. I believe that an earlier death is always better than a later death since an earlier death means less suffering overall
6. This system of life and the system that humans have made are shitty and are not worth participating in

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

OP : What really makes you happy about committing suicide?

All my problems solved instantly and forever.

1 nano second After Death is non-existence forever. Non-existence forever means never any pain, suffering, problems, bad memories. What could be better than that? Nothing.

Non-existence forever is the ultimate bliss

Non-existence is a trillion times better than life and anything in it

 

[FlufflesAway]

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[Forever Sleep]

Life is just a never ending stream of things I don't particularly want to do. So, I'm looking forward to not having to do them or- not having to deal with the consequences of not doing them.

 

[sevennn]

being safe from harm

 

[vanillamilkshakes]

freedom, and no having to go through no more pain

 

[Trakehner]

All the pain will reach an end. Permanent freedom from this Hell.

 

[legoshi]

the thought of never having to feel sad, lonely, inferior, not good enough, undesirable and to not constantly hate myself. I envision death like sleep where there is just nothing, I hope it is like that. I hope there is no afterlife. I just want to sleep forever and not know nothing. That gives me peace.

 

[ssspadbye]

Just free from this stress, pressure, worries, all the horrible things that could happen, from this horrible world of inequality, prejudice, judgement, unfairness. Just to not exist, to not have to do or go through a single other thing ever again. Do not be subject to any of the thing the world throws at me. To not feel this anxiety, depression, suffering, helplessness, sense of being stuck. All gone. The bliss of being free from it all. The only thing that would prevent me from doing it is if I won the lottery, as that would remove the majority of my problems and unlock a world of pleasure. But let's be honest, that's not happening. I'm not going to keep on suffering endlessly for a 1 in 40 million chance of being freed from it living. And even after all this struggling and suffering, I'd be dead anyway in a few decades. So in the long term, it doesn't even matter. I just want to be freed. Freed with the bliss of nothing.

 

[Vivir_O_No]

What are those thoughts that make you feel happy when you think about suicide? Those thoughts that make you different from a pro-lifer? That serenity that only the extreme gesture can give you. Tells.

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Freedom from everything. From the chains of existence. Seeing life as the big lie it is, I want to live in truth, and that truth is non-existence!

 

[TAW122]

That all my suffering is finally over and all the problems are no longer relevant, non-sentience is the best state to be in, the lack of pleasure and also lack of torment.

 

[Chaosire]

Finally done with suffering.
No more stress and anxiety for an unstable future.
All my problems getting solved with this one action.
No longer having to fear I'll endanger or hurt others again.

Just.. rest. Finally some fucking rest

 

[leavingsoonx]

No more bullying. No more melted brain of mine. No more suffering. No more being disabled but not really even being disabled.

 

[darknessishere]

No more pain or emotions pure nothingness

 

[Tombs_in_your_eyes]

Forgetting the trauma of my favorite person dying of a horrific terminal disease.

Being free of the crushing weight of knowing I'll never see them again.

And - who knows - I might get to reunite with them after death. Even the slimmest possibility of that happening makes CTB 1000000x more appealing than living without them.

 

[RainyDaysGrapefruit]

No longer burdening others, and becoming the splatter on the floor they wanted. And best of all, being able to finally take a god damn nap.

It doesn't even really give me happiness either, it really is sad my life turned out this way. But things happen, I spose.