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woofwag

woofwag

Bad dog
Sep 17, 2025
491
Idk if I'm the only one who has this, but I will get phrases/mantras stuck in my head that repeat themselves over and over and over and I can't stop it.

Some of mine:
"I wish I had died back in 2009"
"Stop it" or "Make it stop"
"So it goes"
"This too shall pass"
"Is that really what you want?" (often with zero context and will repeat despite my answer or lack thereof)
"So this is it?" or "And that's it?"

Anyway just curious. And no I've not
found a way to quiet them despite intensive therapy and effort
 
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Ashu

Ashu

novelist, sanskritist, Canadian living in India
Nov 13, 2021
979
"Cum on shit."

You asked.
 
iwkmsssb

iwkmsssb

what is it that i am?
Jun 8, 2026
90
"holy shit i wanna die" constantly repeating throughout the day, even when the day isn't necessarily bad.
 
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Spite

Spite

I wish I never existed.
Aug 20, 2025
501
"If only you knew how bad things really are", from that one meme.
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

Student
Jun 4, 2026
143
Idk if I'm the only one who has this, but I will get phrases/mantras stuck in my head that repeat themselves over and over and over and I can't stop it.

Some of mine:
"I wish I had died back in 2009"
"Stop it" or "Make it stop"
"So it goes"
"This too shall pass"
"Is that really what you want?" (often with zero context and will repeat despite my answer or lack thereof)
"So this is it?" or "And that's it?"

Anyway just curious. And no I've not
found a way to quiet them despite intensive therapy and effort
These are called tics, sign of a psychological illness but i forget which

I have one myself "i dont know" but its in another language
 
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Adaephon

Adaephon

Member
May 19, 2026
11
"I fucking wanna die", so, so many times throughout the day.
and
"I'm so tired"
 
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Leonard_Bangley39

Leonard_Bangley39

I am a rock. I am an island
Nov 6, 2025
345
"im evil."
"this is all it'll ever be"
 
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itsgone2

-
Sep 21, 2025
1,852
"Nothing is ever as bad as it seems"

This helped me with so many things. Things normal people would just do.

But now it isn't remotely true. My life has spiraled into a nightmare. I'm taking others with me I fear.

I need to pray for actual help. Phrases cannot help now
 
Reeincarnation

Reeincarnation

333
Jun 4, 2026
29
Idk if I'm the only one who has this, but I will get phrases/mantras stuck in my head that repeat themselves over and over and over and I can't stop it.

Some of mine:
"I wish I had died back in 2009"
"Stop it" or "Make it stop"
"So it goes"
"This too shall pass"
"Is that really what you want?" (often with zero context and will repeat despite my answer or lack thereof)
"So this is it?" or "And that's it?"

Anyway just curious. And no I've not
found a way to quiet them despite intensive therapy and effort
"I wanna die"
"It is what it is"
"Such is life"
"Why me?"
"I'm not human"
"I'll never be understood"
"Just give up"
Lots of why, lots of what am I doing wrong, lots of wondering. Typical coping when you can't control certain things
 
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JeyJeyOfJeypore

Student
Jun 4, 2026
143
"I wanna die"
"It is what it is"
"Such is life"
"Why me?"
"I'm not human"
"I'll never be understood"
"Just give up"
Lots of why, lots of what am I doing wrong, lots of wondering. Typical coping when you can't control certain things
"Im not human" is a bit disturbing. When does that come up if its not too sensitive?
 
Reeincarnation

Reeincarnation

333
Jun 4, 2026
29
"Im not human" is a bit disturbing. When does that come up if its not too sensitive?
Usually when I'm dissociating really badly. It's really hard to put into words as to why I end up thinking that without sounding like a total schizo and rambling into stuff that doesn't sound relevant to the topic. But it usually stems from feeling totally unbelonging or alien with other people or society in general. Trying to explain this already makes me feel a bit odd haha
 
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Tautochrome

Tautochrome

Exploder
Nov 22, 2025
113
Hm, no phrases repeated enough to become significant, many of my thoughts don't involve a clear monologue. Maybe "oh fuck me sideways" and "I am not a person, no need to worry about this" x)
I also check on myself every day with
-"Do you still want to die?"
-"Yes."
 
stay_gold

stay_gold

Member
Dec 13, 2025
32
"what the fuck is going on" (usually in the Blind Witness style xD)
 
StarryEyed

StarryEyed

PMs aren't my thing
Mar 14, 2024
129
It's really weird because I have two lines of thinking always on the go that are completely the opposite. One is the I fucking hate this world and everyone and my life and my body. The other is very social and kind and gentle. I don't know how to cope with the constant contradictions. is that what DBT therapy is for?
 
tomatobastard

tomatobastard

LowLife
Jun 8, 2026
12
"no shut up" whenever intrusive thoughts start up
"fuck off" again intrusive thoughts
"i don't wanna" when i have to do anything
"fuck my life" fuck it
"flip my life" flip it
 
UserFromNowhere

UserFromNowhere

Trial Mod
May 4, 2025
405
It's a meme, but I do believe it enters my head at least once a day ever since I saw it. Or at least ever since I actively started contemplating and planning suicide.
View attachment pippa.mp4
 
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LosingFeathers

Jun 11, 2026
11
I didn't know it's such a common thing, that's interesting.
When I'm feeling down, I sometimes think and even say "Ich hasse dich" which means "I hate you". It's not even supposed to be directed towards anyone specific, it just enters my mind. I guess it's a tic?
 
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Nikkra

Member
Sep 25, 2024
32
I get this, it's called palilalia, an involuntary repetition of phrases. It always happens to me immediately after a stressful thought or being in a stressful environment. It's a way to comfort myself. Used to say it in my head now i do it out loud. I have multiple phrases some of them are pretty weird and don't make much sense but they probably reflect my psychological state somehow, such as "im gonna do a run and jump" which is probably reflecting my feeling of wanting to escape from a stressful environment or maybe jumping off a cliff or jumping and flying away like a bird idk
 
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selfkillermachine

selfkillermachine

Empty
Jun 11, 2026
11
I wake up and instantly think
"Another shitty day I wished I was dead" and for the rest of the day is "Why am I even doing this?"
 

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