What other ways to (peacefully) CTB are left in my case?

[HNR_]

- I can't get my hands on NA where I live for obvious reason
- I seemingly can't get nitrogen or another gas canister since, from what I've seen, this stuff's ultra-regulated, only sold to some corpos or whatever for specific things
- Getting SN from DSL is now either impossible or highly risky

I'm so tired of getting my hopes dashed every time I seemingly find the next solution to end my suffering, I've reached a point where I'm considering jumping, even though it's hardly a peaceful way to go out

 

[isthisthingon]

The less peaceful the more SI in my opinion. An attempt to jump has got to be the hardest. I don't see how anyone overcomes that.

 

[bruised_reed]

I'm personally doing the CO method in my car using charcoal.

 

[HNR_]

The CO method's also not an option for me, unfortunately...

The less peaceful the more SI in my opinion. An attempt to jump has got to be the hardest. I don't see how anyone overcomes that.

There comes to a point where I'm getting tired of waiting
How some folks here have been waiting for a couple years is beyond me tbh

 

[HNR_]

Not only are these solution out of my reach, I've also been told that jumping, even from insanely high heights, doesn't fully guarantee anything

I swear if I have to live another month, this thread'll devolve into a rant one

 

[isthisthingon]

Not only are these solution out of my reach, I've also been told that jumping, even from insanely high heights, doesn't fully guarantee anything

I swear if I have to live another month, this thread'll devolve into a rant one

I feel your pain, I'm currently stuck waiting to execute. Every method has a chance of survival. There is not an easy path.

 

[HNR_]

Thing is, failing would suck but I'd be able to try again if I failed with, say, SN by vomiting (I know, it can have more serious complications but I mean if I were to vomit it right away), I could try again

If I'm wheelchair bound, I don't think I could...
There's also no euthanasia laws here so the consequences would be way worse than if I lived in another European country where such laws exist

 

[HNR_]

Little update, I wanted to jump instead and I can't even fucking do that

I don't mind taking a couple trains but for the two best locations, I'd have to rely on buses too which suck so much ass here because of the billions of lines and how much time spent waiting (an hour and a half for one of them, in the middle of a fucking heatwave) and as much as I'd like to walk instead, I also can't since I'd have to walk for hours to get from one train station to another on foot
I'm so goddamn tired of all my research being utterly pointless every time I think about a new alternative

At that point, I'm almost hoping that some dude pulls a gun on me to rob me, I'd jump him and press the trigger for him