Discussion What needs to change in your life to stop making you suicidal ?

[Cress]

I suffer from a form of body wide neuropathy. Curing my condition would go a long way. Unfortunately at the moment it's not curable. My friend made a bet with me that due to advancements in Artificial intelligence my condition would be Curable in five years. I'm pretty sure he has no idea what he's talking about However it would be cool to be wrong. Currently I need to get an infusion treatment every two weeks And I've been doing that for years and it barely helps my condition it's pretty brutal

 

[whatsmynameagain2]

Maybe go back a year ago and not significantly fuck up my life in every possible way

 

[AlouA]

List what all needs to change in your life to stop making you suicidal .

For me it's :
- My physical ailment goes away .

If this happens I will stop being suicidal. I will get the rest of the things sorted on my own or they will be tolerable enough for me to continue living .

Body dysmorphia and bad communication skills

 

[morendo]

any hope for success in life

 

[hermestrimegistus]

Well, I won't deny people who are attractive sometimes "get more" in certain situations. But it's just one piece of the puzzle. Usually a small piece because there's billions of people in the world, and one of you. And that doesn't mean anything if the other things don't line up, too. And usually, they don't.

Its like one of the biggest pieces. Most people are superficial. No one wants to get to know an ugly person

 

[nux_walpurgis]

My anxiety has to go away. I don't feel like a person any more, just a bundle of nerves.

 

[Orbitc]

I will only want to live if I have as much money and power as Putin - he kills all his enemies. He does whatever he wants. Only pitiful instruments of revenge are available to me. My life is miserable - my function is to pay the rent)) even animals have a more eventful life than me - they enjoy sex, rejoice at their offspring, hunt or enjoy games. I'm not interested in anything in life except revenge and money.

 

[Iamtired]

Its like one of the biggest pieces. Most people are superficial. No one wants to get to know an ugly person

No. That's not true. It just isnt.

 

[kindalone]

Different brain.

 

[InLoveWithAGhost]

Seconding (or thirding or fourthing) "different brain." Or at least someone taking it out and soaking it in cleaning solution before putting it back in.

 

[greebo6]

Almost everything.............

 

[silence ends]

Nothing can do that really. It's the whole me, my body and mind that made history that lead to this point where's no return.
Maybe loads of money could buy some years of escapism but wouldnt change this road im in

 

[Boudika]

Well, if I suddenly started to be beautiful then the fact that I wouldn't feel nauseous walking past the mirror would definitely help me get rid of the urge to ctb. Also it would help if I already lived on my own, finished that fucking high school and was in my dream job

 

[Shy_Shay]

not being a man and not wasting my time living as one for these last 12 to 14 years

 

[Chronicoverwhelm]

I would need a huge financial windfall to put off CTB for a while. I would only be putting it off though, as there's no solutions for my other issues without a magic wand.
With being on disability, the high cost of living and being homeless off & on, I feel obligated to CTB sooner than later to avoid borrowing more money I can't pay back. I'm now trying to rush the process.

 

[disgustingmale]

For one, I'd need to have been born a woman. Also, I would need to be allistic. A natural sex drive which forces me to seek companionship would be nice to have as well.

 

[hermestrimegistus]

No. That's not true. It just isnt.

How? Most people are very superficial

 

[_apathetic]

it's not anything in my life, it's me

Yes, the developers deliberately gave so many bugs and nerfs to my character, so that I'm not compatible with this gameplay.

I want a refund, this is not what devs promised.

 

[ohyouknow]

money

 

[Iamtired]

Its like one of the biggest pieces. Most people are superficial. No one wants to get to know an ugly person

I get to know ugly people all the time and sometimes the outside doesn't match the

How? Most people are very superficial

You may be initially treated better but it doesn't somehow give you some magical powers- if it's superficial scenarios you desire like casual sex and surface level relationships then yes- by all means- envy this. It's normal but it's not everything. It's only one part of the puzzle.

 

[MatrixPrisoner]

I would need to be cured of Autism, which is obviously never going to happen. So I need to die ASAP.

 

[jmj2324]

I feel that I am now beyond this point. I feel I have lived my life, good parts and bad. I have been bullied and pushed down from early childhood, and have never been able to fit in or feel I truly belong anywhere. For me there is no change that can happen in my life that will make me want to keep pushing on and stay. I made my decision this year that I was ready to start planning, and I am at peace with that. I guess I am just tired and done with it all.

 

[february in alaska]

Well, antidepressants that work would be a good start. And then maybe just a cure for all the rest of my mental illnesses. A genuine, lasting friendship. To be financially stable. A better self-image. Some concrete plan for the future, or goal, or aspiration. Free therapy or lifetime institutionalization somewhere halfway decent.

After all that magically gets fixed all I'll have to worry about is the impending climate crisis and the horrific fucking reality that is every other aspect of our socio-economic culture. It wouldn't hurt if I could also transform into a cis man and not have to constantly deal with the threat of sexual violence. Oh, and just remove all my addictive behaviors, flat out. Fix the chemical imbalance in my brain. Bring back my dead cat. Get rid of the ugly physical scars covering my body that people won't stop asking about. Get myself out of this fucking city. Get myself a time machine and fix every single insane mistake I've ever made throughout my life. Develop something resembling an actual personality. Magically become an entirely different person, if possible. That doesn't seem like too much, does it? Gonna fucking bang my head against a wall lmao I'm so fucking tired

 

[umopep!sdn128]

Nothing, probably. Only my birth as a "normal" person. Then I would have a "normal" life and wouldn't feel suicidal. On the other hand, I m glad that I born the way I am. Being "normal" is actually so disgusting. This world is terrible, and you need to be terrible person to fit in it. So, even if I won a million dollars in lottery or something, I would be much happier that I shouldn't go to university/work, doing something pointless there and have to be in society. But suicidal thoughts would never gone, because I don't really enjoy this existence in the first place.

 

[ifeelsobad]

A sibling/best friend I can be close to/loves me but that will never happen

 

[dyingslowly]

I want to love and sacrifice, and see my efforts recognized by others.

 

[Rouge4000]

if she apologized for cheating on me. If my mom wasn't so hard on me and actually asked if I'm ok. If 1 person said cared genuinely for me

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I don't know what would need to change for me to not be suicidal anymore. Having access to legal euthanasia would probably help, and being on disability might help too.

I don't think those things will make the feeling go away entirely, just because the world live in sucks and people are cruel. After feeling this way for nearly 6 years, I'm burned out. I can't function well enough mentally to work anymore but I don't even have the energy to get a diagnosis that could help me qualify for those kinds of benefits.

The only thing I'm passionate about anymore is legalizing the right to die for everyone but I don't know if I have the energy for becoming an activist.

 

[venomousSSërpent74]

people need to be better, society needs to be more tolerable,things need to be easier,parents/people need to understand mental illness better and be better, their needs to be something taught that actually gets me somewhere in life not just throwing a bunch of papers in my face, also there need to be bettter ways to make money on your own when you have no skills or creativity and lack the ability to become business man/lady not everyone has that shit. being able to trust again having someone to love no more mental pain

 

[hermestrimegistus]

I get to know ugly people all the time and sometimes the outside doesn't match the

You may be initially treated better but it doesn't somehow give you some magical powers- if it's superficial scenarios you desire like casual sex and surface level relationships then yes- by all means- envy this. It's normal but it's not everything. It's only one part of the puzzle.

Being attractive can get you a friend, a relationship, a job. Etc. Theres no downside to be attractive. Theres only a downside to being unattractive