What music are you listening to at the moment?

[wanttobelieve65]

 

[dontwakemeup]

Listening to Pandora. I like not knowing what's going to play next and find new songs. My station is Pop Smoke

 

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Disturbed-I Will Not Break








Uh-uh
Uh-uh
Why do I feel like a criminal?
What the hell happened to me? (Ha-happened to me)
I must've fallen down a thousand times
Why am I like this? There's no way to hide this from anyone
It was anything but typical
How it all happened to me (ha-happened to me)
I can't believe that I could be so blind, I had to find it
Now I am reminded of everything
I already know your name
I will not break this time
I know that vengeance will at last be mine
I will not break this time
I know that vengeance will at last be mine
Time is ticking away, ticking away
If I can leave the past behind that's been crippling me, sickening me
I will not break
Why am I acting like an animal?
What the hell happened to me? (Ha-happened to me)
I've had enough of feeling terrified
Now I'm deciding that I won't be hiding from anyone
The change was far beyond physical
When it all happened to me (ha-happened to me)
I even contemplated suicide
And though I am haunted, I will not be taunted by anyone
I already know your name
I will not break this time
I know that vengeance will at last be mine
I will not break this time
I know that vengeance will at last be mine
Time is ticking away, ticking away
If I can leave the past behind that's been crippling me, sickening me
I will not break
I will not break
I will not break
I will not break
I will not break
I will not break
I will not break this time
I know that vengeance will at last be mine
I will not break this time
I know that vengeance will at last be mine
Time is ticking away (ticking away)
I will not break this time
I know that vengeance will at last be mine
I will not break this time
I know that vengeance will at last be mine
Time is ticking away, ticking away
If I can leave the past behind that's been crippling me, sickening me
I will not break
Uh-uh
I will not break

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Over an hour of Death Metal....

 

[zappynomore]

Abba and billy eliish.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

 

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Gin Blossoms-Hey Jealousy

 

[Michi_Violeta]

I'm gonna be brutally honest and vulnerable here with all of you since SaSu is amazing and explain why I listened this song today.

Embarrassing as it may be to admit, today I paid for sex. I was missing physical touch so, so much, and received some little yet devastating news about my ex today that really made me feel hopeless and lonely. So I went to a sex worker. She immediately looked at me and, because of my long hair and black raincoat, she assumed I listened rock and metal. This is the first song she played and I couldn't help thinking about my ex immediately, as a matter of fact I thought about her during the whole encounter and...yeah, afterwards I felt empty and pathetic and even more lonely. I know it would end this way, I know full well I'm demisexual, but still thought I'd like to touch and be touched by somebody...and part of me wanted to remember just how different casual/paid sex is when compared to actually making love, just to dig the dagger even deeper and convince myself that ctb is the way to go.

I just did a quick search and it turns out Chris Cornell wrote this song thinking about waiting for death and not for a loved one. In my case, it applies to both: my Michi and la muerte and I'll wait for them here likeeeeee a stone

 

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Billie Eilish-Birds Of A Feather








('Til I'm in the grave)
I want you to stay
'Til I'm in the grave
'Til I rot away, dead and buried
'Til I'm in the casket you carry
If you go, I'm going too, uh
'Cause it was always you, alright
And if I'm turnin' blue, please don't save me
Nothing left to lose without my baby
Birds of a feather, we should stick together, I know
I said I'd never think I wasn't better alone
Can't change the weather, might not be forever
But if it's forever, it's even better
And I don't know what I'm cryin' for
I don't think I could love you more
It might not be long, but baby, I
I'll love you 'til the day that I die
'Til the day that I die
'Til the light leaves my eyes
'Til the day that I die
I want you to see, hm
How you look to me, hm
You wouldn't believe if I told ya
You would keep the compliments I throw ya
But you're so full of shit, uh
Tell me it's a bit, no
Say you don't see it, your mind's polluted
Say you wanna quit, don't be stupid
And I don't know what I'm cryin' for
I don't think I could love you more
Might not be long, but baby, I
Don't wanna say goodbye
Birds of a feather, we should stick together, I know ('til the day that I die)
I said I'd never think I wasn't better alone ('til the light leaves my eyes)
Can't change the weather, might not be forever ('til the day I die)
But if it's forever, it's even better
I knew you in another life
You had that same look in your eyes
I love you, don't act so surprised

 

[fallingtopieces]

 

[wanttobelieve65]

Man I love this song! Great album.

 

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Cranberries-Free To Decide








It's not worth anything more than this at all
I live as I choose or I will not live at all
So return to where you've come from
Return to where you dwell
Because harassment's not my forte
But you do it very well
I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after all
I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after all, at all, at all, at all
You must have nothing more with your time to do
There's a war in Russia and Sarajevo too
So to hell with what you're thinking
And to hell with your narrow mind
You're so distracted from the real thing
You should leave your life behind, behind
'Cause I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after all
I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after all, at all, at all, at all
Hi-i-i-i-i, ha, la, la, la-la-la
I'm free to decide, I'm free to decide
And I'm not so suicidal after a-a-all, at all, at all, at all
At all, at all, at all

 

[_AllCatsAreGrey_]

The future's here
Said the pioneer
There's room at the top
Do-wop do-wop

Whatever comes tomorrow
Happened yesterday

Come with us
The future's here to stay
Dance with us
Dance with us

We're the Devil's Dancers
Swinging all the answers
Dance with us
Dance with us

We're the Devil's Dancers
Swinging all the answers
Dance with us
Dance with us

All the radon daughters
Wonder what they taught us

Making up our status
Doubts are only traitors

Whatever comes tomorrow
Happened yesterday
Come with us
Come with us
Dance with us
Dance with us

We're the Devil's Dancers
Swinging all the answers
Dance with us
Dance with us

We're the Devil's Dancers
Swinging all the answers
Dance with us
Dance with us

Dance with us until your head is spent
Work it out until the late event
Come with us
Dance with us
Come with us
Romance with us

The future's here
Said the pioneer
There's room at the top
Do-wop do-wop

Whatever comes tomorrow
Happened yesterday

Come with us
The future's here to stay
Dance with us
Dance with us

We're the Devil's Dancers
Swinging all the answers
Dance with us
Dance with us

We're the Devil's Dancers
Swinging all the answers
Dance with us
Dance with us

 

[fallingtopieces]

inspired by _AllCatsAreGrey_ post above with the adorable dance footage

 

[iloveunotbutmaybe]

 

[DeathSleep]

 

[OhWellDerp321]

First few sentences in lyrics really hits hard.

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Stumbled across this the other day.

If anyone has an hour to kill... Or listen to when getting ready for work.

VIDEOMIX HIGH ENERGY 3

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Warbringer-A Better World




I walk decaying cities of a world upon the brink
I watch the earthly creatures one by one become extinct
As I run back and forth to keep a roof above my head
No hope for tomorrow, the future is dead
That empty sinking feeling
Deep in the soul
No a better kind of world is not possible
It cannot be done, beyond my control
No a better kind of world is not possible
I keep myself distracted by staring at a screen
My mind always racing, no longer I dream
I swallow prescriptions cause the problem is me
My moods far more stable, no longer do I dream of another world
I race on ahead as if I don't know
My face cracks a smile but the grin is hollow
Cause I've got to get used to this reality
Expect nothing different from the powers that be
That empty sinking feeling
Deep in the soul
No a better kind of world is not possible
It cannot be done, beyond my control
A better kind of world is not possible
I don't think a change is something I'll live to see
I'm far more realistic, no longer I dream
I swallow my drugs to silence a scream
I keep myself sedated, no longer do I dream of another worl
Each day the same as the previous one
And each day I stay on the grind as I run
To that mass burial plot, where I'll surely be missed
No, the world I imagine, could never exist
That empty sinking feeling
Deep in the soul
No a better kind of world is not possible
It cannot be done, beyond my control
A better kind of world is not possible
I'm far too sedated to utter a scream
But no, no longer, no longer do I dream
No longer do I dream
No longer do I dream of another world

 

[waxxer]

 

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Ghost-Satanized








There is something inside me
And they don't know if there is a cure
A demonic possession
Unlike any before
It's a sickening heartache
And it's slowly tormenting my soul
I've invested my prayers
Into making me whole
I should have known
Not to give in
I should have known
Not to give in
Blasphemy, heresy
Save me from the monster that is eating me
I'm victimized
Blasphemy, heresy
Save me, from the bottom of my heart I know
I'm satanized
I'm satanized
I'm satanized
An nescitis quoniam membra vestra
Templum est Spiritus Sancti
Qui in vobis est
Quem habetis a Deo?
Et non estis vestri
Through a life of devotion
I've been quelling my urges to burst
I've been fighting the notion
To, by love, be coerced
I should have known
Not to give in
I should have known
Not to give in
Blasphemy, heresy
Save me from the monster that is eating me
I'm paralyzed
Blasphemy, heresy
Save me, from the bottom of my heart I know
I'm satanized
I'm satanized
I'm Satanized
Like a deadly affliction
That is twisting and bending my core
I have begged God for the remedy
But I'm no longer sure
I should have known
Not to give in
I should have known
Not to give in
Blasphemy, heresy
Save me from the monster that is eating me
I'm laicized
Blasphemy, heresy
Save me, from the bottom of my heart I know
I'm satanized
From the bottom of my heart I know
I'm satanized
From the bottom of my heart I know
I'm satanized
I'm satanized
I'm satanized

 

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Frankie J-Don't Wanna Try








I can't believe you had the nerve to say the things you said
They hurt so bad that they ended our relationship
I can't believe it, four years go down the drain
Oh, how I wish things would have happened so differently
I tried to save us so many times, but still, you couldn't see
You kept insistin' and resistin' that you would not fall again
And now you're tryna tell me that you're sorry
And you're tryna come back home
You're tellin' me you really need me crying
Beggin' both knees are on the floor
But baby, I
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, don't wanna try no more
You keep insisting when you know our love is out the door
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try 'cause all we do is fight
And say the things that hurt too bad to where we both begin to cry
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, I've about just had enough
It's been a rough road, baby, just let it go
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, don't wanna try no more
Tell me what's the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love
You and I had many conversations on the telephone
Talks about one day we having a place of our own
Wake up in the morning and have breakfast ready on the table
But all of that just seems so far away from me
Had to wake up, face reality
It all just seem too good to be true after all you put me through
And now you're tryna tell me that you're sorry
And you're tryna come back home
You're tellin' me you really need me crying
Beggin' both knees are on the floor
But baby, I
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, don't wanna try no more
You keep insisting when you know our love is out the door
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try 'cause all we do is fight
And say the things that hurt too bad (don't wanna try, don't wanna try)
To where we both begin to cry
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, I've about just had enough
It's been a rough road, baby, just let it goDon't wanna try, don't wanna try, don't wanna try no more
Tell me what's the use of holdin' on when all we do is hurt our love
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try (don't wanna try)
Don't wanna try no more (don't wanna try no more)
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try, (don't wanna try) oh
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try (don't wanna try)
Don't wanna try no more (don't wanna try no more)
Don't wanna try, don't wanna try
Don't wanna try no more (try no more)
More (more)

 

[Namelesa]

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Gemini Syndrome-Suffer In Silence





Someone told me once that I need thicker skin
Now all I have are scars
Someone else suggested I should look within
If I want any answers
I don't wanna talk about my feelings anymore
I have a unique disease and you don't have the cure
I'll suffer in silence
My alternative to violence
Someone tried to tell me I was powerless
And they thought they were right
Better not to bet against me no matter what you heard
I never throw a fight
I don't wanna talk about my feelings anymore
(Shut up, shut up, shut up!)
I have a unique disease and you don't have the cure
I can see through the illusion if I close my eyes
(Suffer in silence)
I tried living honestly and all I got were lies lies lies lies!
I'll suffer in silence
My alternative to violence
I think I'm about to go over the edge
And I don't know how to fly
I don't wanna talk about my feelings anymore
(Suffer in silence)
I have a unique disease and you don't have the cure
(Suffer in silence)
I can see through the illusion if I close my eyes
(Suffer in silence)
I tried living honestly and all I got were lies lies lies lies!
I'll suffer in silence
My alternative to violence
I'll suffer in silence
My alternative to violence

 

[WhatCouldHaveBeen32]

 

[not-2-b-the-answer]

Another 80's video mix....

I didn't know any of the songs. Something different I guess ... If you have an hour to kill.
A couple of scary drag queens in the mix.


R29_xXO

 

[fallingtopieces]

 

[Yonlux]

 

[CatLvr]

 

[Michi_Violeta]

Thought I found the right woman
To ease my troubled mind
You said you would be there for me, baby
To the end of time

Thought I had a chance to start all over
You said you'd be there every step of the way
But all I ever get
All I ever get is empty promises, baby
Empty promises, baby

As time went on, we stayed together
I knew you would never change, never change
You said you wouldn't break my heart, just like the others
And we would make it someday

Thought I had a chance to start all over
You said you'd be there every step of the way
But all I ever get
All I ever get is empty promises, baby

Empty promises, baby
Empty promises, baby
You know I want you
Gotta have you, baby
You know I need you
Empty promises