What mistakes have you made that got you to where you are today?

[Daffodil]

My major mistake was moving back in with my parents to do a grad degree that I ended up not being passionate about. I had a severe and extended mental breakdown, with psychosis, as a result. Now I'm out of work, don't want to finish my degree, and it's so toxic here I want to die immediately. I don't see a way out, because I'm too ill to be independent, but I can't live like this. I never thought a few seemingly minor mistakes would lead me to planning to end it all.

 

[R_N]

Trusting psychiatrist.

 

[Flau]

Trusting people, being naive and kind.
That is my biggest mistake that I keep suffering from even to this day.

 

[k75]

Consenting to surgery to treat my cancer. Every bad thing has led back to that somehow. I wish I could undo it all.

 

[Flume]

Being a beta .

 

[Nemeshisu]

Being Born, trusting some people I shouldn't trust, not succeeding at my first suicide attempt at age of 14, rejecting every chance for recovery after my first suicide attempt.

 

[PDAnnie2610]

I regretted self harming when I was 16. It led to years of struggle and stigma. I regretted trusting. Now I trust precious few.

 

[chris8000]

Lot's of mistakes, too many to remember now. But one big one was not looking after my health and especially diet enough when I was younger, otherwise I may well have not developed this nasty disease that has ruined my life.

 

[Carina]

Never being able to be me, always having to be what others wanted. Reading them so I'd be the perfect representation of what they expected. And losing myself along the way. I don't even know what parts of my personality are really me, or just parts I have because they were common that everyone expected me to have.

Messed up, but it all started out as a survival instinct when in like preschool periods. It's a mistake because had I not of done that, maybe the trauma I experienced may have never happened, and maybe, just maybe, ... well... I might have never considered anything other than living.

 

[Rena rossy]

Being born... haha . Well, maybe but the last mistake that was the worst I ever made was moving back from a place I was really cared for back to my family... I fucked up bad

 

[HereToday]

Too many so I'll just mention the biggest ones.
Believing my abusive parents when they told me they had "changed" and to come back home. I was young and alone so fell for it.
Going to uni solely to please my parents, when my mental health clearly wasn't up to scratch.
Falling for my abusive narcissistic sociopath ex. Giving him hundreds of chances even after he cheated, told his friends he was going to marry me for money, treated me like absolute shit and crushed my spirit and soul, all while promising he loved me and we were going to be together forever. When he found a new supply he discarded me like it was the easiest thing in the world. No explanation, no closure. This one is the most painful.
I think I'll leave it there so I don't bore everyone to death

 

[Wayfaerer]

There is only one mistake that I've made over five years ago that had landed me here. Just one. I Cannot elaborate more than that other than it's sad when your foolish younger self sabotages your wiser older self and you don't even realize it until years later.

 

[Soulless_Angel]

Breathing, just breathing! Oh and having my own mind, damn that bugger gets me in so much trouble it's insane!!

 

[CarefulWithThatAxe]

It was a mistake me being born and everything else since I just can't seem to do anything right.

 

[porfin1234]

Leaving my amazing home and job.
then spiraling out of control because I did not adapt to the changes and cannot believe the delusions that led me to sacrifice it all.

 

[Guizin239]

being alive

 

[Epsilon0]

There is only one mistake that I've made over five years ago that had landed me here. Just one. I Cannot elaborate more than that other than it's sad when your foolish younger self sabotages your wiser older self and you don't even realize it until years later.

The owl of Minerva flies at dusk, they say. So true! How I wish I could impart a few words of wisdom on my younger self! How I wish I could do certain things differently! Alas, too late now. The arrow of time points in only one direction for us wretched earthlings.

 

[Final Escape]

It was not all my fault and started with abusive parenting, crap gov schooling. But starting in the strip club was the biggest early mistake. Also not waiting till marriage to have sex or some sort of committed thing. Becoming promiscuous in my teens. I ended up repeatedly pregnant and aborting all my kids. That fucked me up but I tried to deny and suppress the pain of losing my would be kids. Then when I began to seek help to change my life I made the mistake of going to the psychiatrist and the medicating began. I believed I was mentally ill wen really I was just traumatized bad as a child. Student loans certainly weren't a good idea.

 

[Trisolaris]

Quite a few, the most major one is getting psychiatric treatment when I was a teen-ager that left me worse off than before.

 

[Freedom Believer]

Not getting involved in more things.

 

[Epsilon0]

It was a mistake me being born and everything else since I just can't seem to do anything right.

I really like your username!

 

[Nem]

Being in a very controlling relationship with a sociopath, taking meds from a shitty psychiatrist, nearly dying and now I'm fucked. This is the fucking shits now I'm FUCKED!!!!!
Peace/hugs

 

[BabyYoda]

Believing those "fairy tales" I see on social media that say "One day, someone will love you forever" and letting confirmation bias kick in. I thought this certain person was "the one" (which I don't believe exists for me) and then it turned out that my expectations were too high due to that stupid brainwashing on the media. We're better as friends, and we still are. It was my mistake too to believe that everyone is supposed to live a life filled with unicorns and rainbows and that we will be fixed by this thing called love. Unfortunately I can't live the life of those whose lives are filled with love because of who I am. Now I need to make myself feel comfortable being alone and have as little attachment to people as possible.

 

[mediocre]

My biggest mistake was not dealing with my problems and letting them overwhelm me. I should have looked after my physical health better. I always look back now and I regret every single decision I've made that's led me to this point. I've wasted so much time.

 

[Misanthrope]

Believing with enough reason, evidence based approaches, empathy and passion you can improve damaging stupidity or change broken systems from within. All it has led to is burn out, misanthropy and becoming jaded to the horrors of life.

 

[TAW122]

Well, when I was born, I was different from others and I reacted differently, had different quirks and behaviors, and didn't understand why I didn't get social norms. It was when I was a teenager that I was diagnosed with Aspergers, which is a developmental disorder on the autism spectrum. I'd say some of my biggest mistakes was just not listening to people and going about doing things my way. I suppose if I had listened to people more and took "good" advice, perhaps in some areas of my life it would have been better. However, 20/20 hindsight since one different variable will affect other variables so it's hard to say.

 

[Schadenfreude]

Too many to list, but my most recent (and subjectively the most devastating) mistake was two weeks ago when I overdosed at my boyfriend's (now ex) place and he and his parents found me lying on the floor. He called the ambulance and I never saw/spoke to him since then. Didn't even bother to visit me at the hospital nor responded to my messages. I think that was the breaking point for him, and I don't blame him.

 

[Wayfaerer]

It was not all my fault and started with abusive parenting, crap gov schooling. But starting in the strip club was the biggest early mistake. Also not waiting till marriage to have sex or some sort of committed thing. Becoming promiscuous in my teens. I ended up repeatedly pregnant and aborting all my kids. That fucked me up but I tried to deny and suppress the pain of losing my would be kids. Then when I began to seek help to change my life I made the mistake of going to the psychiatrist and the medicating began. I believed I was mentally ill wen really I was just traumatized bad as a child. Student loans certainly weren't a good idea.

If it's any consolation, I regret my celibacy. I'm sorry you had to go through all of that though. I can relate 100% regret for patronizing headshrinkers.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

Trusting certain people. My whole life is really a mistake.

 

[Fly🦋]

living, breathing and making friends. I'm already a burden to my family. Once i kill myself i will still be a burden to my friends, if they even truly care. That's my biggest mistake. Getting close with people. I can't help it though.