what is your silliest reason to stay alive?

[ThanatopicFugue]

I have a group of discord friend who I'd miss if I died. I don't want to stop talking to them or playing games with them. Honestly, pretty much the only things I look forward to is playing games with them every week.

 

[L0nely]

waiting for a guy that doesn't give a flying fuck about me to stop ghosting me and send me a message

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

I don't want depression to win

I want to move and see if that will help. I hate this town. Honestly if I'm gonna ctb, I'd rather die anywhere than here. This place is a shithole.

I'm moving next year if things go to plan.

I hope we can hear about when you move. I'm planning the same thing after college in a few years and honestly, it's terrifying to imagine for me. My town is a very rural, backwards area. I'm moving to a bustling city in the south, but it's more progressive than where I live because of the high transplant rates.

I don't think your reasons are silly, though. I hope everything goes well for you and you're able to move.

waiting for a guy that doesn't give a flying fuck about me to stop ghosting me and send me a message

I know this is easier said than done but your should probably drop him. You deserve better

I have a group of discord friend who I'd miss if I died. I don't want to stop talking to them or playing games with them. Honestly, pretty much the only things I look forward to is playing games with them every week.

I don't like gaming with people but gaming alone is something I really enjoy and it's also a reason I enjoy life. :)

 

[catbuddy515]

Watching the movie Mulan (the animated version). It's a comfort movie for me.

 

[WhatPowerIs]

I would like to complete more anime.

 

[space-jester]

i have a puppy that i love very much. he greets me good morning every day and always wants to be with me, everyone in my family kind of has labeled him as "my dog" i am very happy for the first time in a long time, and he keeps me on my toes.
it feels nice to have someone/something very happy to see you and love you.

also maybe playing my cringe little video games :P that helps too

 

[sensenmann]

Don't want to miss the collapse of civilization/end of the world, while everyone around me would panic, I would be so happy and celebrate it.

 

[Hellish Ore]

Pancakes :)

 

[tiger b]

The counting game on this site MUST be completed.

It must.

It just must.

Please help...

 

[LivideLamb]

Right now, I need to watch Saw X

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

Right now, I need to watch Saw X

Honestly same

 

[tiredcat]

silliest?

honestly and truly i just really like food. food is good. especially going out to eat good food mgfgfdjsalsa i love food

 

[ultraviolence]

I've never had my first kiss...

 

[Professor K]

'silly' being used very generously here, i dont think there's anything silly to live for as long as it makes you happy, this thread is just for fun!

right now my utter silliest is probably the cute guy at work, i think hes funny and sweet and it'd be kinda awkward for me to ctb after flirting w/ him for a month HAHAHA, do you guys have anything more mundane/not particularly spectacular to live for? a lot of us hang on out of obligation to our family, so i wanna see if we can make a more lighthearted space for all the smaller things in life worth staying around for :)

my 2nd silliest (deserves to be my first) is literally the fnaf movie ((if its bad im speeding up my ctb plan))

honestly for now:
-maybe having the opportunity travel out of my country with school (never got out of there yet)
-PRACTISING PIANO AND COMPOSING!!!!
-writting
-solving professor layton puzzles on my 3ds for the 9999th time
-other NDS/DSL/DSi/3DS... video games
-listening to music
-playing chess
-enjoying a walk outside, in the forest or field, feeling nature to the fullest

 

[sympathyforthedevil]

I wish it was something grand/highbrow like pursuing art but most of the time it's just too goddamn exhausting to care about any interests and I just want things to end

Silliest reason: I love my GP doctor who is seriously the nicest person around and, although they haven't really helped with my depression, alway goes above and beyond and spends a disproportionate amount of time and thoughts caring for me.

I worry that I will disappoint or cause them stress by ctb. I'm even scared that if I did I might cause them trouble for 'failing to save me'. I just don't want to cause anyone else trouble. Is that strange?

For the same reason I've been thinking about how to reduce the 'mess' when doing it ie some methods leaves behind a larger trace for others to clean up and/or are more public.

 

[Waiting for death]

My tattoos lol

 

[orphic]

Animals and unfinished books and mangas lol

 

[ThatStateOfMind]

My tattoos lol

This one piqued my curiosity. Is it that they're unfinished, or you really like them?

I've never gotten a tattoo and really want to cross that off a bucket list of mine so I suppose that's why this piqued my interest

 

[prettyreadytogo]

i still have concerts to go to

 

[pawlessz]

the music artist Bladee.. idk but his songs make me realky happy and it makes me sad when i think about being dead and not being able to listen to them

 

[D1byRam3n]

My reason I still haven't had any experience in relationships with women

 

[iamalreadydead]

the next deltarune chapter..

 

[Heartaches]

Food. I like eating and cooking it.

 

[CuriosityAndCat]

I've got 3.

1. Attacked by large parrot who thought I was leaving (I was planning to catch the bus). Trying to not get hole put in you (pain avoidance?) and adrenaline makes you feel you need a reason to die instead of needing a reason to live!

2. Same AH bird. Not sure if I'd even be able to find someone to take care of him.

3. I haven't spent enough on recovery. At minimum if you're someone who wants to avoid a bad stochastic decision, you need to spend at minimum $17k out-of-pocket if you're in North America. It's like selling a stock just because it went down a single point. Making decisions on feeling good or bad feels too impulsive. Otherwise you'll just sell too early or hold for too long.

 

[get.some.sleep]

I love music and know that if I died I would miss out on a lot of great music.

 

[Fimbulvetr]

To watch more anime lmao

 

[GeneTunney]

Movies. For example, Dune Part Two is on its way...gotta delay ctb until I have seen it.

 

[philia]

the music artist Bladee.. idk but his songs make me realky happy and it makes me sad when i think about being dead and not being able to listen to them

omg i love bladee too i listen to drain gang all the time

 

[traumer]

"someday i'll find my way home" by carole & tuesday. such a masterpiece

 

[sick.faery]

not having enough energy to get my rope and walk to the room nextdoor to do it
wanting to fast for 2-3 days before so i wont shit myself when i'm dying/dead, but never being able too