what is your reason to live?

[Sleepdrifter]

My only reason is to try and get an education. I am trying again this year. If it doesn't work out this time this will be it. I first tried going into a college but attempted suicide. Then started a degree, and the staff abandoned the course. Messed up an apprenticeship, but became homeless anyway. Went to another college who completely screwed everyone over. After that tried technical courses but found no luck getting into the field. And almost became homeless again. After that I gave up on myself. Then learned there was funding for part time. But it's still hard to get a place. And too late to ever have a career, afford my own house, car or family. No chance at travelling or going abroad, and not able to trust anyone because they always try and fuck you over. Life feels like prison.

 

[SentencedToLife]

A few people in my life, one of whom would not be ok if something happened to me. It's very challenging to continue to push through so much pain and unending suffering for other people, no matter how much I love them. I used to have things I cared about for myself, but over time everything has lost all meaning.

 

[Al_stargate]

Nothing really, just waiting for things to get unbearable, I guess.

 

[Cathy Ames]

To be honest, the title question gets on my nerves every time it shows up on the "latest threads" list. I have some reasons not to die yet but no reason to live. Also, I don't feel I'm really "living" anyhow. Somehow I am currently a thing that is alive but isn't actually "living."

Obviously I shouldn't criticize. The thing is posted in RECOVERY, after all.

 

[LastLoveLetter]

Truthfully, I simply struggle to summon the courage to kill myself. I tried to recently and sat on my edge of my bed holding my packet of SN and staring at it, frozen by fear. Now, it's a case of waiting for my desperation to outweigh my dread.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Jurassic World Dominion and Fire Emblem Warriors Three Hopes are the two main things keeping me alive but they both come out next month. Sonic Frontiers and Pokémon Scarlet or Violet may also be enough but once I'm done with those I don't see any other reasons for me to continue living. The only other thing that could convince me to throw out all desire to throw out my life would be by appealing to my putrid lizard brain by having a romantic partner available in my life but thankfully that's never going to happen.

 

[Eternaloblivionplea]

Main reason- Death could be change rather than (nothing) eternal oblivion.

2nd reason- limited access to humane & effective methods. Nembutal is MVP in peaceful pill handbook. The alternatives have problems with reliability, peacefulness, availability, etc.

 

[PinkSakura]

Girls, I love them too much

 

[FuneralCry]

I am only still alive as suicide is so difficult. No other reason. If it was easier to leave, I would already be gone. I do not even live, I just exist.
Edit: I just realised that this is in recovery. I do not even know how I ended up in this part of the forum. I will never recover, but I wish all those who choose that option the best.

 

[Neverlive]

My dog

 

[western_heart]

Love/Codependency

 

[Baemo]

I still have hope that I might get better, I might be a normal person, even though my mood shifts very quickly from suicidal to somewhat ok. It is a nightmare.

 

[butterfly🦋]

I still have hope that I might get better, I might be a normal person, even though my mood shifts very quickly from suicidal to somewhat ok. It is a nightmare.

I feel the same way. At times I'm sure I want to go then at other times I think it will be ok. I feel your pain and I hope your ok in this moment. It's really hard and stressful feeling so many ups and downs. I hope you do get better.

 

[lili]

My only reason to live is because I want to make films or just tell stories in general. But that is so hard to do that I often get overwhelmed.

I think I'm not worthy to do that a lot and I struggle. Right now I have no motivation and I'm not sure why I keep going. I try to force myself to remember my goal but it's hard.

 

[Baemo]

I feel the same way. At times I'm sure I want to go then at other times I think it will be ok. I feel your pain and I hope your ok in this moment. It's really hard and stressful feeling so many ups and downs. I hope you do get better.

Thank you, I wish you the same!

 

[SanitySalvage]

My mom and my dog keep me here. I have a better relationship with my dad than I did previously, but not enough to list him as a reason.
Once my mom and my boy are gone, I don't think I'll have anything left...who knows.

 

[LostInSociety]

The fear of leaving my Wife behind in this ugly world.
The hope of feeling better one day.
Good friends.
Drugs

 

[liza-lee]

I can't bear the thought of hurting the few people who are still close to me that much. I've already made them suffer enough. Maybe when some of them have passed on or I know they'll be okey.
There's also the occasional fun moment and hope sooo. Right now it's all about forcing my existence !

 

[vinterland8]

I haven't had any children

 

[Hirokami]

Educational goals and being a caretaker for my mom and two cats keeps me here, though sometimes I feel the former would be better off without me (even if she doesn't acknowledge it).

 

[akana]

my music taste/knowledge of music as well as taste in fashion even tho ive never actually really been able to express it which is the cause of me wanting to die lol bc i feel/am behind on building what couldve been a cool life story. also food.

 

[butterfly3]

as insane as this may sound, my ed. this may be triggering for some, but as much as i wanna die, i also wanna lose weight and become as thin as possible and fast as i can.
saw a post the other day that said 'i wanna die but i have a body to destroy' and i felt that.
also, music. i love music so much.

regardless of all this, if i had the option to die now painlessly, i'd take it

 

[CuriousAboutThis]

I haven't got a reason to live.

The only reason I still exist is that I haven't killed myself yet.

Yeah same I probably never will unless I snap or get really depressed and or desperate
My reason of living is in hopes of despite that everything that has happened to me and will happen to me that life is worth living despite sometimes it doesn't seem like it, and in hopes that everything will be alright and hopefully something good comes out of it.

 

[Negrathecat]

My partner is the only reason I'm still alive, if it weren't for him I would definitely not be here anymore.

 

[jamie_]

dont have the bottle to end it

 

[hopelessdreams]

books. coffee. distraction with work.

 

[Trezzohno]

My mom
Finishing my favorite TV series
Curiosity of what could change in my world
Fear of the Unknown absoluteness of death

 

[Marine]

I have yet to play Final Fantasy VII Remake lol. Oh and I have to find true love, become beautiful and fullfilled. Hopefully.

 

[LivideLamb]

My dog wouldn't understand

 

[Weebster]

Inertia