what is your reason to live?

[sportsguy56]

right now I feel as if I don't have any reasons to live. what's your reason to live?

 

[FallingGrace]

Drugs. Good food. Good music. Drugs. Alcohol. Good sex. Good company when I can find it. The sense of responsibility I feel I have to exhaust every possible avenue of help so people know I did all I could. I guess some call that hope. Did I say drugs?

 

[Huntfish34]

I'm sorry you are going through this.... I certainly agree with FallingGrace, Copious amounts of drugs and alcohol. Main things that drive me to live another day, waking up at 4am to go to work, or Whatever may happen.

I wish you the best,. Thoughts and prayers to you.

 

[Bootleg Astolfo]

Currently distracting myself with fashions. Life's worthless, but might as well make it as FABULLLOOOUUUS as possible.

 

[natali4]

Afraid what might happen to my parents if I die. I know they will be devastated and will probably get physically sick. Plus I'm the only one to take care of them.

 

[Arrow]

fun things to read about, fun games to play.

 

[motel rooms]

I love my husband & I know he loves & needs me despite all my flaws. My reason is the cheesiest so far!

 

[Marktheghost]

I haven't got a reason to live.

The only reason I still exist is that I haven't killed myself yet.

 

[whatevs]

I'm not sure, I just don't want to die just yet. My life is quite painful but I feel attached to it.

I guess my professional path as a programmer gives me a sense of direction as programs are like buildings and there is some pride in seeing them erected, and I feel some kind of connection with family and acquaintances.

I have fruit trees and an orchard too, and I minimally enjoy the pruning, planting, composting, collecting... I love my dog too but she would be almost as well without me.

 

[onlyanimalsaregood]

I think my cat and my friends

 

[existcrisisactor]

right now I feel as if I don't have any reasons to live. what's your reason to live?

i don't have one but still alive for now

 

[UnwantedUnlovable85]

Can't afford to kill myself and I'm not doin any painful shit either. Plus just too damn scared what's after. With everything in life the higher the expectation the greater the let down

 

[Weebster]

I need to have sex at least one more time. Then I can depart this life.im going to start going to bars

 

[Hate you]

No reason to live/keep living

 

[MellowAvenue]

My best friend has been this for a long time. Recently my niece and nephews have became this even though it's still difficult to push myself into spending time with them. It's rather frustrating because I want to but then can't explain why I just don't.

 

[DerTod]

None really. I'm 37 and all alone( no friends or family).On top of it i'm also asexual( Sertraline took even the little libido i had prior) and i probably have OCD as i'm bodyrocking on music to cope with life since the age of 2 (which made me avoid serious relationships for fear of not being able to do it anymore or being discovered and ridiculed for it). I'm afraid to CTB yet rationally this is the best solution for me. I kept saying to myself that i should wait 10 more years and work on my life to change my situation and maybe i'll be lucky to find someone who is like me and will understand me and accept me as i am...but there are a lot of maybes and very unlikely to happen. Most likely i'll be exactly like this 10 years latter and even worse as i'll be older. At least if i CTB now there will be no-one really hurt if i go and i won't have to face older age,illness,people abandoning me or hurting me,me feeling guilty that i hurt people by ending my life.

 

[StarryStarry]

Sweet Pea, my cat.

 

[Heartaches]

Very dumb reasons:

• I have a very good friend that's always there for me and have a ton of fun when we talk
• I love creating characters and stories and sharing them with others
• I love drawing porn, erotic and romantic stuff
• I get nice intense feelings and inspiration when I listen to music
• I'm a fatass and I love food
• Watching videos is fun
• Reading books is fun
• Gender euphoria
• Cats
• The slight hope I can help others and have a positive impact in someone else's life
• I just can't accept my death and dettach from this dumb stuff

 

[LacunaLacrimalis]

My kid - he has no dad on Earth, and no siblings, and I can't leave him alone. I'll CTB when he's grown and settled a bit.

My mom too, to a lesser extent. She has been through some god-awful shit, and I can'tadd to that right now

 

[KiraLittleOwl]

Fear of death, lack of painless methods and thin hope that Iife can be somewhere enjoyable in the future.
I can't think of anything else.

 

[Beforeigo]

My dog… no matter how rough life gets and how much I don't want to live, he needs me, he loves me unconditionally and the thought of anyone else having him doesn't sit right with me. He's the best thing in this entire universe for me

 

[Cryptonite]

My reason is that I was only recently diagnosed with a terrible physical illness and still haven't fully acknowledged it, which would allow me to CTB easier

 

[SuicidallyCurious]

Have money left

Have some youth left

Desire for events that were hitherto unexplained or could not be substantiated to physically resolve. Every day new rabbit holes are resolving. Would love to be around for more truths to come out about 9/11 . We have had some like the fact US Congress more or less admits the Saudis did it but more truths can be exposed with time that no government will be able to hide

Penis still works and there are still available mates

Small part of me would like elderly family members to pass even though there are none I care about enough to stop myself now. I don't actively hope for people to die but leaving someone with the aftermath I guess is a pain

 

[Ihadagoodlife]

Family. I thought i was maybe looking for an excuse but rn i really just want to go and i see how much they really hold me back it's a torture

 

[BeansOfRequirement]

Basically becoming adept at coping, increasing my mental (and to some extent physical) strength. Can't actually change anything (about nil initiative or will left) in my life, but I am more or less constantly increasing my cope and decreasing my seethe. Most noticeable in the reduction of anger/hatred/vitriol/strong emotions/etc. Also able to take others into account a little more.

Not enough to not be suicidal, but combined with a good routine and stuff it can make existence close to neutral for me.

 

[Slimetae]

Poverty and the lack of options to ctb and family I guess being around them 24/7

 

[Niko66]

Other than negative reasons like guilt, fear, lack of options, etc etc etc...

I want to experience what safety, comfort and love feels like before I die.

 

[The nerd]

Wife and kids, and my thc edibles help tremendously keeping good spirits.

 

[Dead Ghost]

For 10 months now only one, a girl I love much more than myself. He writes to me from time to time and I answer him once (it's a rule we set at the beginning because it made me heavy), sometimes I suffer because more than one happens without knowing anything, but I assume that it must be so as not to lose it.

In fact I often have strong mood swings and as I have no one to talk to I decided last week to sign up on this website to talk about my problems. Coincidentally, the next day he sent me a short e-mail telling me that he would have more time to write to me.

Today I am sad again, but I hope to hear your voice for the first time in the next communication (that's how we stayed).

As for my life alone, it still has no value and I just let time pass.

Farewell

Spoiler: Original Text

Desde fa 10 mesos només una, una noia que m'estimo molt més que a mi mateix. M'escriu de quan en quan i li contesto una vegada (és una norma que vam posar al principi perquè em feia pesat), de vegades pateixo perquè passa més d'un més sense saber rés, però asumeixo que ha de ser aixì per no perdre-la.

De fet sovint tinc baixades fortes d'ànim i com no tinc ningú amb qui parlar vaig decidir la setmana passada registrar-me a aquesta web per parlar dels meus problemes. La casualitat va voler que al día següent m'envies un breu correu en el qual em deia que haviat tindría més temps per escriure'm.

Avuí torno a estar trist, però tinc l'esperança de sentir la seva veu per primera vegada en la propera comunicació (així vem quedar).

En quan a la meva vida per si sola, no té encara cap valor i em limito a deixar passar el temps.

A reveure

 

[Grav]

Just too scared of what comes after. Most things like family and such don't really "connect" with me. I understand the concepts but don't feel any of it.