Discussion What is your biggest concern regarding suicide?

[franos666]

For me it's the fact that I don't really wanna die. I would love to lead a peaceful and happy live but I am just not able to reach that.
My main problem is depression and BDD (Body Dysmorphic Disorder). I would say that overall my body is normal. I am skinny but I am 6'1ft so it's okay. I just hate how my face looks and this singular thing makes my unhappy and suicidal. The thought that I could lead a relatively normal live if I just looked slighty different and accepted myself is so fucking painful. I just look around me and I see so many beautiful people anywhere and it really makes me sad about myself.

Other concern is about my parents, especially mother that would be very traumatised if I did it so I was thinking about waiting to her death and doing it then but If my mental state doesn't get better I think that thought about my family won't be enough to stop me


What about you?

 

[witchcraft]

That I wouldn't succeed.

Besides what you said in your first couple sentences.*

I also worry about traumatizing others, but I admit in my selfishness that it is a tertiary (or less) concern. I sometimes think that saying "I'll do it after my parents pass" is just a way to cover-up cowardice.

 

[Forever Sleep]

Failing the attempt and ending up in an even worse position. Permanently damaging my health so that I can't work and need to rely on others. Or, that I can't attempt again. People knowing that I failed to suicide. I'm not sure how that would go down with employers and the family/ friends I have left.

I really need to succeed on the first round of attempts.

Are you receiving treatment for depression/ body dysmorphia OP? I'm also waiting for a parent to go before I feel like I can. It's becoming harder and harder to do though.