Discussion What is the thing you hate the most about yourself?

[i dont feel real.]

Is there something, physically or mentally that you say "Damn, i hate this thing of myself", but can't or tried to, without good results, change? I think i hate my body and my person, a.k.a everything. I'm not smart, im not beautiful and i have no hobbies except making styrofoam (cut) and videogames.

 

[sserafim]

I don't hate anything about myself. I don't have an opinion on myself, honestly. I don't like my eyes, but I don't hate them. I just wish that they were bigger, longer, lighter and wider. I wear eyeliner and it creates the illusion that my eyes are longer, but not bigger. Maybe I should try double eyelid tape. I also wish that my eyes were deeper set. My eyes are the worst part of my face and side profile. I wish that they were golden or amber instead of brown

 

[untothedepths]

Everything. I don't think there is anything I like about myself.

 

[Eudaimonic]

Oh god, this is a hard one to answer. I hate almost everything about myself. I'd say I hate my body the most though.

 

[TotallyTerrible]

just about everything worth hating.

 

[xinino]

I hate empty feelings, not receptive to stimuli. It is not hate but confusion, where I feel like an object, especially when I have a depersonalization-derealization episode. I have a deep belief that my feelings are fake and never enough, which results in a lack of interest or halting in thinking, feelings, and self-monologue, which makes me feel like a piece of meat.

 

[4am]

more then anything i hate my consciousness, and that that i'm alive

 

[juna]

I hate that I feel so low almost all the time. Nothing makes me happy. I keep wallowing in self pity about how my childhood was so sad, now I am an adult and I still can't seem to feel okay. I just wish I could be normal mentally. The emptiness keeps increasing every day.

 

[Dliena]

I think I hate the fact that I feel and indeed am like the biggest grade F imbecile ever and also the fact that I lose my shit more often than I'd like to admit.
But even that isn't enough there's always a reason I hate myself and this universe that I got sucked and stuck in unfortunately.

 

[Alexei_Kirillov]

I hate how deeply I get attached to men and how needy/pathetic/desperate I am for their love, attention, and touch because I'm so starved of it. Everything takes me an absurd amount of time to get over, I still haven't gotten over an online friendship that ended over three years ago.

 

[1MiserableGuy]

I don't know how best to summarize it but I do things I know I shouldn't, just because I can get away with them

 

[sammiechzxv]

Everything. But lately, I've recently developed a stutter because of my medication and it's really embarrassing. So that right now.

 

[pilotviolin]

i used to hate myself deeply though now i only dislike my lack of drive & energy and the abundance of apathy

 

[surroundedbydemons]

Some of my bad traits due to genetics. I like myself overall

The problem is that even if I replace them, I will cease to be myself.


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A bit related:
The Ship of Theseus is a thought experiment about whether an object is the same object after having had all of its original components replaced.
[Wikipedia: Ship of Theseus]

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Oh, where do I begin? I don't believe I could ever pick just one little thing to hate most about the infinitely hate-able being I am. I guess for now I'll just say one thing I hate about myself most is how cowardly I am, especially when it comes to interacting with any women I've ever had a crush on.

 

[soulkitty]

I hate how self sabotaging I am. I do it so often and a lot of the times it's subconscious. It's so hard to recognize when I'm doing it.
I hate that I don't know if I'm a good person. I think I'm a shitty person and really annoying.
I hate that I overthink I also hate just the way I am I hate that I'm mentally ill
I hate that I've done things that have made people feel shitty and I have so many regrets. All I ever wanted was to be a good person I hate myself so much

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I can't say that I really hate anything about myself or what I did in the past. I made wrong decisions that ultimately lead me to the point where I am now but I don't hate myself for that nor would I punish myself for that.

 

[Forveleth]

I used to hate everything about myself. As a child and teen I got bullied a lot for my appearance. Also my parents controlling how I looked (clothing, hair, etc) and not allowing me to be me gave me pretty big dysphoria issues. But fast-forward 20 or so years and now I'm wearing what I want, I can style my hair the way I want, I exercise and am getting jacked like I want. Really, I love my physical self for the most part (boobs are annoying but omg getting rid of them is way too much effort for me).

I would love to change my eyeballs. They've been very broken since birth and having poor vision sucks. Also, now that I am getting older shit is starting to break down and that's annoying but it's also life.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

My breasts. I wish they were perkier but they aren't. They aren't even that big (I'm a 34ddd but only because one of my boobs is slightly bigger than the other so it spills out a tiny but when I wear a 34dd). While I've never had issues with dudes online or that one guy giving a shit, it still bothers me.

 

[ijustwishtodie]

I don't really hate myself. Don't get me wrong, there are things that I have which I hate such as autism, social anxiety and my neurotype but I don't hate myself for these things because I never asked to be born like this. I instead hate existence and other people for forcing me to suffer

 

[Apathy79]

Not following through on what I plan to do. Every day. Whatever that trait is - I have it real bad.

 

[FuneralCry]

I don't, I just despise existing instead. More than anything I wish I never existed at all, I have no interest in the futile and torturous burden of existing as a human, I don't want to suffer in any way and existing is nothing but suffering. I never would have chose this if it was up to me.

 

[i dont feel real.]

Oh, where do I begin? I don't believe I could ever pick just one little thing to hate most about the infinitely hate-able being I am. I guess for now I'll just say one thing I hate about myself most is how cowardly I am, especially when it comes to interacting with any women I've ever had a crush on.

I'm feeling that one. I'm just a coward. I can't affront anything, I'm scared of everything, scared of woman, scared of life, scared of death. I'm afraid of existence, but also afraid of inexistence. I don't know what to do about it.

 

[NullSz00]

Most likely everything.

 

[eatantz]

body & personality

 

[LunarLight]

Being trans, ugly and having discovered sexuality the wrong way.

 

[hot]

my looks

 

[*Hope*]

Surprised no one mentioned height lol

Being 176 instead of 180+ is def the biggest thing that I disliked about myself since highschool (and probably the only thing tbh)

 

[Dead Horse]

How incredibly boring I am.

 

[greebo6]

Difficult choice as there are a few things but I suppose overall it is my ugliness .