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DiscussionWhat is the one mistake that has affected your whole life ?
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Nah, I mean, you can really be sure that I know at least "something" about dysphoria; and because of that, I recommend you to go to therapy...but maybe it will work, maybe don't, idk. Best wishes to you, bro.
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so many things, i have so many regrets. agressively isolating myself in highschool, being a cunt to people who loved me, giving up on myself before i really even gave myself a chance.
i think back to years ago when i was so suicidal and thought i had nothing and laugh at myself because i actaully had things to live for back then. now i really do have nothing and no one, i was just so selfish and blind then.
Choosing hundreds of the wrong friends and choosing the wrong partners, so many stories and facts I've learned about people who in the long run have all abandoned me over false accusations from a vengeful ex. That ruined me and the perfect relationship I had with the best partner I'll ever have, as she has now moved onto some celebrity personal trainer.
being dumb enough to believe that the ones who broke and abused me changed, and convincing myself i was to blame for not being to rationalize their wicked form of help, which turned from straight insults, gaslighting and straight lying and framing me in mistreating them (mostly when rarelly desperately begging for help, or just silently in physical pain looking for the least bit of compassion(proving it was me in the wrong, always have been, but sadly..no.) to a "passive" agressive form of virtue signaling to my tormented face and acting like they are the good people who clearly suffer more(and i should be ashamed) because they have all the empathy in the world which they long ago(when i was in adolescense, ridden with physical illness and ptsd) grew tiered of displaying even a little, because that would require admission of responsibility and guilt. this illusion for them is perptuated by keeping together and blaming all the problems on the victims of their actions and world. they took everything from me(i gave them) and they included all the hierarchal institutions playing their own sick games to ensure i never would be able to "come after" their illusions again and wont receive help from anyone. so they with the help of eachother, can keep up the bullying while holding their heads high, prancing around as the "good/better people".
the worst part about being more intelligent and sincerelly loving your abusers? they know this, and can bounce back and forth (depending on which will hurt you more) treating you as "the nutjob", who's in the wrong irregardless and the "aint nothing wrong with you, you speak coherently and all your troubles are your own fault".
i know this edgy blogpost may draw lots of presumptions and assumptions about our life, but i beg you to not treat lives as predictable clichés made of at most 10 factors, even tho i made it sound even worse, seen this family do on every occasion and which i may or may not be hypocritically doing currently.
Nah, I mean, you can really be sure that I know at least "something" about dysphoria; and because of that, I recommend you to go to therapy...but maybe it will work, maybe don't, idk. Best wishes to you, bro.
Trusting my shitty parents. I ran away from home and stupidly let them back into my life. Although they are both dead now, I regret giving them a second chance…..fuckers.
My boyfriend fucking ctb 12 days ago, it's my birthday & i hate myself for not ctb when I had the chance . I keep being a gd pussy. I admire how strong he was to be able to do it . im too weak too live but too weak to go out with the plan apparently FUCK SI . I have all the ingredients (co method) . it's just left to me. Keeping my suicide note close.
Continuing to sin, when I knew not to. Knowing that ultimately it would lead to my spiritual death. Physically I'm alive, on the inside I'm dead and empty.
Letting my mother control me for so long and putting up with her abuse, I wish I had had the courage to walk away years ago instead of the start of this year
My boyfriend fucking ctb 12 days ago, it's my birthday & i hate myself for not ctb when I had the chance . I keep being a gd pussy. I admire how strong he was to be able to do it . im too weak too live but too weak to go out with the plan apparently FUCK SI . I have all the ingredients (co method) . it's just left to me. Keeping my suicide note close.
Not realizing that noise exposure can cause much more than hearing loss. Turning up my car stereo on a bad day during my divorce caused an acoustic trauma that's ruined my life and led to a multitude of ear issues I never knew even existed. Mainly pain hyperacusis that has taken everything from me.
Needing mental health help via the NHS (UK) under a relentless resource cutting Tory government b2b the covid shitshow. I could have acted sooner but didn't. You gotta pay to play sometimes! I've lived a great life though. Haven't missed out on much. True love yes but outside of that I've ticked a lot of boxes! I'll take comfort in that when I finally ctb
Not taking advantage of having better health during childhood, getting involved with the wrong crowd, running away from my foster parents, not figuring out about my autism sooner, so so many regrets..
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