Venting What is Something That Would Make You Reconsider Suicide for a Short Moment?

[gnomeboy17]

Honestly, I think that comparing myself with others is a huge, huge problem. It's probably why I'm not self-confident or have much self-esteem. I can't get better until I learn to stop wasting my own time by comparing myself with others.

Yeah I get you. Although, I don't really have low self esteem, honestly, I'm fairly attractive, I'm funny at times, good at music and my grades were good. I know I could probably have a decent job but I just don't think my life will ever be what it could've been and that makes me sad

 

[Donk]

Yeah I get you. Although, I don't really have low self esteem, honestly, I'm fairly attractive, I'm funny at times, good at music and my grades were good. I know I could probably have a decent job but I just don't think my life will ever be what it could've been and that makes me sad

@justanotherhuman6 i dont get it. it sounds like you have a lot to live for. why you want to ctb?

 

[Rinzing]

I suppose if anything would make me reconsider at the moment it would be my cat pokey he's so precious to me, he will always hold a special space in my heart.

 

[gnomeboy17]

@justanotherhuman6 i dont get it. it sounds like you have a lot to live for. why you want to ctb?

Mostly due to severe anxiety, I can hardly leave the house, and I feel physically sick every day, I don't even have some sort of traumatic past and every therapist I've seen it's never worked out, I don't think this anxiety will ever stop.

I am also transgender, it isn't too bad anymore. I was born female but been living as male for 3 years and although I do suffer with dysphoria it's manageable, but it still hurts to know my life isn't what it could've been.

Finally, I'm just so scared of never being happy, if I don't have a good job, relationship, be successful, I don't know how I will live like that. At least by ctbing I get control over my future.

 

[Conker]

Never had any Nintendo/Xbox/PS/gaming PC in my whole life so if I wanted to play the game, I had to watch walkthrough :/
I don't think I could actually reconsider CTB because my schizoaffective is not curable.
I may have a lot of money, I can be the greatest writer ever, travel around the world as much as I can, but I will never run away from myself.
This will haunt me all the time.

If you want I'd be willing to buy you a present, even fund the whole battle-station for you. Only downside is you'll have to be patient until the last quarter of next year.

 

[faust]

If you want I'd be willing to buy you a present, even fund the whole battle-station for you. Only downside is you'll have to be patient until the last quarter of next year.

Thanks a lot! However, I will be gone... :(